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“is your life really that terrible?”

i was asked this earlier. and no. my life is not at all “terrible”. i have loving parents. and even though she’s 300 miles away from me, i truly believe and know she loves me. i have caring friends surrounding me. there may only be a short handful, but they’re there, and i know who they are. they accept me. they understand me, more than i understand myself sometimes. i’ve done more with my life than i can even imagine. if you were to tell me ten years ago i’d be where i’m at today, i would one hundred percent not believe you. i’ve done amazing things because of the amazing people in my life and that i’ve met along the way.

living with anxiety and constant fear of rejection is a battle within itself. it’s the kind of battle i face every morning. it’s the battle i tuck in bed with me at night. it’s the battle that’s weighing down my shoulders during the day. i can’t explain it very easily. it’s something i’ve accepted? i can’t tell. some days, i’m able to deal with it. some days, i have trouble hiding it. 

battling with the sickness of depression that society puts between quotation marks, like it’s not a real disease, is one of the hardest things. it’s hard to talk about. it’s hard to think about. it’s easy to ignore, but the hardest to fight.

my life is not terrible it’s just hard.

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Tyler singing a Somewhere Over the Rainbow/What a Wonderful World/Can’t Help Falling in Love medley.

This was incredible. 9/11/15

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One day the rest of the US will catch up, but until then…cheers to Denver! ✌🏾️

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God bless

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😍😍😍

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You're not my friendly neighborhood neighbor.

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A Clockwork Orange (1971)

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“You can take it off when you’re ready”

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“do you ever get the feeling that someone just hates you” yeah every hour of every day when it comes to every single person i interact with for longer than two minutes

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when i can feel myself being really annoying but i can’t stop

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me: I really!!!! want!!! people!!!! to help!!!! me with!!!! my problems!!!!!!!

brain: you have to tell people about your problems first.

me: disgusting. atrocious. completely repugnant. I have never heard anything so vile. get out of my sight immediately.

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all boys are demons but i want one to love me