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6th of NOVEMBER

NOVEMBER!!!!!!! Well. Better than not at all. I need to get my shit together. Tomorrow is a new day, Alhamdullilah. Bismillah for a better day. I'm competing with my yesterday self, 2 months of journaling and 3 months of exercising. Kicking off the end of 2017 with being aware again of my body! Bismillah!

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2nd of april

What did I have for dinner last night? LOTS OF STUFF. From cirebon's food and stuff from ta-wan. I did a power yoga this morning and man does it burn. Im still sore from yesterday practice so the power yoga was really something. I had to pause like, twice. But i got through it and feeling fresh afterwards. I forgot breakfast, then Lunch was sushi, because my allergy is acting up. Dinner was sambal goreng with nasi merah and empal gentong. Nite2!

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1st of April

ITS APRIL!!!!!! New month! 3rd month of keeping fit. 2nd month of journaling. Every month, every day, every step is a mile uncharted and so, so precious. I did a standing ab exercise from fitness blender, and then a gentle yoga to stretch. Breakfast was, quinoa with salmon tomato spring onion omellete. Lunch was bakmi gm. I swear these last 2 days im craving so much rice and like, unrefined carbs. I want sushi! Or pizza! While i'll travel in exactly 11 days and god knows what i could chim in in those days exercise or food wise. Going to be lots of fun, though! Let's see what's for dinner tonight.

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31st of March!

I forgot to do one yesterday so i'm making it uo today, 1st of april. Had a morning walk to freshen up my mind, but burning calories too. Breakfast was oatmeal with strawberry sauce. Lunch was quinoa with terong balado. Water intake medium. Dinner WAS WHITE RICE PARTE OMG. And then matcha cheesecake before bed. Jiah, no wonder my weigh in is bad this morning.

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Dinner was buncis quinoa, later had a marie regal 3 pieces. Good lah.

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30th of March!

DAY 31 of YOGA REVOLUTION! I MADE IT! I legit shed tears of happiness and was choking with smile for the first minute or two. This means that I am capable of change, of growth. I can do things i never thought i could do. It just such an incredible feelings. Heavy duty meal today, breakfast was noodles with fuyunghai, lunch was rempela kentang with nasi merah BUT i had cilok. Courtesy of coworker. I had melons. Havent finished my water. I maybe switching to quinoa for dinner tonight, while tomorrow i fast. Oh i also have chocolate cake this morning and eh, maybe tonight. the sugar dragon is kinda on fire these days.

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29th of march

Did not exercise, like monday, but moved a lot. Did not closed my circle. Worst performance after my sick week, but im fasting and baking, so yeah. I'll give my self that. Sahoor was red rice with lele. Then fast all day, iftar was hot sweet tea, because of the fam event, i, well, pig out again. Fried noodles. Satay. Fuyunghai, pasta, martabak, fried tofu, sweet and sour chicken. Yup. Lots of sodium and carbs. No fruits or veggies in sight! Run errands all week. So many errands! I miss yoga revolution and fitness blender. Need to post. Need to write. Need to sleep and wake up early. Dang good night, alhamdullilah for today, and bismillah for tomorrow

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28th of march

Writing in this journal feels like a breath of air for me. I guess it kinda focus me back when life takes me all over the place. My priorities. My parents, my family, my health. Breakfast was oatmeal, and chocolate cake. Then lunch was veggie japanese curry (and im fully aware that the curry is full of msg and other stuff) with quinoa and salmon. Plus, a little of white rice and sambal goreng labu and areh. Had a 1/4 of popcorn but dearie me lots of butter! So on dinner i forced myself to get some veggies, i had a beansprout with steam somay. Well. Still hv the carbs but i thought its better for my stomach rather than noodles. I also have a short glass of juice for my fruits portions of the day. Water intake very minimum. But i was all out and about the whole day, so i'm pretty okay with that. I also did day 29 and 30 altogether! Because day 29 is so short. Just one more day! Cant wait! I cant believe it, one more day and im finishing up Yoga Revolution. A REVOLUTION INDEED for me! I have never stick for any exercise for this long. Yay me. Bismillah and Alhamdullilah always for every blessing, and bismillah always for tomorrow.

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27TH OF MARCH

it’s gonna be capslock coz  I CANT BELIEVE MARCH IS GOING TO BE OVER SOON. CANNNOTTT CANNOOTTTT. like, whaaaaaaaaaat. 

breakfast was oatmeal cakes with strawberry sauce. then LOTS OF WATER, melons, lunch was quinoa with stingray tinted on squid’s ink, which seriously satisfying. now i’m craving for something sweet. I think I’ll have my oatmeal cookie. 

water intake excellent! it’s always excellent when I’m at work. maybe i drink to kill boredom and just for me to have a reason to get up and pee. 

dinner’s going to be another pigging out tonight, I soooo can tell. but hopefully I can squeeze in a yoga revolution day 29 tonight. yippie. 

My april plan, so far, is to alternate between yoga with adriane and fitness blender. cardio on a treadmill if i”m bored or a swim. Going to travel, so thats another challenge in keeping fit while we’re abroad. 

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ATE DINNER LIKE A PIG. Oh dearie. I dont even know what i just ate. Definitely all crap. Oh well.... went major shopping yesterday, also did today! (well bapak did) but i cannot wait to shop for new exercise weights and i cannot wait to shop for new exercise wardrobe, and i can wear whatever crap i want because i workout at home. Shop shop shop i shop all the time omgggg.

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26th of March!

Yogaaaaaaaa day of 28! Yoga revolution for the WIN! 3 more days. I also did a low impact cardio and toning from fitness blender.com and I wanted to die. IGHHHH I WAS FIGHTING MY WAY THROUGH IT. So hard. But I did it! I fight my way though it!!!!! Omg so proud of myself. My butt feels so sore. Its incredible exhilirating when they say your(this) today exercise will one day be your warm up come true? I never thought i reached that day. Yoga become my warm out. Yay! Lunch was.. idk chicken? Something? I was so tired i was practically asleep while eating. Then i had afternoon nap for like forever! It was like 3 hours?!! Now off to dinner. Water intake so bad.

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25th of March

Alhamdullilah, such a great day today. YOGA DAY 27! How WONDERFUL IS THAT?! I'm 4 days away. I will finish this next week! I have never thought I would be able to do that. The thoughts of being able to do something simple like this is just simple mindblowing. Breakfast was sate ayam 4 sate, then pasta and corn salad. Lunch was little pieces of lontong and kambing guling. Had teh bandulan. Then 2 pcs of chocolates. Dinner was noodle, half portions. Lots of caisim and chicken feet, then 1 cheese cake. A bottle of juice. SO LIMITED WATER INTAKE! But it's okay, i'll make it up tomorrow. I definitely not 100% eat clean, but i do have a lot more control over food than before. I know i can still be naughty, which i still do, a lot. But unless im very overwhelmed or stressed out, i'm not getting out of control. I need to work on having more real food. My realization about this is that if i keep the tone positive, i will stick to it better. So rather than saying "i cant have sugar" i would say, "i want to eat 2 portions of different fruits a day" then i stick to it. If I want chocolate, then I will eat chocolate. But with this kind of mindset i realize that I want less chocolate. If i do want it i can have controlled portion. Or i can hold off my wants. I'd think, sure, chocolate would be good, but i dont really need it today. I can have it tomorrow. I feel the beginning of food freedom. Just need to always improve which is always a must anyway. Tomorow, day 28 of yoga! So excited!!! Good night for now. Alhamdullilah. Subhanallah.

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Dinner ate lontong and everything else yucky. I felt lethargic. I dont feel productive at all today. I want chocolate. Sigh.

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24th of march

Rest day, today i guess. Im cooking tonight. Lunch was quinoa with mushroom and chicken, breakfast oatmeal pancake with chocolate, kelengkeng for snacks and avocado juice. About to ruin everything in the dinner tonight lol! Body is a bit sore.... but happy!

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23rd of march!

Cant you believe april is almost here? Its almost a month that im journalling. Its almost two month of exercising and drinking water. Today was seminar, so i was mostly sedentary all day. But water intake is good. SNACKS ARE INCREDIBLY NOT GOOD. I ate all kind of shit. Candies, risol goreng, keripik singkong sprinkled with msg seasoning. Both lunch and dinner was rice with some kind of protein. BUT. BUT. Yoga day 26! Oh my YIPPIE! Im still amazed on how far i've gotten. Then, after watching fitness blender, i've tried out their 20 min low impact beginners cardio and i can proudly say I DID IT! Until the end! I survived. All those yoga are definitely paying off because i can feel how flexible i was. And that is a lovely feeling. Snacking tokyo banana before bed. It feels amazing.

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Lunch was pho. Sweets of the day is one cookie and one tokyo banana. I think once i still have chocolate and sweets at home, i still dont have that much control in controlling the sugar dragon. I snacked on tsasiki, raw zucchini, braised carrots and paprika then have pho for lunch. Pretty bland with a tough meat, overcooked noodles and i forgot to bring the hoisin sauce. U think i would need more veggie intake next week. Start drinking naked!!! And start writiiingggggg.

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22 March

I tried my best wake up in the morning earlier today and went for a morning walk. I want to breath the fresh air. But since I stayed up late last night so I overslept again after the walk. Went to work SO LATE. Breakfast was last night dinner which is massive, sambal goreng and red rice. Limited water intake. Went straight to meeting, stressed out. Im trying my best not to snack on anything fried food which is available in the meeting. Not resolving to food while im stressed is a journey itself. I was like, practice patience. Practice patience. Practice patience. Hhhhhhhhh. Cant wait for yoga day 25 later today.