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I'm managing my life and it feels so good and scary 🤓

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It’s a never ending struggle, fight on OC!

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My best friend

Is awesome because she cheers with me when I manage to shower 2 days in a row. Idk what it is about the shower but it gives me severe anxiety and I can normally only shower every other day. Baby steps. 😊

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I'm very lonely

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Updates

I have so far to go. But I am loving self. In complete and complex ways. I am doing hard work. Frustrating, frustrating work. The kind that requires me to not give up on myself. The kind that requires extremely uncomfortable moments and heavy hearted reflection. When I decided...really decided to fight for my life the world became a much crueler place. But I squared up anyway. I. REGRET. NOTHING.

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Needed this.

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I just washed my dishes. Can't nobody tell me shit right now. 😊😊😊😆

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I got up

Today. Faced a few fears. Began to fix some problems. I didn't want to. There was a time when I would have just stayed in the bed. But. I got up. There may be hope for me, yet.

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Me. To myself. Everyday.

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In pretty desperate need of some hugs

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Little darling, just be your wonderful self; breathe and just feel alive.

(via dryyoureyes-startbelieving)

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😊

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“Have you doubted your progress, regretted your choices, put yourself down? Remember that you are doing just fine. Remind yourself right now that no matter what it looks like, you are doing the best you can. And getting better. Encourage yourself, support yourself, and celebrate every little thing about yourself.”

 Iyanla Vanzant (via amargedom)

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Word.

DO NOT TRY TO MEDITATE, YOU ARE THE MEDITATION

DO NOT TRY TO BE IN THE PRESENT, YOU ARE THE PRESENT

DO NOT TRY TO BE SPIRITUAL, YOU ARE THE SPIRIT

-Anon I mus

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I punched a hole through a door today. My therapist told me on Tuesday that the level of trauma I've experienced is equivalent to that of a person who's come back from a war. I can see that. I'm over this shit.