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🕊 Nadin’s Hope: A Mother, A Memory, A Future

Hello, my name is Nadin. I’m from Gaza. I’m a graphic design graduate, a wife—and now, a mother.

I finished my design studies just before the war began. I had dreams of starting a small studio, of creating art that told stories. I used to think about colors and fonts and the future.

Then, the war came. And the future became something we tried to hold onto, moment by moment.

On October 22, 2023, I learned I was pregnant when a missile destroyed my husband’s family home, killing 25 members—his mother, siblings, nieces and nephews—entire branches of our family in seconds.

We were displaced twice. Everything was gone—home, safety, routine, rest.

A few weeks later, I gave birth to our daughter. There was no crib, no celebration—not even stillness. But she arrived, quietly and beautifully. In her eyes I saw something I hadn’t felt in weeks: life that still wanted to grow.

Now, our days are shaped by decisions that could dismantle the future we are trying to build together.

Today, Israel’s government is discussing plans for a full military occupation of the Gaza Strip, including Gaza City and southern regions. The stated aim: to eliminate Hamas and later hand governing control to allied Arab forces—not Israel—but with no clear path to peace or normalcy.

The humanitarian fallout is devastating. More than 61,000 Palestinians have died in this war; hunger and malnutrition are rising sharply. Hospitals in north Gaza have shut down, and 193 people have now died of starvation, nearly half of them children.

Aid remains blocked, water is scarce, and many risk dying of hunger or disease long before future promises arrive.

We Don’t Know What Comes Next There’s no clear path forward—only uncertainty for our daughter’s life and our ability to survive another day.

How You Can Help I’m asking for support—not for comfort, but for survival:

Help us meet basic needs so we can breathe, heal, and preserve a world for our daughter.

Support us as I try to stand again on my own feet—even a glimmer of stability matters.

If you’ve read this far, thank you. If you can give—thank you. If you can’t—just sharing this post is a lifeline I will never forget.

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Please read and do not skip.

The currency has collapsed, and the entire commercial exchange is on the verge of collapse. The paper value of every $100 is only $60, and the purchasing power of every $60 does not exceed $10. Simply put, $60 is not enough to buy one kilogram of sugar or one kilogram of flour! This means that work is worthless and money has no meaning. If you need $100 a day to secure a single meal of lentil falafel, fava beans, and a cup of tea... everyone is hungry. Those with good morals, principles, and values ​​are the most miserable and hungry. We are going through the most difficult times. We are only talking about one thing, so what about the cost of medicine, treatment, transportation, and many other things? Some people think this is exaggerated, but unfortunately, this is the reality. In order for us to survive and be patient, even if only for a short period, we are in dire need of your help and donations. With your donation, I may be able to provide a meal or medicine.

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we're getting closer to the day that will mark two years of the genocide in gaza. conditions are worsening. while there is no individual who is unimpacted by the happenings in gaza, many are bearing the brunt of the genocide.

children, old people, pregnant women, and people with disabilities are unable to get enough food to nourish themselves. they don't have access to life saving medicines and the aid they require.

mohammed is a disabled child who was receiving regular physical therapy before the genocide. due to the invasion, his life has been flipped and he is unable to enjoy his childhood or get access to physical therapy.

his parents are fundraising to help him. kindly consider donating to them so that they can help their little boy. the fundraiser is verified.

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This was our home… now it’s gone

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This is my home before the war and after the war how it became💔💔💔

Before: After:

Before the war, we lived a simple but happy life in Gaza. Our home in Shujaiya wasn’t big or luxurious, but it was filled with peace, love, and comfort. We had our own land — a small garden where we planted vegetables, a roof where we sat on warm evenings drinking tea, laughing as a family. Our kids went to school every day with joy, dreaming about their future. We had work. We had neighbors we trusted. We had routines, family dinners, birthdays, laughter. Life wasn’t perfect, but it was ours. It was full of meaning.

The bombing started, and we had to flee our home during the first week of the war. We left everything behind — not knowing it would be the last time we would see our home standing. We first went to Rimal, hoping to be safer. That’s where we heard the news: our home, the place we built with love and hard work, was destroyed. Flattened. Just like that — gone. Everything we owned, everything we saved for, was buried under rubble.

After that, we kept running. From Rimal to Al-Zawaida. Then to Rafah. We’ve been displaced four times. Each time we carry less with us, but more pain. We sleep on floors. Sometimes there’s no roof. Sometimes we stay in tents. The nights are cold, the days are burning hot. There is no electricity, no clean water, no toilets, no privacy. We wait hours just to get a piece of bread. We lost our jobs, our income. We lost our safety, our dignity. We live in fear every day — fear of the next bomb, the next loss.

We used to dream of the future. Now, we just dream of surviving the next day.

We are the Anas family — like many families in Gaza — ordinary people who only wanted peace, a safe home, and a chance to live in dignity. But the war has taken everything from us: our home, our land, our jobs, our dreams, our stability… even our sleep.

It’s hard to write this. It's hard to ask for help. But we are desperate.

Please, if you are reading this, help us. Even a small donation could mean we sleep under a real roof again. Could help us buy medicine, food, or clean water. Could bring back a little dignity to our lives. If you cannot donate, please share this story. You might reach someone who can.

This isn’t just a story. This is our life. And we’re still living through it.

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

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My name is Fatima, I am 9 years old, and I live with my mother Maysoun and my two sisters, Iman and Noor, in Gaza.

Our home was destroyed in the war, and since that day, we have been living in hunger and fear.

My sister Iman was born with a deformity in her feet and needs special, costly treatment — but we cannot afford it. My little sister Noor cries at night from hunger, and my mother hides her tears, unable to feed us or get us the care we need.

I dream of being a child again… without fear, without hunger, without pain. 💔

Please help us save our childhood and my sister’s life.

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My baby is 13 months old.

I no longer search for milk or baby food.

All I want now… is a piece of bread.

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PT: Text in small text reading: And before y'all start, yes aro and ace are different but honestly if you're both no they really aren't. Tbh alloaces & alloaros, the only reason some of you insist they are just so completely different and have nothing to do with eachother is because you aren't both and you don't understand other ace/aro experiences and latch on hard/overemphasise your allo orientations. Because imagine how crazy it'll sound if people started insisting that "Bisexual" & "biromantic" are totally different and have absolutely no crossover or overlap whatsoever…you see how insane that would sound. END PT

Said it before and I'll say it again but instance on the hardcore splitting of aromantic & asexual does so much harm to people who’re both. Those who don’t experience any attraction whether they Identify specifically as aroace or just ace or aro are often left in the dust and treated like ignorant interlopers or "bad stereotypes" for daring to express ourselves.

It’s even more frustrating when people in the “community” pretend to be accepting of aroaces/non SAM Aces/aros…except not really because they’re quick to say how our identities/existence is “harmful/conflating/a stereotype”

Crazy that aroaces were here first we built the communities that seek discard us! In the early days Asexual was originally just used for people who didn’t experience sexual AND romantic attraction, it got adjusted to include alloaces. The aromantic lable only exists BECAUSE of aroaces creating a separation from alloaces.

I’m not particularly angry or upset that ace/aro are inclusive of a wider range of experiences, it’s just so fvcked how the very people who built up both communities are treated like trash, worthless embarrassing leeches that make the alloaces & alloaros look bad. Ffs there wouldn't even be a community to shunt people out of if it wasn’t for “aroaces”. But y'all aren't ready for that conversation.

And before y'all start, yes aro and ace are different but honestly if you're both no they really aren't. Tbh alloaces & alloaros, the only reason some of you insist they are just so completely different and have nothing to do with eachother is because you aren't both and you don't understand other ace/aro experiences and latch on hard/overemphasise your allo orientations. Because imagine how crazy it'll sound if people started insisting that "Bisexual" & "biromantic" are totally different and have absolutely no crossover or overlap whatsoever...you see how insane that would sound.

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ID: 1. A digital drawing of op's character in Fields of Mistria holding a purple cow. The character has red hair, goggles, freckles and wears a white top. 2. A screenshot of op's house in the game which has a lot of woods and green colors. END ID

I drew my Fields of Mistria character ! I'm still at my first year and I'm going slow so I stil do not have a purple cow but I still like my house now ! 🥰​

Can't wait for the ne next update !!!

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Simply put...we are hungry !!!

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The prices on this image were unbelievable before the war, yet they’re still lower than what I find at the market of my neighborhood. 1kg of onions is $250. 1kg of sugar is $200. 1kg of rice is $60. That is, when they’re available. Now imagine trying to feed a family of ten with these prices that keep increasing every day.

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PT: Text in all caps reading:

Remember that “tulpa” isnt actually a concept in tibetan buddhism. The tulpa is a western theosophical bastardization of several concepts from disparate parts of buddhism. It gets its name from the tibetan sprul-pa, which means “emmenation body” a complicated buddhist concept that is and is so radically different from the western idea of a tulpa that they are effectively unrelated. Tulpas are not a part of any “eastern” religion and the concept is fine to explore as long as you remember it was invented by the 1850s equivalent of annoying but well-meaning white trust fund kids who vacationed in india and came home talking about how they reached enlightenment.

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mfw when tulpas r a sacred part of a religion i was taught to take very seriously and people on the internet use it to make funnie horsies

REMEMBER THAT “TULPA” ISNT ACTUALLY A CONCEPT IN TIBETAN BUDDHISM

THE TULPA IS A WESTERN THEOSOPHICAL BASTARDIZATION OF SEVERAL CONCEPTS FROM DISPARATE PARTS OF BUDDHISM

IT GETS ITS NAME FROM THE TIBETAN SPRUL-PA, WHICH MEANS “EMMENATION BODY” A COMPLICATED BUDDHIST CONCEPT THAT IS AND IS SO RADICALLY DIFFERENT FROM THE WESTERN IDEA OF A TULPA THAT THEY ARE EFFECTIVELY UNRELATED

TULPAS ARE NOT A PART OF ANY “EASTERN” RELIGION AND THE CONCEPT IS FINE TO EXPLORE AS LONG AS YOU REMEMBER IT WAS INVENTED BY THE 1850s EQUIVALENT OF ANNOYING BUT WELL-MEANING WHITE TRUST FUND KIDS WHO VACATIONED IN INDIA AND CAME HOME TALKING ABOUT HOW THEY REACHED ENLIGHTENMENT

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On the tulpa terminology discourse:

I have complex feelings on the subject (as I was raised Buddhist, and this fighting over terminology is something that would have been seen as very secondary when compared to how the practice helps others by the kind of Buddhists I was raised with), but can you all at least be consistent in your arguments?

I keep seeing people argue that "This is an ancient practice that has been around for a very long time so it's okay" and then when they are shown that the practices are different and that the western use of "Tulpa" isn't the same thing as the original practice, the argument switches to "well, the concept of western Tulpas is so different from the original practice that it doesn't even matter because the concepts are completely unrelated". Which is it? Is it fine to use the word Tulpa because it is from an ancient practice from a culture and religion that the majority of you are not even a part of, or is it fine to use the word Tulpa because it's "so different" that you believe its history doesn't matter?

It's really very tiring watching this discourse go around in circles because you all keep switching up your arguments.

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Sorry for all the Tulpa-discourse lately, this is more of a Buddhist ramble / discussion than syscourse but ya know

It's been on my mind a lot between it being in syscourse circles heavily and the fact that I'm actually currently on a system-designated theraputic homework assignment to reconnect with Buddhist concepts and to incorporate it into my self care routine so I can get back to my baseline after doing something of a survival mode to help balance out XIV being in borderline-crisis lately resulting in my burn out

I'm (as Riku as a part) actually usually very hesitant to talk about much of my cultural and personal experiences and AAPI-rooted parts of my life because of old system dynamics, persecution, and a lot of other things that make me very anxious and prone to fawning when me existing in a space I am involved in is at all challenged which is largely why I leave it to XIV to voice it for me since he also is the guy that keeps me from falling into old dynamics. (<- literally is the person who thought I was *checks notes* faking being asian like that is a possible thing let alone something I thought LONGER than me faking DID)

So honestly, its kind of a bit cathartic occasionally to actually have a sense of self and security enough to have the balls to actually defend myself in terms of this sort of crap and assert that I actually, ya know, have an experience in life. So as much as I typically hate the negativity and contention that bringing this stuff up brings, it's honestly theraputic and part of me expressing a valid part of my existence and self - so with XIV's nudging I tend to let myself have that space.

With all that said, I wanted to bring up a discussion point and correction point now that I'm not genuinely and authentically triggered about racism, I think a thing I do want to comment on in regards to the rhetoric on the tulpa topic that anti-tulpa-term people get wrong when talking about Buddhism and """""""tulpamancy""""""" is that Buddhism is not a closed culture or closed practice and stating that does a disservice to the group as well; albeit its the lesser of two wrongs by a LONG shot so I shirk it off as a "to get to later" point

But Buddhism is incredibly open to anyone interested on engaging with it and its part of why - when I specifically talk about the critiques of """"""Western Tulpamancy"""""" in terms of Buddhism I try to remind myself to desalinate between "westerner" and "white". There are many many many white Buddhists - as there are many black, latinx (<- is that the correct term?), native, Middle eastern, etc Buddhists as well.

In some cases and for some people, Buddhism is a religion and/or spirituality, for others it's more of a way of life / philosophy. Tibetan Buddhism, as I know it as a non-Tibetian Buddhist, is a lot more on the religion side of things which is a different topic I honestly am under knowledgeable to comment on - but overall the thing that ties a lot of Buddhism together is the core and underlying principles of acceptance, letting things go, connecting to the greater world, and just general enlightenment as a means of finding peace.

Myself, and a lot of Buddhists, gladly encourage people to look into Buddhists practices and principles and ideology because its honestly extremely healing and regardless of if you are SUPER into it and go become a monk or what not or if you just dabble in it, so long as you do it respectfully and understand your biases and genuinely have GOOD RESPECTFUL intent and an interest on understanding it more, its an amazing and really welcoming thing to get involved in.

The thing all the 'pro-tulpas' quote on the Dalai Lama is honestly entirely true. Almost everyone could benefit from the practices and principles found within Buddhism.

That is to say however, that there is a large difference between spending a day or two at a monastery and learning more about the culture and the ideas of Buddhism and integrating them into your life and just grabbing this Really Cool and Quirky High Level Principle / Ritual / Practice of a Specific Typically Very Dedicated Version of Buddhism and ignoring EVERYTHING ELSE about Buddhism and saying "this aspect, this aspect I like and I'm going to completely warp it how I like it while calling it and/or referencing it in terms of Buddhism to make it look intellectual and enlightened for me to be involved in it."

I've seen it said in some Buddhist communities and discussions regarding the more ritual and involved aspects of Buddhism - specifically in regards to the Mahayana approaches - that a lot of the practices and rituals when used inappropriately or unguided can be "dangerous" with danger in this sense being a worsening of the individuals conditions resulting in an increase in a lot of the core things almost all versions of Buddhism considers unhealthy and unideal such as increase in conflict, desire, and disconnect from the greater world and thus generally more suffering.

And on that front, while not being of the Mahayana school of thought and as a result not really believing so much in bodhisattvas, I can - from my personal view and perspective - entirely understand how frustrating it is to see a term often sighed with "buddhists roots" be used in a way that - in my opinion - almost exemplifies the exact opposite of what I understand to be the crux of the idea of Buddhist peace.

A large part of me getting more involved into the concepts Buddhism has to offer and honestly a thing that had both helped my healing journey and how I interact with my system is the large realization that the existence of "I" doesn't really have much ground to it in what it is and what it means and what defines "I".

That identity and human nature is largely a mobile and constant changing force part of a larger and grander thing that is just really existence as a whole and there is little that makes me more unique than say the trees or the squirrel looking for nut or a bird singing in the tree other than the fact that I have the "curse" of conscious awareness and 'advanced intellect' that makes it so that I both feel the need to >Be< something and the bother of "the next thing". A large part of practice is letting go of a lot of notions that a lot of society and life reinforce - one of the most in my current stage of learning and practice - is letting go of the concept of "me and I" and just, ya know, being.

And to me, looking at the """""Western Tulpamancy Community""""" you have people who are sectoring off a part of themselves, their experience, their life whatever and not only identifying it as seperate from them (NO!!!! We are all connected >:[ <- light hearted comment) but also giving that part of themselves an entire identity of it's own and a whole second sense of "I" beyond what was already there - combined with the overall themes of 'developing your tulpa' by giving it more traits and details and stuff until it 'becomes independent' is rooted in such American / Western individualism which DO not even get me started on how toxic individualism is and how inherently opposite it is to Buddhism and

//deep breath//

I'm getting ahead of myself, the truth is while the concept of 'creating a headmate' or whatever greatly concerns me as a Buddhist - as a human and as a Buddhist (in a different perspective), seeking out to change people is the last thing I'm interested in and it's honestly not this uber horrible or harmful thing and its really not my business; so as long as it is making someone happy and what not, I really don't care if it doesn't match to my theory cause ya know, theory is that - just theory. Live and let be ya know - yall have your own life to live and yall know how to live your own life better than I could assume to know so I'm not gonna try to tell you how to live it. Philosophical theory comes second to philosophical practice and practice says to live and let be.

But its just really frustrating a lot of the time to see how the topic is handled when its far from really what it is. And in theory, I should let it go because honestly, people using the word "tulpa" to describe experiences that are largely anti-thetical to my understanding of Buddhism - while annoying - is not the end of the world and fostering hate and aggression does nothing but increase the overall suffering (dukkha) in the world. Often, when I think about talking about it or getting mad, I do tend to repeat that mantra back to myself and most of the time I refrain and leave it be.

That being said, XIV runs on the philosophy and critique of the over theroretical approach to Buddhism over the realistic and practical in saying that by "letting go of" certain frustrations and annoyances and grievances - while healthier for the individual person - enables and perpetuates long term suffering for the masses and years to come. So that while it would be best for me / us to let it go and exist in a state closer to Buddhist peace and doing so is an entirely valid decision (thus why I respect Buddhists who say using the tulpa-term is fine), I would also be choosing to maintain my peace over acknowledging and speaking up about the honestly long and ongoing racism and disrespect that plague those that I feel particular kinship with and in XIV's perspective (one that I am starting to take on a bit more lately) - the choice of personal peace is a selfish one that is complicit in increasing the suffering of the world as a whole in favor for the individual "I" that honestly has become a bit distasteful for our system.

But anyways, I digress. Buddhist ramble done.

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For the record the reason we are staunchly "anti-Tulpa" is cause - as a Buddhist SE/E Asian - we literally only ask to NOT use the term Tulpa if you are not actively engaged in Buddhism yourself and literally pick ANY other word WITHOUT changing anything else in your life because its disrespectful and appropriative; so if you can't just do that ONE thing, it says A LOT more about your character than anything else

We vary between "don't care" and "support" willogenic or whatever (we arent in the endo community but as a default as someone out of it) and are honestly THANKFUL to those that have gone "huh ya know sure I can do that"

But if yall look at the one simple request of "please dont use a term from / based on a concept you have no personal ties to or education on to describe something extremely different than the original practice and concept from a minority culture" and go "Uh NO." then its not a topic of syscourse or anything anymore

You're just an asshole and radiating massive westerner energy and ego and at that point I have no benefit of the doubt or interest humoring or engaging with you.

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btw, IDC if you're a poc yourself telling me how to behave when I experience anti blackness from white people. don't Police my disdain for how I'm treated because you're marginalized like me (while weirdly omitting the fact you aren't a black minority)

In fact it's more disappointing and a sign that other racial minorities aren't immune to being anti black.

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thank uou for showing me your little white boy i do not like him can you put him away please

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That character design you're doing could be fat btw. You can make them fat. That character you're drawing should be fat tbh