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I am only good at being on knees when I am worshiping you

-- heaven cast me out by Abby S

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I want to love you and not be terrified of it, of you of what it could change but I would love you poorly if I loved with anything less than my full heart and I would love you wrongly if I didn't cherish each piece of you please give me time if you can grant me patience I am creature of selfishness and fear and you make me want to be brave but casting off the long played roles is more difficult than anything I have tried but I swear one day my lips will tell you all

-- until then, I am always half honest by Abby S

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i forgive you. don't bother. (x)

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My heart has always been yours − by Abby S. (insp.)

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the days I love myself are few and far between for the world moves so fast that I am unable to notice when I have gained something precious when I have learned something new everyone I once loved has disappeared and nothing new has filled the emptiness All I have is yearning this bitter brittle feeling in my bones and no place to direct it

_ the days after a hurricane by Abby S

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You are like the tide rushing forward, pulling back and my heart is a moon  orbiting around you

waves by abby s

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and without you to stoke hope, the embers die in dust - Abby S

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what we’ve always been - Abby S

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"if you want it hard enough a chance is all you need" I said, sitting in a car with you beside me  as we drove to fight another battle  and my eyes flicked to yours through the mirror and somehow it didn't matter that I was getting caught  up in you while still on camera  red alert, red alert  I have to pull back  red alert, red alert  because all I can see is the way you make me vulnerable so maybe this can be something quiet and wonderful because when we lock eyes the world only exists so I can see your face

stronger by abby s

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all my roots have been ripped up  and I'm clinging to my last one  but I might have to dig it up  and pack it away  because life doesn't stop going forward and I'll find better things ahead  but there's spite and sadness and restlessness  that doesn't go away  maybe I can grasp the light better maybe my roots are scattered so I know how to plant them stronger I can hear the sounds and see the bare trees this December so much clearer than I did before  so maybe I closed my fist around myself  but thank god, I didn't shatter it

the clouds are out but I have made myself warm by Abby S

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I wish I had listened to the part of me that whispered  "run"  the scarring on my heart  would have been so bad I think I would be able to recognize it once I finally managed to claw it back from the box I'd given you like you'd taken a knife to the bruised and healing parts left a bloody gash that I can't heal on my own

why didn’t I see the signs by Abby S

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hey guys

so I know I haven’t been posting much, if anything recently. There’s two reasons for that: 

one) graduating college, thesis, covid 

two) all my writing energy went into writing a 167k Austen-esque BDSM romance novel. I just posted it on ao3 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/27659402/chapters/67682801

would love to hear your thoughts, I miss you and I’m excited to hopefully be sharing poetry again soon

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The 5 Stages of Loving You by Abby S

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You didn’t tell by Abby S

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I'll wait for you, darling because you saw me scared and lonely  and thought  "I want to learn you"  and you did  because you know my fears you know the ways I want to be touched you know my heart  (do you know that you've rewritten them) (do you know that my body jumps at your fingertips?) (do you know that my heart is now beating in your chest) Time has nothing on us  and neither do the stars

I’ll holler “no” at the universe every day until you come back by Abby S

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– Together, for all time by Abby S 

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— Abby S