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I want them to be evil together :)

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hyunjin — skz talker go! season 5: ep.12 rio de janeiro

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Hyunjin posted on instagram

Via @/hynjinnnn

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EXCUSE ME MR. HWANG HYUNJIN!??

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Jiaoqiu stealing Yae Miko's outfit

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Was thinking about Octavia and Stolas and got sad about it 😭

Feelings and junk under the cut~

This one's been sitting awhile and in that time I've gone from feeling relatively certain about what I'm trying to express, to no longer having any idea what I'm expressing, to once again feeling kinda sure about it! It was meant as hopeful but I can't fully say it ended up that way; the little perspective shift at the end was originally intended as optimistic, because without it things felt to 'final', but in retrospect I might've just made it worse 😂 I had all kinds of feelings going into this, thinking about all the little private ways we try to measure our worth in other people's lives and how badly that can miss the mark, but more than anything I think I was trying to ask myself something from Octavia's perspective. When someone goes through something life-alteringly traumatic, eventually they always find a new normal. No matter how devastating something is in the moment, given time, things will always settle. So what does that feel like when you are the thing someone you love is 'settling' from? It's not fair to assume that someone's life is better without you in it just because they're still out there living. But what does it feel like, to see first-hand that they have either somewhat healed or hidden a wound that you carved in them yourself. Because you don't want them to hurt (well, you kinda do a little) but you also don't really want them to forget (even though you told them they should) and then it all becomes a jumbled mess in your head. Thankfully, I don't think Via and Stolas are going to be estranged long enough for this to become the kind of obstacle I'm portraying here. Pretty sure I accidentally stumbled into some of my own old teenage angst there - always a fun time 😂 I handled this a little clumsily, I think, and I have a few nitpicks with the formatting (beefing with past me's approach is a time-honored tradition for these things 😌) but it's sincere and I'm still happy with it~

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they can't stop you from thinking about gay sex on company time

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save me

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"A light in the ocean of tears"

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I'm back in the fandom, ya'll. A little tribute to satanic_bipanic's DTIYS on the 🐦 site. Of course it's a doodle page-- who do you think I am.

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౨ৎ cherry blossom umbrella

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your heart's wish.

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"I will try to make amends

For making you means to an end

So, look my way

Please look my way!"~~