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youre not thin. youre so fat you scare people. you will never be one of the pretty girls. you will never be one of the girls that the boys chase. you will never be one of those girls that wakes up in the morning already looking amazing. youre fat. maybe theres girls in this world can eat and eat and not gain weight - but youre not one of them. just thinking about food makes you gain weight. so what are you going to do about that? youre going to put down the fucking food. youre going to chug a class of water and exercise. exercise until you cant even move. you dont deserve food. you dont deserve anything. you wanna be the skinny girl? well then act like it. beauty is pain. you arent expecting to be naturally skinny, right? yeah thats what i thought. think about what you could be. think about her stomach. her thighs. her arms. beautiful right? now look at yourself. your thighs. your stomach. your arms. not so beautiful anymore. feeling tempted to eat? look in the mirror you fat whore. if youre genuinely happy with whats there - then sure, have a little something to eat, but i bet youre not happy with whats there. so stop fucking eating. youre never going to be skinny if you eat. think about it. when you make it to your ugw, that one pair of jeans wont be too small on you. if anything, theyll be to big. people will look at you and think “wow. i wish i looked like her” just like how you look at others. wouldnt that be nice? for people to finally see you as beautiful. and think about that boy. he doesnt like fat girls. he likes skinny ones where theres no fat when he squeezes your waist. he wants to give a skinny girl his hoodie because he knows it would fit. he would never give his favorite sweatshirt to a little fatty like you, knowing that it would come back stretched out. so now were back to reality. you will never be the perfect girl; you will never have the perfecy guy - not unless you put down the food. stop binging. you got this :)

this is directed at me only ;) all of you guys are perfect the way you are just wanted to post some meanspo i wrote today <3

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The 10 Characteristics of Those Who Grew Up With Childhood Emotional Neglect

Feelings of emptiness

Counter-dependence

Lack of self-knowledge

Poor compassion for self (probably plenty for others)

A tendency toward guilt and shame

Self-directed anger and self-blame

A deep sense of being flawed, or different from everyone else

Struggles with self-care

Struggles with self-discipline

Difficulties identifying, naming, and understanding how emotions work in oneself and others

How Did You Get This Way?

So you grew up with parents who ignored your feelings. You realized very young that your emotions were not welcome in your childhood home. How did you cope? Your young brain knew just what to do. It built a wall to block off your feelings. That way you could ignore and squelch them. That way your anger, hurt, sadness or need would not bother your parents or yourself.

Now an adult, you are living with your feelings on the other side of that wall. They are blocked off, and you can sense it. Somewhere deep down you can feel that something is not right. Something is missing. This makes you feel empty, different from other people, and somehow, deeply flawed.

Having gone to your parents for emotional support and validation as a child, you too often walked away painfully empty-handed and alone. So now it’s hard for you to ask anyone for anything, and you are afraid to expect support and help from anyone.

Since you grew up with little awareness of emotions, you are now uncomfortable any time strong feelings arise in yourself or anyone else. You do your best to avoid feelings altogether, perhaps even positive ones.

Feeling flawed, empty and alone and out of touch with your feelings, it’s hard to feel you belong anywhere. It’s hard to know what you want, feel or need. It’s hard to believe that it matters. It’s hard to feel that you matter.

As you read the 22 statements below, please think about whether you say, or feel, them often. If so, do not be alarmed or discouraged. There are answers and solutions to this problem!

Childhood Emotional Neglect is not a one-way street to nowhere. In fact, it is just the opposite. You can reverse it from the inside, and it will change your view of yourself and your life forever.

20 Things People With Childhood Emotional Neglect Often Say

I don’t want to intrude.

I don’t need any help.

Whatever you want is fine with me.

I don’t have anything to say.

I don’t feel anything.

I’m sorry.

I’m lazy

What’s the point?

I don’t need anything.

It doesn’t matter to me.

I don’t need anyone.

It’s my fault.

I don’t know how I feel.

I can do this on my own.

I can handle it.

I’m not as smart/attractive/capable as other people.

I don’t fit in anywhere.

Why can’t you just be happy?

Just stop feeling that way.

I don’t know what I want

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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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I open tumblr, I talk to myself then I leave

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I open tumblr, I talk to myself then I leave

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Fashion Killstar

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The universe is an ongoing explosion.

That's where you live.

In an explosion.

Also, we absolutely don't know what living is.

Sometimes atoms arranged in a certain way just get very haunted.

That's us.

When an explosion explodes hard enough, dust wakes up and thinks about itself.

And then writes about it.

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this is the money dog, repost in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!!

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Manifesting Tip – ✿

(guys this is an extra tip for manifesting your ideal body!)

✼　h e a l t h y – h a b i t s ✼

When trying to manifest something, attach a healthy habit to that, if you don't understand, here's some examples below !

↳ "every time I drink water, my waist shrinks"

↳ "whenever I drink tea, my legs get thinner"

↳ "when I drink water, my thigh gap gets bigger"

↳ "my nose becomes narrower every time I drink peppermint tea"

↳ "whenever I eat an apple, my skin becomes softer"

It's important that it's a healthy habit that you associate with whatever you want to manifest rather than a unhealthy habit (smoking, drinking alcohol etc.),

It's important that you actually convince yourself and believe that [drinking water] will [shrink your waist] or whatever it is you want because in manifestion, belief is key!

This is called the placebo effect, I'm sure most of you heard of it, but if you haven't, I'll just explain it by summarising a placebo experiment ; some time ago, in the hospital, one patient was given a real pill for wherever they needed, and the second patient was given a fake pill that looks, smells and feels exactly the same as the real pill except its made out of sugar, starch and some other thing(s). And during the experiment, the person with the fake pill didn't know their pill was fake, and after taking the pill, both of the patients said they felt a lot better, despite one of the pills being fake. There has also been scientific research done and proof has been show that placebo actually can cure some diseases, so pretty much, if you believe hard enough, it'll happen!

Once you actually believe it, just do whatever the healthy habit you came up with is, for example, I'm drinking water rn which is what I put as my healthy habit!

Hope you have a good day, stay safe <3

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Reblog for me

Anti anxiety.

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Reblog if you’re determined to lose 15-20lbs by Halloween.

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I'll eat when I'm worthy

i don’t think people understand how much self hate someone has to feel to deny a basic human need as eating

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I hate how people assume that anorexia is caused by fatphobia or skinny runway models, when in reality eating disorders are complex coping mechanisms to deal with mental illness.

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Oh great

Haha²

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Helth 📈