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yes this character is based on me. yes they are infinitely cooler, funnier, more attractive, and emotionally complex than me. yes i’m crying. and projecting.

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“just start writing” ok but what if i need to do a 30-minute vibe check first. what if i need to stare at a blank screen like it personally betrayed me. what if i need to pretend i'm being filmed for a documentary about artists who suffer beautifully. what if i need to move around because my body is restless and bored but i cant move but i also cant write.

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holy shit i found the original and

ITS A WARRIOR CATS MEME?!??!

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writing update: i couldn’t focus so i made a fake interview with my character using a list of 50 personality questions. halfway through they started crying and now i’m crying. i have written zero words

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writing with adhd is like… i put a scene in there and then months later i’m like WHY THE FUK DID PROFESSOR SLUTBORN GIVE HER A GUN. WHO ALLOWED THIS. WHO AM I

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I really don't know what to do with the fact that my teeth have been toothpaste flavored for over 24 hours despite much eating and no additional toothpaste. Like what's even happening there. Perplexing.

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ragatha got a liiiiitle too relatable in episode five. . . .

(+ some of the sketches I made right after the pilot first came out I never did anything with)

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I don't know where it came from, but several years ago this idea popped into my head unbidden, and for some reason it tickles me. I don't know if it's funny, but I like it and I made it into a zine, I hope you enjoy it.

It lays out really nicely as 3-up spreads on A4 paper, so you can print, staple and fold it, then cut it into 3 zines. It made it really easy to print up 20 of them to trade at this art social thing I went to

micron, rotring and sharpie on printer paper, coloured and screentoned digitally, 2024

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my brain is like a government agency. constantly underfunded, overcomplicated, and filled with redacted material

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the romantic writing fantasy: sunlit balconies, soft wind, glowing wine glass. the reality: swedish rain hitting the window like “write something bitch” and i hate wine.

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me: i will write again when the stars align and the moon whispers secrets into my ear.

also me: opens google docs at 1:42am because my ocs started arguing in the shower

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do characters fart. i’m not saying they should but i am saying if you trap three people in a bunker for 12 hours someone’s gonna break the silence and it’s not gonna be with dialogue.

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editing my draft like a surgeon with caffeine withdrawal and a vendetta. snip snip bitch.

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my plot has five acts: denial, delusion, vibes, spiral, and closure

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WHY DID I GIVE THIS CHARACTER A TRAGIC BACKSTORY I CAN’T FIX HIM I’M JUST A GIRL WITH A LAPTOP

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spent 3 hours rewriting one sentence. win some, lose your entire will to live.