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very sorry for your loss! sadie appears to be the Dog Of All Time and I wish you peace in this hard time (💞💞💞)

sadie WAS the dog of all time, very astute, the best baby ever. and again no questions so we get sadie lore: she knew so many words

she was a smart girl in all the ways! super easy to train, lots of emotional intelligence, idk, all that good stuff. but my dad (yall might be picking up on the fact that she was the biggest daddy’s girl of all time) made it his mission, for no reason, to teach her as many animals as he could. the classics, of course, deer and bunny and squirrel and such, but also things like polar bear and giraffe. there’s this kid’s nature show that plays on saturday mornings that we watch with them. i’m no dog intelligence expert, and some people will probably call it the tone, but i swear to you, she wouldn’t react the same to words she didn’t know, no matter how excited you sounded. and she knew other words too, of course, all the basic commands, mommy, daddy, ride, outside, stuffie.

never got the hang of spelling, though—when i was a little kid we had a GSP named bailey who knew how to spell ride, and then figured out trip and car, and then their spellings, and then would just go crazy if you said the letter ‘R.’ which led to spelling “expedition” apparently, tho that could be an exaggeration because i was too young to remember. i think it’s funny anyway.

anyway, sadie never learned this one to my knowledge, but we didn’t really need to teach her “turkey buzzards” because she HATED those things. they perch on our roof and our deck and she was always On Top Of It. the issue, not the roof, as much as she wanted to be. not that they cared much if she barked at them, but man did she try.

here’s her and theo in Silly Hats bc they’re cute, and also sadie probably growling at a turkey buzzard, who knows, whatever it was was gone by the time i walked over

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What a gorgeous girl Sadie 💕 so sorry about your loss, may she be surrounded by squeaky stuffies in doggy heaven 💕💕💕

thank you <3 she is my prettiest lady forever

you didn’t ask a question so i’ll just take the time to drop my own Sadie Lore: she was a great dane, and anyone who’s been around danes will probably not be surprised to know that while she was a sweetheart she was also a massive scaredy cat, only surpassed by her even scardier-cat little brother, theo.

(he’s got an excuse though, poor guy was a rescue with a rough start :C)

any new objects, strange noises, familiar people in weird hats, she was Deeply Suspicious. had a particular hatred for plastic bags. she also hated fighting—many an argument was stopped with “aw, you’re scaring sadie” [pan to the 160lb toddler holding a stuffed sheep].

one time she damn near got herself killed when she was like…three, maybe? my parents wanted to take her for a walk in a park near our house and decided to try a new hiking trail. it only had a small parking area beside the road, but sadie’s well-behaved, not a big deal. except a short ways into the trail, it crossed a small creek, and there was an Extremely Scary Metal Bridge, and sadie slipped her collar and bolted. my dad literally tackled her before she ran into the road (she was fine; he got some scrapes). only time she ever did a thing like that. bridges, man.

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i’m so sorry to hear about your dog; what was her favorite activity/game? my dogs was fetch, she’d play literally all day if we let her

aww! sadie was a pretty chill girl, her favorite things were her stuffies. she loved the ones with squeakers and she had a habit of violently booping them with her nose to make them squeak instead of biting. some of them only lasted a few days before she tore them up, and some would last a couple years, based on what i can only imagine was a complex ranking system in her doggy brain.

we kept a stash of new stuffies in the closet and whenever she destroyed one or it was a special occasion, we’d bring three of them out and set them down for her to choose one. in the last couple years she started getting smart and picking up two at a time :3

she always had to bring a stuffie to people when they came in (which of course you were not allowed to touch) and if she was particularly excited about it she’d prance all around the house showing it off. she carried them with her when she was scared or felt sick/hurt too. most adorable thing ever

now i don’t have many recent pictures of sadie with her stuffies, just this fake bottle of vodka (my dad thought it was hilarious) and one of her oldest and most beloved: the giant carrot

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(cw animal death)

so anyway, uhh, the universe continues to hate me, my life is a soap opera, everything sucks, and one of my dogs died suddenly yesterday. can things stop happening for five minutes. this year is fucking cursed

thanks for coming to this installment of Why I Can’t Finish Chapters, hope to never see it again

rip sadie. best girl in the world.

sadie tax behind the curtain:

<3

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hi there i saw your post about all the stress n stuff you’re struggling w rn n i just wanted to say that im still here n enthusiastic abt flf n will remain so for the foreseeable future<3

literally a few days ago i got an email notifying me that the second chapter of a two-part fic that was first published 3 years ago was finally out… and i immediately RAN to read it even tho i’m not in that fandom anymore!

i bet there are plenty of other readers like me out there who’ll be super excited abt new flf updates even though it’s been quite a long time since the last one. i ofc don’t mean this as pressure to write more, just trying to say that your work will be appreciated even tho it’s been a while!

wishing you all the best<33

aww thank you! i’m glad <3 i’ve definitely been excited about old fics getting updates before, so like, i should know, but it’s just one of those things that’s hard to apply to myself, yknow?

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i’m still not dead! i am, unfortunately, aware of how quiet it’s been here. some of you who follow my other ao3 works might know this already, but a brief life update + some musings on the future of this series:

as i said in the notes of my last fic upload, i received some really awful news about my partner recently. it would’ve been bad enough on its own, but the timing of it with things going on right now (which includes personal things i won’t get into, + me trying to get a new job, which is scary) could have been…better. so that just sucks.

what sucks a little less is that after a longggg writing drought i started actively trying to write again and choose it as a coping mechanism more intentionally in march/april, and that’s going pretty okay! yay! i like writing and i like being able to post things and talk to people.

so, naturally, Free Falling is hanging over me as a story i love very dearly but also one that’s….kind of very overwhelming. it’s on my list this month to finish the current chapter i’m working on, if i can, and then i think i will have to do more thinking about how to make it easier and less stressful and more exciting for me to write.

i have been reading SO MUCH stuff in recent months, both other bio BDSM type AUs and general D/s dynamics, and that kind of helps and kind of doesn’t. i love people seeing my work and discussing it with me, it’s really motivating, but then when i’m not in that space i just start thinking about how much i’ve built up and whether i can actually deliver on it (give you all one guess what my brain’s answer usually is) and how much i don’t actually know what i’m doing, and…sigh.

my instinct is that i just need to work on FF in a bit of a vacuum, try to go back to what it was like before i had a proper audience to think about. of course back then it was just me and a friend obsessing over the idea in DMs and me churning through the first 40k as fast as i could possibly type, but that friend, understandably, couldn’t stay attached to FLFverse this long and now it’s just me again. unsure how to solve that problem, because it’s one thing to ask someone for help developing a story that’s 5 or 10 or even 20k words, but handing them a 150k monster and asking them to play catchup quickly, please, that’s….quite a lot.

maybe i’ll just make a really detailed outline. but then i also worry about finding someone to be as emotionally invested in the world and the characters as i am, and also someone willing to yap about it with me like, all the time, for the foreseeable, like, year, and that’s also quite a lot. and i know i have all y’all out here, but a) i’m surprised anyone’s still here after all my flopping around the last two years, let alone anyone and b) i’m scared. i got the anxiety. it’s scary. i’m not sure what i’m scared of, but something!

i’ll figure something out. i feel right now like i’ve simultaneously focused in too much on the plot, at the expense of the parts that are fun, and that i’m not focusing enough on plot and character arcs and everything is messy. ugh! and here i am throwing myself a pity party. i miss 2022-23. it sucked in some ways but at least i could write. ah, but that was largely before i met my partner, so. win some lose some?

so, uh, the tldr is i got that imposter syndrome hard, i’m nostalgic, i miss writing, i miss dabihawks, and also now i miss my partner and i made myself very sad. :( this is a cry for help

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worlds slowest fanfic author tries really really hard

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tbh i used to hate amnesia as a trope but then i experienced it and now i’m eyeing all my wips like hmmm how can i inject this into the blorbos

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worlds slowest fanfic author tries really really hard

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I just finished reading and came here to do the mandatory author stalk routine after reading a masterpiece and saw you posted like,,, today ajshahsha.

I guess I just wanted to tell you how much I love FFIFYH and how excited I was to see you are still active here (I have serious ptsd from authors I love just vanishing and never knowing if they're okay or not ahshahs).

Also, this AU is so good, I'd seen some fics with a similar vibe but wow this one is just SO detailed and good. I honestly think I discovered so much about myself when reading bc I related to some of the stuff like yeah man I want someone to take care of me like Dabi does for Hawks ahshahsha.

Anyway sorry for the little rant, hope you have a wonderful week!!!

ahhh don’t apologize, all of you are being so nice to me lately <3 i’m so glad you like it! i definitely feel you on authors vanishing, it sucks, but at least for now i am Determined to see this story through, even if it takes, like, forever. my birthday is soon so i would love to finish a chapter or oneshot or something for it, but i dont know, bc of the existence of School and Work. maybe at the very least i’ll post a snippet or something

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this question is super random but I loveeee your characterization of hawks, Dabi, the LOV, etc in ff, and I was wondering—if you had to cast a movie of ff, which actors do you think would play each roll?

oh my goodness, anon, this is a fun question but NOT one i can answer, unfortunately. i know very veryyyy few actors aside from like, the top 20 or so most famous ones to ever exist, and i don’t really think any of them remotely match a character in FF. sorry!

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Hi! I just got caught up on the FLFverse and I love it so much. I saw an earlier post where 2024 was less than fantastic for you and I hope things are getting better. I'm excited for any updates, whenever they may be. Thank you for sharing your work with us!

wiggles hand. the horrors persist but so do i

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so tumblr decided not to tell me i had asks -.- also obligatory im alive post i just havent written in a few months (at all) which is very sad and i am dying thank you for asking

anyway i just got off the longesttttt week of work everrrrr so i will respond to those soon yay thank you for the treats

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currently thinking about how a superrrrr common thread in d/s aus is “local sub doesn’t like painplay [& a myriad of other kinks]” and i know i’m partially guilty of it too but it’s just a bit silly given the whole. s/m portion that is the other half

anyway i’m toying with the idea of subverting that somehow but i have no idea how one would go about subverting it

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hihi this might be a stupid question but I thought I’d ask anyways: did you come up with the bdsm AU?

If not, do you have any fic recs with the same ‘verse?👀

If you did, do you have plans to write more fics in the same verse, outside of the ones you’ve written?

Sorry if this is overstepping at all, I just adore this AU and am a curious fellow🙈 No pressure to answer🫶

not overstepping! i am also a curious fellow, and you’ve given me an opportunity to Talk History.

see, i did not come up with the BDSM AU, but i’ve read it for years and became fascinated with how people played with it. i love fandom history, so i eventually started to wonder where it came from and how it evolved.

the first BDSM AU was written by Xanthe (who has a website you can read all her stuff on, xanthe.com, and it also has an faq about her original world, super interesting) back in 2006. now, it’s possible that other people independently came up with a similar idea earlier than this (indeed, theres an early 2000s fantasy book series with a Vaguely similar premise), but everything i’ve ever found cites Xanthe as the first to do it in fandom and the one to popularize it, so we’re going with that.

the fic series was Stargate: Atlantis fic (john/rodney, for those familiar) with the basic premise of “alternate universe where being bisexual and kinky is the default.” no biological factor! just a different balance of sexualities. i only read part of the very first fic because they’re quite long and i don’t all the way jive with Xanthe’s writing style, so take this with a cup of salt, but they also lacked the dystopian edge many of the modern fics have. let’s be honest—like many fic tropes, it was mostly an excuse to write smut :P.

now, while Xanthe was quite a big name, and did have people spinning off and writing their own versions of her world, it might not have gone anywhere was it not for Helenish. Helenish took issue with Xanthe’s spin on the world and thought that she hadn’t fully explored the worldbuilding potential. she wrote Take Clothes Off As Directed, which i’ve recced on this blog and in the notes of Free Falling, because it is PHENOMENAL. it kept Xanthe’s premise and used it to explore a sexism allegory, very very similar to my stuff and other current popular BDSM AUs.

people began writing in Helenish’s ‘verse, some minor drama broke out between the two writers and their followers (presumably minor—much of this happened on Livejournal, which famously and tragically had many accounts wiped in 2007-2008, especially accounts that posted queer stuff or nsfw stuff or, in cases like these, both. so it’s difficult to figure out what exactly was happening in fandom around then, especially if you’re me and never used LJ and don’t know how to effectively navigate it)

annnyway, the thing took off, made its way to other fandoms, more and more people wrote their own versions, etc. over time, people began combining it with Omegaverse fics, since the two are pretty similar; when those fusions were pulled apart later, they affected one another; this is where BDSM AUs became more biology-flavored, and where we get certain Omegaverse tropes like “omega drop.”

if it wasn’t obvious, i’ve done a lot of looking into this, and i hope to do more soon and eventually put all that info to good use in some form of project—not sure what yet. i’m also not at allll biased between Xanthe and Helenish…..genuinely, Xanthe did a good thing and wrote a LOT of influential fic, we’re just…very different writers.

but ANYWAY, yeah, definitely not my idea, i’m building on the backs of thousands of writers before me. and it’s awesome.

i DO have a fic rec list somewhere on this blog, but i’m actually in the process of updating it! the goal is to get around 40-50 fics on there and i’m pretty close, so keep an eye out (it’s just taking a long time because i have to read fics to know if they’re good enough to rec….and then i just read fanfic for 6 hours….and then i reread some of them because they’re just really good….)

not sure what you mean by the third question—i don’t currently have any plans to write an AU outside of FLFverse, like a different fandom or plot or anything. i’ve thrown around the idea of what i affectionately call the SLSverse (that’s “seems like soaring,” get it, synonyms?), which would be what-ifs or AUs of the AU, but not its own thing.

within FLFverse, yes, i plan to write more fic XD. 2024 has been the roughest for my writing since probably 2019, which really sucks, but what can ya do. in truth, when i started writing Free Falling and Cross the Line and all those in fall 2023, i was hours from home/friends, unemployed, borderline flunking college, and like, big depressed—i had a ton of free time! and FLFverse was approximately the only thing i cared about. now i’m home again and have a job and am doing More Okay at school (academia and i are not friends), and i have other big fun projects to split my time between. i’m pretty determined to at least finish FF, even if it takes me another 10 years, and along the way i’ll write whatever oneshots strike my fancy.

so, yeah! that’s what’s up. thanks for the ask and giving me an excuse to yap about this AU <3

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thinkin’ about a little bit of kaminari angst….he’s so silly in this au. and in all my fics. i never hurt him. should do it once for funsies

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that last fight scene required me to rewatch geten vs dabi to see how he worked and i’m still mad because i feel like his quirk shouldn’t be able to work that way

“i can control the temperature of the ice” okayyy doesnt seem that useful but does make it more durable against fire and stuff so. cool. “i can lower the temperature of the molecules to make water into ice” first of all not how freezing things really works but i’ll allow it because maybe it’s a translation thing. second of all is that not just controlling water? why can you not move the water if you can change its temperature. it’s just liquid ice?

also i was disappointed in that fight by geten making a whole ass ice dragon and barely using it. was that just for the aesthetic of having a dragon? he’s so dramatic