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if there truly existed a benevolent god he would just go ahead and flip the kill switch. like i just think it's time to call it idk

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(outlaw by the name of texas red voice) haha is that a big iron on your hip or are you just happy to see me

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i don't exactly want to be a man (possibly lying) but i do think a bulge would complete a lot of my outfits. no one even needs to see it i just think knowing it was there would lend me an incomparably magnetic allure

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"history will absolve me" as the e-mail signature

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PSA TO ALL READERS while wandering around a mall today I was ensnared by a powerful force that bade me enter a place called Barnes & Noble. in a daze I wandered the displays and was compelled to even pick up several books that this force attempted to foist upon me at great personal cost to myself. it was only through great strength of will that I was able to fight off this befouling force by withdrawing my cellular device from my pocket and logging into my library account to place requests for the same books at no cost that i was able to escape without grievous harm. truly it's crazy out there, stay safe and remember that libraries are always there to provide aid as you fight against such forces of darkness

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I dont condone any artist that is alive because they might change

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hypest part of that book is the reincarnation section at the beginning when he's like "are gay men gay bc they were women in their previous life? yeah. probably" and then immediately moves on to "also this worldview can help you cope with the death of a child." one of the most insane two paragraph runs of all time

pains me so bad that buckland's big blue book remains one of the default starter texts people pick up when they're getting into occult studies. every single page reads like you're trapped in conversation with the most unbearable eighteen-year-old clove cigarette enjoyer you've ever met in the empty hallway at a bad house party while he physically blocks your escape path to the living room

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pains me so bad that buckland's big blue book remains one of the default starter texts people pick up when they're getting into occult studies. every single page reads like you're trapped in conversation with the most unbearable eighteen-year-old clove cigarette enjoyer you've ever met in the empty hallway at a bad house party while he physically blocks your escape path to the living room

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thinking about revisionism and distortion. thinking about "get out of here and move forward. this never happened. it will shock you how much it never happened." thinking about "a story is true. a story is untrue. as time extends it matters less and less." thinking about "the great eye of the world is both gaze and gloss. to be swallowed by being seen. a dream." thinking about "the version we speak of now is the more nuanced portrait." "or the more rehearsed." thinking about the intimacy of being in on a secret together. thinking about the gap between the narrative and the past. thinking about how the truth becomes a private reality that exists just for the two of you. oh my god i feel sick

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look at me. listen to me. listen. frying pan. medium heat. oil in pan. discount frozen broccoli. coat in aforementioned oil. generous amount of salt. like a little more salt than you think you need. stare anxiously until crispy. transfer into whimsically tiny bowl. this is what it's all about. you can do this whenever you want. you can even put a little bit of garlic tahini sauce in there and they can't stop you. some onion, even. never kill yourself.

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Melting Lamps by kumbhglass

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whatever it is that appears in my word processor is a stage four simulacrum of the actual scene happening in my mind. that shit is in no way affiliated with me and my brain story just to be clear

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"you are one of gods strongest soldiers" i say, not even believing in either of those institutions

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completely sober in the club googling WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

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been seeing a lot of alien 1979 set photos on here recently and it made me remember when i was ten and my dad let me watch it with him. i fucking loved it and was totally fine through the initial chestburster scene, fully giggling with him at the jump scares etc, but then we got to the scene where ripley is doing ship maintenance in a cropped tank and underwear and i was for the first time in my young life overcome with such a terrifyingly potent blast of homosexual feelings that i started crying out of the kind of sheer guilt that only a ten year old catholic who thinks she's going to hell for admiring sigeourney weaver's shoulders could muster, and begged him to turn it off bc THIS SPECIFIC PART was allegedly too scary. he very kindly let it go and i spent the next decade convinced i had successfully pulled the wool over his eyes and that he was blissfully unaware that he'd been present for my religiously fraught gay awakening. anyway we went to see alien romulus together last yr and the second we got a glimpse of cailee spaeny's third act muscle tank he leans over and goes, "is your gay ass gonna cry again? bc these tickets were $17 a pop so i need you to keep it together"

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Does anyone have recommendations on good social norms for beginners? I'm looking to start conforming more but I'm not sure which norms will provide the most social currency. Thanks

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look there are many things to be said about the 1975, many of them bad. but you do have to admit that those wretched little men can write a diabolically bitchy dig. "don't fall in love with the moment and think you're in love with the girl." "you do make me hard, but she makes me weak." "finding a girl who is equally pretty won't be hard." "the smell of your hair reminds me of her feet." top ten insults that would make me projectile vomit on the spot.