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'not dishwasher safe' don't care i'm crazy. i'd put the holy grail in that thing

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looney tunes shit going on

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the moment you make an oc for a game your life is over you’ll be replaying it until you could run through the tutorial blindfolded just cause you miss playing pretend with your guy

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In my most recent Skyrim game, the Old Orc looking for a “good death” died in the middle of a fight with two dragons, a giant, and a Dragonborn, and was killed by an Elder Dragon.

His buddies in the afterlife are NEVER going to hear the end of it.

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I'm sorry but I have to share this it's so cute

So you're telling me you can refer to Dragonborns as Kyne's doves??? And that it seems to be a thing there too to call people dove as an affectionate thing???

New pet name just dropped for Dragonborns

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popular ship will kill the patient. they need fanart of that one character no one likes or cares about to live

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looney tunes shit going on

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Why is every male Dunmer in Skyrim like:

"oi m8"

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the fact that wes fucking johnson has to beg for his life on gofundme is a fucking disgrace.

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Rip Brynjolf you would have loved putting your phone on do not disturb

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From TES V: Skyrim Zine

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Skyrim belongs to the skeevers

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more cicero thoughts because i've been thinking about this so much. this post will specifically focus on the dynamic between he and the night mother, and is sorta headcanon-based but i have so many thoughts and need to get them out.

i definitely think there's a lot to be said for how cicero's attachment to the night mother can almost be described as oedipal, but i also don't think it quite extends that far, nor do i think he hates her. i believe his experiences, his emotional attachment, his investment in her is religious devotion. it's worship. it's a deep and unwavering sense of loyalty and duty, to sithis, to the brotherhood, to the night mother.

yes, i do think he loves her. yes, i do think to some degree he despises her. wouldn't you? alone, for eight years, with nothing but a corpse you're expected to take care of every single day, to keep clean and sanctify, falling into routines, the only one to talk to who can never talk back? this also probably leads to an unhealthy degree of emotional projection on cicero's part towards her, but i won't get too into that here.

this desire to be chosen by her, then, must feel like release. it's relief from a silence never-ending, it's a sort of validation, a grasping back of hands he's been extending for eight long years. the silence he describes in his journal is cruel. it's rage, wrath, it's ever-present and makes him feel small. but then, as the years pass, he accepts the silence as all he will get. because even though he's done everything (the only survivor of two sanctuaries, three if you spare him. the only one who has tended her, devoted his entire being to her and worshiping she and sithis, carrying her casket from cyrodiil to skyrim and spending every damned day thinking about the night mother and sithis and his loyalty to them) he is not the listener. he knows. he knows he will never be the listener, the night mother has not chosen him (as he states, he remains "unworthy"), despite sacrificing everything.

still, he is the keeper and he would do anything for the night mother, even if it destroys him, because now she's all he has. he has nothing else attaching him to a former life, and he's devoted his entire life as keeper to her. he's reverent towards her because she's all he has, perhaps she's his god more than sithis in a way, because at least she's tangible. she is something dependent on him, and as such, he's codependent on her. and this devotion is religious and unholy. it's a mixture of hatred (feeling unworthy, feeling as though all his effort has gone unappreciated) and the intense love (she is quite literally a divine being to the dark brotherhood, tantamount to a mother mary - would this make him a Christ or a Magdalene or something else entirely? anyways) and the religious devotion and the earthly rage of not being enough. being passed over by her hand and her voice reaching someone who only just joined, or only recently became aware of the night mother.

frankly, in cicero's shoes, i'd lose my mind a little bit, too.

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ancano is the funniest character. it's so obvious that he must've really pissed someone off to land himself at the magic school in the Hates Magic country, and he never puts that math together.

they sent you to skyrim buddy. and not to squash a nation-wide rebellion of talos worship like elenwen, they sent you there to babysit, like, six mages in a middle-of-nowhere hold in a castle that is one failed concentration check away from plummeting into the ocean.

and then when he tries to set up an ambush in labyrinthian, one entire guy comes to try to kill you. that's all he could manage! he's clearly had time to send word to people so either he only has one friend, or all his others left him on read even though he presumably told them that there was some massively powerful magical Thing at stake, something that could make the thalmor even more powerful. but no one gave a shit. i cannot emphasize enough that the thalmor, the THALMOR, did not try to hoard one of the most potent magical objects of all time simply because they didn't want to take ancano's call.

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Woke: Alduin is the greatest threat to Skyrim

Broke: The Thalmor are the biggest threat to Skyrim

Bespoke: The Eastmarch caldera is a dormant supervolcano akin to Yellowstone and it's eventual eruption will make the Red Year eruption look like a firecracker

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