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favorite 9-1-1 moments ↳ 17/? ✦ maddie and buck in 5.15 - FOMO

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Can he hear me? I bet he can.

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9-1-1 ⤖ Countdown to Season 6 ⤖ 65/100 [Image ID: 4 large gifs from season 4 episode 5 of Buck, Hen, and Bobby after the team rescues Buck from the factory fire. Gif 1: Buck sits in the back of an ambulance. With tears in his eyes, he says “I almost gave up. If you guys hadn’t come in, then–” Gif 2: Hen says “But we did.” she looks at Bobby, then back down at Buck and says “And we always will” Gif 3: Bobby looks from Hen to Buck, and tilts his head. Gif 4: Buck looks at Hen and nods. /end ID]

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EDDIE DIAZ in SEASON 5B ↳ textpost edition

BONUS:

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Favorite Eddie faces (11 / ∞)

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i got you

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Eddie v. Modern lingo (for @crossovereddie <3)

(I couldn't find screenshots of them texting so please imagine they've a phone in their hand in these 😭)

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Buck & consent

Consent has been an issue surrounding Buck since his very first ep in s1, and most of the time, it’s been about women crossing a certain line with him, while he doesn’t seem to quite register the meaning of what they do.

Let’s talk about his first partner, Abby. I very much like her as a character, but in relation to Buck… I’ve brought this up before, but it has never stopped bothering me that she gets his phone number from the incident report in 102. More than that, Abby mentioned that as a dispatcher, she’s trained to listen to people on the phone and “read” them. In this ep, she sees him on TV and talks to Carla about the pain on his face. Now imagine a man who’s in his 40′s, who professes to be skilled at reading people, as well as still down because his ex gf broke up with him, he sees a young woman in her mid 20’s, visibly distraught and emotionally vulnerable, and this man proceeds to get her phone number through their connected jobs (not only without her knowledge or consent, but also while violating the privacy of the information she shared with her work place) and calls her to ask her out on a date. How is this not creepy and wrong? I think it very much is, and when it’s Buck and Abby, the consent issue gets overlooked because their genders are the opposite from the summary here, which never sat right with me.

In that very same ep, Buck goes to see the LAFD shrink because Bobby forced him to. They start talking, Buck ends up crying, emotionally distressed over the vic he lost. We know that he turns to sex when he struggles to cope (the first time we see him on screen, it’s while Bobby’s voiceover brings up how some firefighters deal with the stress of their job by having sex. That means from the get go, the first thing we know about Buck is he uses sex as an unhealthy coping mechanism), especially in connection to his lack of self-worth (remember how he told Bobby in 101 that all he has is the job? Well, now that he lost his first vic, he was feeling like he was failing even at the one thing he had). So that’s exactly what he does next, he comes on to the therapist. He’s emotionally vulnerable during a therapy session, and that means there are no shades of gray, the therapist has the ethical duty and responsibility not to sleep with her patient. But if that’s not enough, it turns out she had already friended him on FB. I believe that, since she was a shrink for the department, she shouldn’t have friended him on FB, or if she did, she should have disqualified herself from being his therapist. So her infringements started before she even slept with him!

Interestingly, the show connects the two things. In 102, as Abby already had Buck’s number saved into her phone, she makes the call to ask him out on a date. He says they shouldn’t and explains that he has a problem (i.e that he’s a sex addict) and as proof, he shares that he’s slept with his therapist. Buck doesn’t get that while yes, he had a sex addiction, the incident with the therapist was different and wasn’t his responsibility. That yes, he had an unhealthy coping mechanism, but not giving into it in the therapy room is on the therapist, not on the patient. Abby on her part, despite being an older, more experienced person who presumably understands this, does not point that out.

Then in s2, we have Ali, who he meets on a call. Now, I have to say, Ali is the only one of Buck’s LI’s so far who has never crossed any inappropriate lines or done anything questionable. However, that doesn’t mean that there isn’t something kinda dubious about their meeting. Buck even brings it up. He says in his former, sex-addicted days he wouldn’t have cared why Ali contacted him, but now he had to ask whether it was somehow because he saved her. Ali says it was Eddie who saved her, and it’s true that it was him who caught her when she was hanging for dear life. However, that doesn’t change the fact that Buck was still a part of her rescue, both men were there to save her. And both were there for the long way down and out. But it actually works in both directions. When I was getting my B.A in Psychology, we learned that during life-threatening situations, it happens that people misattribute some of their physical reactions to being attracted to other people present in the situation rather than to the danger they’re in. Buck and Eddie’s life was in danger too, their hearts were racing, they were perspiring, we also know Buck’s a daredevil who enjoys that, it makes him feel alive since being in danger was the only time he got any attention as a kid, so Buck misses that it’s not just Ali who might be misattributing what she was feeling when they met. He could have been affected as well. It’s not that Ali does something wrong, but there’s still a question mark there: did Buck really want to be with her, or was he influenced by a combination of the circumstances of how they meet, plus his self-worth issues, having been rejected for anything serious by Taylor shortly before Ali calls to ask him on a date?

Then we have Taylor, who shows up at the hospital after Buck was not just in a dangerous situation, he saw his best friend getting shot in front of his very eyes, carrying Eddie out of the fireline and into the ambulance. Taylor knew he must be upset, and just in case she wasn’t sure, Buck’s demeanor, his facial expressions and his trembling hands would have been more than enough to tell her just how emotionally distressed he was. It’s the wrong moment to kiss Buck when he’s dealing with all that, not necessarily the biggest red line, but it’s def something that feels inappropriate when someone has to handle so much, and their head is just not that clear when it comes to romantic matters. And it’s the wrong moment for such a come on especially in the context of Buck’s history, defaulting to sex whenever he has trouble coping with things (and presumably she would know about that by the time we get to 414, since they became friends during s4).

Now we get to 511 and Lucy. Here’s the thing. Buck cheated on Taylor, he kissed someone else. If he had done that sober, that would have been awful. If he had done that being drunk, that would still be a bad thing and the responsibility would still be on him. But the show made it clear Lucy got Buck drunk. “She kept ordering drinks” specifically reflects a sentence that we’ve heard so many times said in storylines on TV and in movies where sleazeball men try to sleep with women by getting them drunk. When the promo was shared where the kiss was shown, I didn’t think I would end up seeing the cheating through the prism of a consent issue, yet here I am, because of that specific line. They didn’t have to it, the story would have played out pretty similarly without it, but they chose to put that line in there.

I have to admit, I would love a story arc for Buck where he deals with this repeated theme. It would actually be amazing, because usually consent issues on TV are shown with women as the victims. When society doesn’t show men as victims of consent issues, it makes it harder for them to see it, to recognize the pattern they’re in and break it. So that story arc would be really important. The consent issue also closely interlinks with the theme of Buck’s self-esteem issues and his maladaptive coping mechanisms. The last two are things they’ll clearly touch upon following the kiss with Lucy and the cheating on and lying to Taylor, so looking at the consent issue as well would simply make this exploration complete.

Will they? I fear they won’t, ‘coz I don’t think they ever fully owned this theme they’ve created. In part, because I think they haven’t really recognized the elements they introduced to create it. Abby’s a woman, she’s a good person, so I don’t think they ever even registered that it was wrong, how she got Buck’s number. The shrink? There was a bit of recognition during the show’s callback to that in ep 309, but they still put some of the responsibility on Buck (“I was going through a phase”) and Bobby said she wasn’t working for the department anymore, when really, she should have lost her license and never work as a therapist again. Ali? They probably thought they had Buck raise the consent issue as a way of showing how much better Buck 2.0 was doing in comparison to Buck 1.0, while not thinking about the implication of consent being something that continuously comes up around his relationships. Taylor and Lucy’s stories in relation to Buck are still unfolding, but we’ve seen no indication regarding the former that the show recognizes how awful the timing of her kiss was. The interviews regarding Lucy are also not giving me much hope they’ll address why they had her getting him drunk and what does that mean. But I do wish 911 would address this theme. Buck and the viewers deserve a serious look at the murky waters of consent issues and why we sometimes don’t even notice them.

~~~ I wasn’t sure I was going to write this meta, but my wonderful @ellelans​ said to do it, and I never argue with her! Then @robinplume​, @gayofthefae​ and @thetalee​ seconded her, so here we go! Shoutouts to all of you lovelies! Also, big hugs to @judsonryder​ for making these breathtaking gifs!

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okay i’m back .

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Are you with the firefighters?

No. I’m not.

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okay so buck comes over to eddie’s and let’s himself in. eddie wakes up and thinks someone is breaking in. gets up with the baseball bat and swings for buck. cue breakdown.

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is......is buck the first person to ever see him like this

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buddieblr group hug 🥺

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WE KEEEP WINNING

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what is the point of having arms if i can't use them to hug eddie diaz and maddie buckley

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HEN WILSON in 9-1-1 ‘Fallout’

[Image Description: 4 large gifs of Hen Wilson from 9-1-1, season 3, episode 9, with the greens and blues brightly highlighted. Gif 1: Hen looks at someone off screen, a surprised smile appearing on her face. Gif 2: A close up of Hen looking down, pensive, and then back up. Gif 3: Hen lets out a surprised laugh as she greets someone off screen. A close up of Hen shaking her head and glancing at Karen as she speaks, looking stunned. /End ID]

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eddie’s so funny buck was like “why did you wait a year to tell me about the will” and eddie was like “because EVAN 👀😍😏 you think you’re expendable but you’re wrong” and just. did not answer the question at all.