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May 28th 2020

                                                 Introduction

             I have been wanting to incorporate a lot of beneficial habits such as journaling, yoga, intermittent fasting, and meditations into my life routines. So here I am trying to do some journaling. Im not going to try to put too much energy into this because I should be studying.

                                                    School

              Speaking of studying I am taking Nursing Informatics and Competencies in RN transition for the first half of this summer. I feel like they could of named that one better. Nursing informatics was something I was interested in getting a masters in but im leaning towards FNP again. The idea of not interacting with patients is nice but I dont see myself doing that for the rest of my life for now, until I change my mind again lol. Class wise Nursing informatics has been pretty chill. So far I had to review a health application and take a couple of quizzes. Hoping it will be easy the rest of the semester. Competencies in RN transition is a pain, but it hasnt been so bad yet. I had to find a Nurse Liason and have been talking/meeting with her every week for this class. At the end of this class I will have done an abstract and the topic I have chosen is unplanned perioperative hypothermia. Anesthetics reduce your body temperature up to 80%, increase risk of cardiac events, bleeding, and surgical site infection.

                                                     Work

             I could be more active in work but some days I feel lazy. Had an interesting case today where we removed part of the coccyx while the patient was in prone position. There was a tumor connected to it which was half the size of a hotdog.It is usually rare and not malignant. we put a drain in to help the surgical site heal properly with a lot of scar tissue. The other day we put burr holes in this patient’s foot who was diabetic which was debrided earlier. The burr holes were into bone which increase vascularization.

                                               Weekend gang:

             I haven’t seen the crew in so long. The last time I saw someone was michael which was a month ago because we played tennis. I think we have been all doing our own things.

                                                Tennis gang:

             I seen Shawn and Tammy and been hanging out with them the week of mothers day. They both graduated and Shawn is going to move to Virginia hopefully to get a good paying government job. Tammy has been living with her older sister? She introduced me to Dirt Cheap which has really cheap new target clothes. I seen Lut at this time as well. I had a few times to hang out with them and go out to eat but usually its on days I hang out with Maritza. So I havent seen the whole group since January.

                                                  Relationship:

              The reason I felt like I needed to make a post was because of my relationship lol. I realize how extremely easy it is for me to get jealous and being jealous is tiring and annoying. It makes me wonder at what point is it normal versus at what point does it needs to be discussed. Relationships take work and time to nurture. Some days I jokingly think about breaking up in my head and it’s probably because being vulnerable makes me uncomfortable.I should embrace the uncomfortable or how will else will I grow.

                                                 Coronavirus:

              I am tired of wearing N95 masks all the time. The thing is so damn tight that I start having headaches and cant breathe. 

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November 10, 2019.

                                                Introduction

              It’s been a while since I been on here. I guess thats a good thing because it means i haven’t been stressed out as much. I don’t feel like being productive at Starbucks so I am just writing an update of my life here.

                                                     School

              Finished my first two classes(Pathophysiology & Intro to bacc nursing). Now working on my assessment and research class. Both are a pain because multiple papers are due every week. I also have to do a video of myself doing an assessment. I still have to get all of my shot records sent in before the semester ends so I can apply for classes next semester.

                                                      Work

              Circulating a few minor surgeries such as hernia repair/lap chole/colo-rectal. Ive been trying to get more experience scrubbing. Work has been getting better. I start taking call next month. 4 days of 3pm-11pm and 1 weekend shift. I switched over to THR’s Health insurance and still trying to get access to werally for paycheck discounts. Have to get my physical done and surveys for free $75 each!

                                                Weekend gang: 

             I’ve been hanging out a lot more with Matt, Hills, Diana, Michael, John, and Anthony. It’s been interesting learning about Michael and Anthony’s past.  TBH wasn’t paying attention too much to Michaels LOL. Anthony definitely feels like an extrovert but I am not surprised. I’ve been learning about the real Anthony and realized how big mental health plays a role in his life. I went to a  YMCY Minute to win it and Hand-in-Hand health event doing blood sugars. I’ve been playing CoC and Sc2. Playing too much CoC like an addict.

                                                 Tennis gang:

             I haven’t been hanging out with my tennis crew as much.  Probably because everyone just has been busy with life. Me with school, Vincent with Kathleen, Lut with Anne/School. I never really hanged out with Toe/Bao/Kevin outside the group. Ive been hanging out with Vu more. I realized I was kind of biased of Vu because of My Ly, but we were getting into deep convos where I got to understand him more. Both of them have gone through a lot of suffering in their lives. They both just need better coping mechanisms. I can say that to most of the tennis gang tbh. I saw Kevin with Kathy the other day and I just felt bad for him because he looked really happy. I guess she doesn’t look at him romantically???

                                                     Dating:

              It’s been a long time since My Ly and I broke up. It also hasn’t been a long time. Why are feelings so fickle? Why do I act the way I act? Dating takes a lot of work. Is the person i’m talking to worth the work?

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Last week

That sunday we went to Mindys house. It was John, Jason, Phuong, Cindy, Huy and I and it was a really last minute thing. Mindy said we could go and asked if we really wanted to go now and we did. The guys were really up for fishing. We ended up spending $15 dollars each per person for a fishing license we didn't even need -_-''. Anyways we all went to her house in Venition Isles... Fancy right? Really nice two story house connected to a lake neighborhood with some hairy naked white guys walking around chilling and drinking a beer in the back. We go into her house to find that her front door is upstairs so we end up climbing the stairs. As we gaze through the house there are 12 fish tanks and signs of the dad breeding fish. It was pretty nice. Mindy's dad was pretty cool and told us to relax, and help ourselves to the fridge. He told us that there were beers twice and I believed he wanted us to drink or something. We ended up fishing at the dock with candles repelling the gnats. We actually caught an alligator gar using shrimp bait, but it was only like half a foot so we had to put it back. Her dad was really cool, he had a pingpong table, pool table, flat screen tv, couches, it was basically a man hole downstairs while the whole family lived upstairs. It looked like heaven. The girls were upstairs watching movies and we ended up talking to her dad for quite a while. It ended a while later due to a swarm attack from damn insects. Bug repellant didn't do squat against those. We ended the night going to Huys house and spending 30 dollars worth of chicken at popeeyes and $50 dollars worth of fried dumplings. They were some good ass dumplings though. Then they invited two other guys over and relaxed. One of the names was pretty troll, it was like egg roll or something but he was like a producer. 

Monday I helped my uncle move some stuff

Tuesday Wednesday Thursday work

Friday relax and I think i started talking to Mindy.

Saturday and Sunday Worked at Celebrations(reception hall) and it was hectic

 I was serving both times and both parties were 200 people each, I come out with food and just come over a few tables and all my food was gone. Dafuq. Hungry Me dan people man.

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You may have 1000 reasons to be unhappy, but it's the only life you have... you can't change and turn into someone else. You got to be happy with what you have

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I haven't been relieving my stress as much as I should and it leads me to do other things. I'm going to miss everybody, they are sooo hilarious! and they were the bright of my life. I really enjoyed high school even though I'm excited to leave. I don't think i'll have that connection i'll ever have again with a group of 30 people. I'm glad to have all of you in my life and help influence it to make me a better/happy person and others to spread that joy. People say i'm happy and i'm glad to be that type of person on the outside. I want it to shine in more in the inside. Thanks to friends/family/beautiful things in life I am able to do so. I guess i'm in that moment right now where my hormones are out of control and start liking everyone I guess. The hunt is not over, but i'm not in a rush. There are plenty of things I would like to share my life with yet, but i'm not ready. I wasn't as open as I should of been tbh. That's why relationships for me won't work because I need to know the person for a while to trust and share my feelings with. On the bright side, I always know I got shawn and an and other people who are willing to listen to me. I'm sorry Jesus, I wish I could be a better example to share the world, but I am trying. We have all have faults and we're all trying to become better people. Please be patient for it will happen eventually. Sorry and thanks again for your forgiveness :D. Youdda bomb. Wish I had some more cash to enjoy my younger life. Now i'm 18 and I still have a big life ahead of me. Thanks for my life mom and i'm glad I was chosen to be born out of your yeahh... Well, back to my life it is. You're almost there. I know whatever you plan to do in the future, you'll be amazing at it. Don't let girls bring you down, they have no right/reason to.