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"wahhhh they made the brotherhood of steel a cult and abusive wahhhh" my brother in Christ. Have you played the games

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inspired by the logan roy rolling with the lgbt video but i used born this way for italian pride

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I told my Dad I was "A FUNDAMENTALLY LONELY PERSON" and "I WILL ALWAYS BE ALONE" and he started to cry... (is this autism or am i really alone?)

Fatima Aamer Bilal "Being Unwanted is a Language" / Anna Haifisch / Ruth Madievsky "All-Night Pharmacy" / Jenny Slate / Meggie Royer "For Twenty Year-Olds Who Have Never Been Loved" / Richard Siken "Crush" / ? manga / Marya Hornbacher "Wasted" / Norman Rockwell / Amy Dunne / Marie Alsing / Fiona Apple / Maria Tsvetaeva "On Love" / Haruki Murakami "Norwegian Wood" / Richard Siken / Camille Rankine “Emergency Management” / Caitlin Conlon / @/archbudzar / @/hadodoodles / Anne Carson "Nox"

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mutual destruction vs codependency (is there really a difference?)

reynolds vs reynolds, lindsey drager, belle and sebastian, the gang breaks dee, leonard cohen, collins dictionary, charlies mom has cancer, jenny han, kaitlin olson, @/filmnoirsbian, the gang goes to hell, clive baker, the gang gets analyzed, joseph telushkin

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Blue sunrise on the Oregon Coast

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Does anyone else not feel like a real person. not in a derealization or depersonalization way bc i’m fully aware of my surroundings. and not in a low self esteem way either because logically i know i’m generally likable and deserve a good life. maybe more like i’m an alien trying to imitate human behavior and i’m constantly on edge that everyone can tell and perpetually feeling shame because i don’t belong anywhere. like if i go anywhere that hasn’t explicitly been established by someone as a Place I’m Allowed To Be i feel like an outsider who is going to get in trouble even if it’s a public space. because i don’t view myself as part of The Public. or if i dress up nice i feel humiliated instead of good about myself because everyone knows that i’m trying to look good. i am incredibly uncomfortable by the fact that everything i do reveals something about me. every time i talk to one of my peers it feels like i’m constantly pressing the wrong dialogue option in a video game. and every time i do something that is a Human Act in my mind i think of it as though i’m a character in a movie because i can’t imagine it as something i’m actually doing irl. like i just feel strange and wrong all the time and i look at everybody else moving through the world with seemingly ease and wonder how they do it.. how did they learn that they’re allowed the same privileges as everyone else in public. erm well anyways. maybe it is a low self esteem thing but like i said earlier it just feels Different than that to me. this got longer than i thought sorry i love oversharing. Not looking for sympathy or advice just want to know if anyone else relates. 👍

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girl <3

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guys it turns out if you wanna have fun and be a fun and interesting person you like have to fill your day with fun things and not just rotting in your room …… need a moment to process

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sorry for acting batshit crazy I was feeling a little unwanted

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and i’d like to give a special shoutout to bisexuals who are losers

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finding out there's a frankenstein ballet and that it was in october of last year…DEVASTATING

look at this. look at these. im foaming at the mouth

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rest in peace forum thread deleted before its time

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mutuals i am handing u this rn

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Closing my eyes and thinking really hard trying to send out psychic waves to people I've drifted apart from that say things like "you will always be a part of me" and "I was changed because I knew you" I'm doing this because I hate sending text messgwes

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The Royal Ballet’s Frankenstein (2016), ph. Alistair Muir