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[flamespond]

Will I always be so transient

Nothing and everything, a snake eating its own tail

The throat of the world. Open and screaming, never making a sound.

Hurting him is unnatural when I do it on accident. Doing it on purpose is as easy as breathing

I don't love him. Did I ever? He was convenient. I've hurt him. I should care. I don't.

I care about others perception. What will others think when they learn my feelings are a facade? I am evil. Untrustworthy.

Can only find love between pages and on the screen. The human heart is too fickle.

And not fickle enough.

Just stop loving me. Fool. Foolish. Idiot.

You know who my heart is for. Because he's more like me than anyone. Because I am my mother's daughter, narcissism at its purest.

Greek for pure. Hebrew for torture.

When you named me, did you have any idea? That you had weaved a monster out of bones and blood and made it in your own image?

You don't even sicken me anymore. You make me numb.

It's like I was born with no skin and now the muscle has finally scabbed over with dried blood. An infection of a human. And now I can feel nothing again.

Back to normal. Business as usual.