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looks at my pinned post for the first time in 18 years.

so. i need to. update some things.

but probably first i should finish another chapter i feel like The People (its me im part of the people) will enjoy that more

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in spite of my last post, i need yall to know that i am not Good at the whole…plot….thing. historically it has taken me a couple of passes & consulting with outside people to make a plot that is more than a collection of contrivances holding up The Vibes. i’m aware of this and i’m fine with it.

now, Free Falling does have the advantage of taking a really long time to write and having some people to bounce thoughts off of, but i still don’t rewrite my fics and i’m not overly concerned with having a well-developed, watertight plot here. the more i do that, the less fun it is, and the less i write. so instead i’m gonna focus on the important parts: making two fictional men kiss and breaking their hearts :3

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yall i had the greatest idea for Free Falling today. it’s not going to come into play until part 3 but it will be SO cool. and there’s lots of room for angst. the only hint y’all get is that i’m really pulling from my days in mcu fandom here :3

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annnnd i forgot how sideblogs work and i'm lazy. hi!

guess who's back! it's Free Falling! we're entering Part Two, semi-officially titled "Honey Moon, Poison Sun" with half a plan and absolutely no update schedule whatsoever, but lots of good dabihawks content for you <3

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^^ just realized i should put this here as well for anyone who missed it/doesn't follow my main

Are you taking a break from writing? No hate or anything, just wanted to check in 💛

not really! i've just been in, to be frank, a pretty bad place mentally. i haven't written a thing since the last fic i posted, which was....8 days ago? which is super unusual for me, i usually write every day or near to it, i've just been laying around like a salted slug for a few weeks. it sucks. i'm not gonna go into detail but we shall say my life kind of imploded in the back half of december/front half of january and i have yet to start picking up the pieces. which i'm very fortunate to even be able to take that time, of course, but it's still not fun.

butttttttt i do have a doc open right now as i try to bang something out. how well that is going is debatable, seeing as i am also currently on tumblr, but i will do my best. and hopefully if i can make progress today it will unstick some other gears and i can get back into writing and all the rest of it!

thanks for checking in, though <3

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i feel like i need to write a little something in this verse for dabihawks thats Not on my list of Free Falling scenes, to get back into The Rhythm without it feeling like i’m working on the big looming monster project.

thoughts? prompts? could even be post-canon tbh

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thank you for the great sero content, if u have any hcs or stuff like that I will take any crumbs I can get⭐️❤️🥰

this literally took over a month to answer anon i am SO sorry, i had no sero thoughts for so long,,,, it’s currently the middle of the night so please forgive me for any incoherence, i was trying to sleep and the ✨brainrot✨ suddenly hit and i had to seize it, you know how it is. so, here’s a random collection of sero headcanons!

i’m sure we’ve figured this out by now but my boy is a service dom all the wayyyy. big softie. love him

also it would be criminal of me to not make him very into bondage when he literally has That Quirk, we all know this, this is a universally agreed-upon Sero Hanta Fact, yes?

hmm. possibly i need to write another serokiri oneshot that involves the tape.

i have some very vague thoughts about him and kiri during the time they’re in a dom/dom relationship and i might write about THAT also, bc oh, the instincts

you all remember that moment in [checks fic titles] Fence where sero tries to command him to relax and kiri goes into attack mode? yeah. that

also on a more subtle level, especially the longer they went without scening with a sub, the agitation would just build. or if they chose to switch off playing the role of the sub, could also get messy

fights for dominance? FIGHTS FOR DOMINANCE?

the line between bio bdsm and omegaverse is veryyy blurry. which is probably because bio bdsm happened when people mixed regular bdsm aus and omegaverse and then cut out the omegaverse but kept some tropes from it and now it’s a whole thing but this is not related to sero okay okay

i told you it’s late for me i’m a little all over the place

actually….i’m thinking about bondage. i’m thinking about kiri being sad sero can’t command him. i’m thinking about tying him up so he can’t fight,,,,,do you see my vision

kiri being so conflicted until it finally actually puts him under and you know sero would be SO HAPPY and proud. makes kiri wag his metaphorical tail

oh also thinking about how eventually kiri needs to dom someone (kaminari!!!) and sero also being there to kind of be his dom in a subtle way but also just monitor and make sure nothing bad happens…and then as soon as kaminari is gone it’s just “oh cariño” and holding his boyf bc he is so so sad

this is a lot of kiri brainrot they are so tangled together in my head you can’t blame meee. sero is never my whumpee he is my soft strong perfectest boy that i pair up with my sad traumatized boys. you know?

trying to think of an angst scenario for him and it is simply not happening. you know what would happen tho. kiri trying to self-isolate/sabotage bc sero deserves a “real sub” and a relationship he doesn’t have to hide

jokes on you he’s not letting that happen!!! lives kiri forever. big trans rights supporter

he would be the smooth bf at like parties events interviews fan meetups…..you know the fans are swooning over what a big strong manly dom kiri is (can you imagine how much More common “step on me” jokes and such are in this ‘verse) and sero is just there to do so much subtle distraction and damage control

i think that’s it

these are my thoughts

thank you for coming to my ted talk anon

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Send me a word, if it’s in my wip document I’ll answer your ask with the sentence that it appears in.

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Oh gosh, ok first things first, the obligatory (but still very genuine) please take care of yourself— no fanfiction is worth killing yourself over (no matter how much you or we love it.) At the same time, wildly excited that you’re still working on Free Falling regardless of everything happening in your life — I love it so much. Tbh, I’ll take any part of FLFverse in any form.

Since you said you were looking for asks, I have a couple of questions stacked up as I’ve been reading and rereading all your fics — no pressure to answer ofc, and idk if some of these answers contain spoilers or things you want to keep secret at the moment, but here we go.

Ok so history of subs in the hero world: in one of your BakuDeku fics, they watch this All Might series and you mention this female sub who was the first hero sub, but that there was just generally stupidity by society and the hero world that relegated her to sidekick hood (and then I think she left actually doing the heroics to manage her own agency? Forgive my memory. It’s been a minute since I’ve read it and I too am drowning in college.)

At the same time, however, from both Hawks and Deku’s POVs, there seems to be not any subs at all in the hero world when they’re heroes/training to be heroes. And forgive me if I’m wrong, but I sense from some of the BKDK fics, Deku is kinda seen as one of the first out sub heroes? Obviously there’s a huge gap in the middle between where Free Falling is right now and where the BKDK fics pick up that you probably can’t answer, but is it just like, an open secret in the hero world that Hawks is a sub? Is he one of several that can get by as long as they don’t openly admit it? Have there been hero subs before Hawks, or is her the first high profile heros who’s a sub, regardless of who knows? Have there been other high profile sub heros before Hawks and Deku? I don’t even know how much of that you can answer, but I’m just too obsessed with your world building and fictional history to not ask.

Ok so the next thing I have to ask, and I’m also guessing it’s a thing you can’t answer bc as an obsessive writer/reader of fiction, this is what I would center a plot point on (which, no judgement if you aren’t going to, I’m just obsessively theorizing in my free time): what are the legal ramifications of contracts? Hawk’s specifically. I remember that you posted a lot about contract’s legality, and a lot of Hawk’s seems to be in the illegal zone, ie, he signed it when he was underaged. Again, my memory is failing me, so I can’t remember if things like, there’s no dom specified or that there’s no end date specified could nullify the contract either. But then there’s the thing about permanent contracts. Is this like catholic marriage? Like, you can’t get it dissolved ever, unless under incredibly specific circumstances? Or do illegalities trump permanence? Is permanence itself even legal? But if it isn’t, why is everyone so afraid of that? (Personally, Im sensing Legal and Court Drama in the future, and if that’s the case, please know that I will literally lose my mind in anticipation.)

Anyways, those are things I’ve been stewing over. They might be too plot heavy for you to answer, idk, I’ve never done one of these before. But despite my absolute love of this entire world (but especially Free Falling), or rather, because of it, please take your time and prioritize your mental health! I think everyone who reads this series and loves it a lot would prefer it be a thing that’s made the way you want it to be in a way that’s supportive to you, no matter how long it takes or when the updates come :)

🥺 you’re so sweet 💖 and thank you for the ask!

SO, history of submissive heroes. basically that first hero sub (Morioka!) (she still needs a first name and a hero name shh) was doing it illegally/undercover, then once her secret got out she fought and won the right to keep being a hero so woo submissives can be heroes now.

[side note: i imagine that even she technically wasn’t The First, like when quirks were still new and heroes weren’t regulated, who was going to stop them? but it was still very rare bc of the general attitude around subs and it’s all very hush hush no one talks about that bit. it’s not like they were real heroes, after all 🙄]

so anyway, all that went down just ahead of aizawa’s generation, actually. his first year at UA was the first year the school started allowing submissives (not every hero school did right away, those requirements took a few years). as we know, aizawa and yamada are switches. you know who isn’t? oboro :3

i would like to write about that sometime. just. rahhh. that’s part of why aizawa is very pro-sub (the rest is, you know, basic human decency).

oh—i forgot about the fate of morioka up there. she was actually dropped by her agency for the scandal and did her best working with other heroes/on her own for a little while, but ultimately it got to be too much and she retired early to find a different career. unfortunately not the most feel-good story.

as for how many submissive heroes there are now, during Free Falling, i’d say there’s a handful. but like morioka, quite a few burn out or never really climb the ranks that much and fade into obscurity. on the face of it discrimination is Bad and Not Allowed, but toxic workplaces, y’know? i don’t think i’ve said it outright, but i’ve definitely alluded to ryukuu being a sub. she’s the highest ranking one known to the public and gets a ton of shit for it, but from what we see in canon she doesn’t seem to be too big on the spotlight anyway? i don’t see her as being very activism-minded, she’s just trying to do her job, not be the face of a movement, and probably avoids discussing it publicly just for the sake of her own sanity. valid.

hawks is technically going stealth as a switch. he just dodges the question if it’s brought up or says something vague. the fan conspiracy theories are probably wild (oh no, now i’m thinking about FLFverse rpf xreader fic), but among heroes it’s kind of a “don’t ask, don’t tell” thing—at least the ones that aren’t dicks.

hawks’s image is very carefully crafted by the commission and they do not want that part of him to become undeniable fact because it would damage his reputation. especially after everything he’s accomplished. the first hero to make top ten before he’s twenty is a submissive? uh, yeah, right. that would go over well.

beyond that, i think it’s pretty much just deku who’s high-profile. and kaminari and jirou to a lesser extent (and whoever else i’ve decided subs, there’s 20 of them leave me alone). their whole class is really famous for obvious reasons, so it’s kind of a given. i’d like to say that deku being, you know, who he is starts to change some minds, and he probably does, but not so much that it takes all the fun out of playing with the social hierarchy, right? ;D change can’t be that easy.

hm, gotta think about the second question. if there is to be Legal And Courtroom Drama, it would be in part 4, which is a huge amorphous blob in my brain right now. i know some legal stuff has to happen/change, but i’m not sure if i’ll focus on it or not yet. tucking that in my back pocket!

anyway. what i can say about that right now is that hawks’s contract is very illegal, but pretty much solely bc of the underage signing, especially given that it’s permanent. permanent contracts are like marriage licenses. they’re the only ones that have to be registered with the government in order to “count” and they are harder to get out of, but not quite catholic-marriage-level. and yes, illegalities would trump permanence.

the question is….do you trust the hero commission to be honest with either the government or hawks?

there’s also the whole deal that separate from the D/s contract, hawks still has his canon contract where the commission bought him from his mom. what’s up with that? time will tell.

there’s also other legal/ethical/etc issues going on which, of course, you all won’t know about until the end of part two. :) i can do ~intrigue~, i promise

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i love promising things and not following up. it’s awesome. superrrrr cool. anyway, little life/fic update for you all. it’s 4am, please bear with me.

i wanted to wait to do this until i had more work done so i could drop snippets and have an actual date for the hiatus to end, but you know.

to be honest, the brain? is not great. where’s the halloween meme. mental is hocus. health not pocus. etc etc. and the thing is i have a support system of sorts, therapy, all that good stuff. i also have, like, four or five mental illnesses. and because of the logistics of College, none of my support system is actually physically nearby most of the time. so. that kinda sucks. <3 i miss people. horrified to discover i might actually be an extrovert and just anxious.

but you know, ups and downs. this week, or at least this weekend, we’re on an up, which is good. the shitty part is, this time last year i coped by writing so, so much fanfiction. truly, look at my ao3 september-december 2022. wild.

and i just. can’t really write these days, for whatever reason. not easily. and it sucks! because i love this story! i want to tell it so bad! but the initial hyperfixation has worn off and my motivation to do anything at all is a bit….how do you say….nonexistent. so like. halfhearted cheers. sorry.

the best timeline i can give right now is this: i have a fandom trumps hate auction due december 31st. it’s about half done. that is obvs first priority (after silly things like school and work) because there are actual material consequences if i don’t finish. i am also launching something original in january, if i can get myself together enough to do so. i think i will. i’m mostly ready (and hey, my main is in my pinned if queer fantasy pirates sounds up your alley?).

and also, there’s FLFverse. i would really like to get back to posting before the year is up, but :/ not sure. definitely want to by january. i’m not sure if i’ll be able to keep up with two chapters a month or if i’ll have to drop to one or something even more sporadic than that.

hey, be honest, would you rather wait longer for me to build a backlog for regular updates, or get the ball rolling sooner but with no schedule?

we have a poll now i guess. it’s seriously 4am and i’m about to go back to making paper mache bones on the floor, mkay. don’t ask me to be normal.

so anyway. that’s the update. i wish it was more positive. if you made it all the way to the end and want to toss an ask, a little prompt, a question, whatever, that would be very cool. i think i have a chill week coming up and i miss this ‘verse a ton, wouldn’t mind some dopamine.

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1 year ago, today

kinda wild! this was, of course, the first iteration. i went through three more docs before i got to the one that actually had the published fic in it :) incredibly messy

anyway, in honor of it being a year, i’m working on something 👀 stay tuned for later today

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FF snippets

i promised these to anon and then i Forgot about them (also i planned to write some but it got away from me) so here!!! are some bits from my wip doc for you all. come get yalls angst

one:

Hawks turns his head away from the next bite without really meaning to, closing his eyes so he doesn’t have to see it, or Dabi’s face.

“Hawks?”

But he’s not allowed to refuse food. He needs to eat to grow, to get stronger, to be better, and therefore it is not an option.

“Keigo, check in. What’s your color?”

He barely hears the question, caught in his own head as he is. He’s not allowed to refuse. So he turns his head back, opens his eyes, and carefully takes the meat. Chokes a little when he swallows, trying to hide it. His stomach is churning.

Dabi slides off the couch, falling to one knee, and cups his face. He sighs at whatever he sees there.

“Okay, birdie, I’m calling yellow.”

Hawks closes his eyes again, childish. “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be. Talk to me. What’s in your head?”

two:

He’s laughing, Dabi’s laughing, the air smells like cinnamon, and when his phone rings he expects it to be one of the League or maybe Miruko and answers automatically, on speaker since his hands are messy.

“‘Ello?”

“Keigo.”

At the first note of his father’s voice—older, rougher, quieter, but undeniably the same one that snapped at him to stop being so annoying, that told him he was useless, that grunted as the belt came down.

Hawks drops the phone.

“Birdie?”

“I’m okay,” he says, but his voice sounds far away. He reaches down for the phone, hoping it isn’t cracked.

“Hawks.”

He’s really tired. Everything’s just…gray. Why is it gray? What’s wrong with him?

“Hawks.”

He blinks until a little of the color comes back. “Yeah?”

“You looked like you were gonna fall off the couch,” Dabi says softly.

Hawks glances down at himself. He is perched on the back of the couch, his usual movie-night spot, and he does feel a little unsteady, but…how the hell did he get here?

He can feel everyone staring at him.

“Sorry,” he tells them. “Just tired.”

three

“Dabi? You alive in there, hot stuff?”

A muffled noise like a groan, then Dabi’s voice. “Bir’ie?”

“Yeah, can I come in?”

Another noise, this time vaguely affirmative. Hawks pushes the door open.

Dabi is lying on his bed, buried under his blankets. From the messy state of his hair, he’s probably been there a while. Even as Hawks walks over he can tell Dabi isn’t fully present; he looks like he’s barely keeping his eyes open.

“Are you sick?” Hawks asks. “Shigaraki said you should’ve warned me about something.”

“‘s bein’ fuckin’ ‘matic,” Dabi mumbles. “‘s fine.”

Hawks takes off one glove to press his hand to Dabi’s forehead. He feels warm, but his usual sort of warm.

“If you’re not sick, what’s going on?”

“I’m fuckin’ tired is wha’s goin’ on.”

“I can see that,” Hawks says, a little amused. “Did you not sleep last night or something?”

“Too many questions,” Dabi mumbles, swatting clumsily at him. He misses completely.

sorry i literally only write angst <3 ALSO!!! i have something exciting planned for next week, provided life doesn’t knock me on my ass again. i welcome speculation about any of the above :3 i miss updating & running this blog, ugh

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Hi! So i just read the whole of flf in like five hours and i just wanted to tell you i absolutely adore how you write these characters, their perception and reactions ecc. I went thru a breakup this year and my distraction has been reading pretty much all that ao3 has to offer, and this fic feels like one of the best dabihawks works out there 🥰 Im eagerly waiting for the next chapter and wanted to thank u for this absolute masterpiece of a story 💖

AW thank you so much!! 💕 i have definitely taken longer on updating than i anticipated (when will my motivation return from the war,,,,😭) but i’m slowly but surely picking away at it.

and just for you, anon, i will pick through my wip doc and post a snippet or two today <3

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He's such a good boy :>

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Hawks with a mullet 💕

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more trans sub kiri fic for you all! have fun :3