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artisanal hand-crafted durge memes

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I know no one is gonna see this so fuck it.

FROM NOW ON EVERYONE ONLY GETS 1 REBLOG. YOU HAVE TO RELY ON YOUR FOLLOWERS TO ADD REBLOG NOTES. YOU CAN TELL YOUR FOLLOWERS ANYTHING YOU WANT. BUT YOU CAN ONLY REBLOG ONCE.

10- I drink water everyday

20- I’ll eat 3 meals a day

25- I start learning how to cook

50- I stop being a lurker on tumblr

100- I will get 7+ hours of sleep a night

150- I make a lip care routine for me

200- I start writing fic (on my main @secretlynotablog)

350- I make and stick to a skin care routine

500- I’ll eat healthy food

750- I get out of bed at a decent time (9:30 am)

1,000- I get back into baking

1,500- I get back into photography

2,000- I’ll start going on a walk every day again

5,000- I’ll start trying to get a job

10,000- I’ll learn how to figure skate

15,000- I’ll begin going to therapy again

20,000- My cousin hooks me up with one of her besties.

50,000- I actually take myself out somewhere and enjoy myself

(Goals are subject to change. Haha Losers.)

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Nothing I ever make will top this.

This is my peak contribution to the Astarion fandom.

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Hi! Hope you're ok! I just wanted to tell you that your game is one of my favourites. I love the concept, and even if normally I like a good old revenge arc, I love how in your story the focus is for MC to be "free" to finally be able to live...I send you a lot of love and I hope to be able to read more soon (but no pressure!) ❤️

Thank you!!! It's being written! Just…very slowly

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Purr for me~

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This is honest to god the funniest thing I have ever seen in my entire life

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Astarion would probably get really dumbfounded with the little things, just the cute stuff you do in a relationship:

Like, when Tav puts on nothing but his shirt after they've lain together. And he just gets flustered how it looks on them - and how it immediately symbolises to him how much they belong to him. Loving how his shirt smells like them for the rest of the day, making them do it again because he can't get it out if his head.

Because he's never experienced that - not the soft, intimate things two people share because they deeply belong to each other.

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Hey, stop scrolling.

Everyone who is reading this: I’m so glad you’re alive. I’m so proud of you. You are loved. I’m here. Don’t give up, we’re almost there.

Pass it on.

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Shu: *lays his head down in Yui's lap*

Yui: *petting his head* This is why people think we’re dating?

Shu: *abruptly sitting up* Wait— we’re not dating?

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How much of a terrible mom was Cordelia? A full explanation.

It's a shame that the first post of my blog is dedicated to a rather ''interesting'' take @yuikomorii showed me, but taking into account that I've done my research involving the mothers, I find it a perfect opportunity to make a full explanation of Cordelia's abusive behavior.

Before I start, I would like to talk about why Cordelia acted the way she did (I AM NOT JUSTIFYING HER ACTIONS).

We know that Cordelia's father was neglectful towards her after the death of her mother which made her lack the ability to understand love.

Karlheinz manipulated Cordelia into marrying him and giving him children FORCEFULLY (because Cordelia did not want to have children). He also convinced Cordelia that it was okay for her to have many lovers and to have sexual relationships with FAMILY members

Cordelia's abusive behavior towards the triplets also comes over the fact of her jealousy and obsession with Karlheinz and surpassing Beatrix and Christa.

Getting this out of the way I will now start explaining why Cordelia was NOT a good mother despite her traumas.

It's not strange to view Cordelia negatively if she's one of the antagonists of the franchise. NEVER did Diabolik lovers ever paint Cordelia as a good person and constantly tell us about how shitty she was towards her children and how much it affected them.

2. I'm not denying the fact that around those times parenting was more strict, however, you're forgetting that Cordelia didn't just slap, ground, or yell at her children, she put intense waves of pressure on Ayato, and drowned him, she sexually abused Laito, manipulated him and groomed him when he was a KID, forced Kanato to sing until he bled and made him watch her have intercourse with other men. This was the abuse the triplets went through until they finally had enough and attempted to kill Cordelia, which they succeeded.

3. Yes, it's true that Beatrix wouldn't give the triplets much attention or love, she would probably neglect them due to not being her biological children and belonging to her rival, however, Beatrix WOULD NEVER do the messed up stuff Cordelia did. Yes, she was a terrible mother to Shu and Reiji, yet she would've never stepped down at Cordelia's level.

4. A normal mother doesn't drown and threaten her child due to personal issues, A normal mother doesn't sexually abuse her child and grooms him to make him depend on her, and a normal mother doesn't force her child to watch her have sex with men and doesn't use his singing voice to get horny. If she was an affectionate mother ayato wouldn't have found the need to HIDE himself from her and the triplets wouldn't have considered killing her.

5. I would also like to add, that no matter how badly influenced Cordelia was, and no matter how much childhood trauma she went through, that would never be a justification for the way she treated her children. This does not only apply to Cordelia, this applies to every character and to real people as well. It's a reason why they behave that way, but never a justification. Also, Cordelia doing the bare minimum and behaving like an actual mother for a few moments does not mean she cares about her children. I don't think this is explicitly told, but I believe in those particular scenes she's grooming Kanato to become dependent on her like she did with Laito and Ayato.

6. ''She never spoke that way to her children'' I'm sorry but I have to laugh?? I would've understood if you were an anime only (not really) but taking into account that you do know about the games this is really really wrong lol. I don't why it's difficult to understand that Cordelia didn't love her children. Cordelia is such a bad mother that when she was resurrected in Ayato's DF route, she didn't even apologize to him or to his siblings, and yet he still forgave her! She even told Ayato to APOLOGIZE to her and continued to insult him

(Credits to @dialovers-translations)

I understand (I think everyone in the fandom does) that Cordelia had her reasons to behave this way (childhood trauma and manipulation) but that doesn't excuse her actions. I don't agree with people hating on Cordelia and loving Karlheinz but I also don't agree with people defending Cordelia and saying she did nothing wrong when she did.

Cordelia isn't a black-and-white character and she's not a bad character either, she's very well-written for her purpose (an antagonist) but she's not a good person or mother. She never regretted what she did and if she was still alive during HDB she would've still been abusive to the triplets.

This is my problem with morally grey characters/Evil characters. They can't exist in media if people ignore their wrongdoings and actions and try to justify said actions. I'm not saying that they shouldn't exist but I'm tired of people painting them as good people or justifying their actions when their whole purpose as a character is to show that they're not good people and their actions are/were wrong.

To finish off the post I would like to say that I love Cordelia's character and I consider her to be one of the best-written characters in Diabolik Lovers. In my opinion, I would've liked to know more about her in further games but even if I feel this way about her I don't justify her actions and that's something we should all do. I'm glad the fandom no longer justifies the actions of the characters (with some obvious exceptions). And even if I like Cordelia as a character I don't shame others for not liking her, at the end of the day she was a horrible person lol.

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BECAUSE CITING SOURCES KILLED MY GRANDMA, OKAY?

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Fanart of the fic Dancing With My Demons from @again-please 💞

I simply love the tenderness from this moment

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"Shadowheart and Astarion would talk shit about other people together."

Shadowheart would talk shit about Astarion to that man's face.

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question here, my ask inbox will always say 1 message. But when I click on it there is nothing it's empty. Is that a sign I'm not getting shown an ask or is it just a glitch because it's been like that since I made this blog...

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When the heroes are not in the camp

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Hellooo just came back from the new content in itch.io. Quick question, does Chapter 2 really end with the soup scene? There's usually a note that says if it's the end of the demo, I was just confused. Sorry if it was obvious that it was.

That’s on me I completely forgot to put a note! That I not the end of chapter 2!

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omg are you taking requests !! i adore your art, id love it if you would do a shuu piece 🤎

Maybe Ralph Lauren another time