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Boxed

People are funny this way Social butterflies creating circles amongst themselves All intent of serving ourselves What i can get? What can you give? I is in the forefront of the mind Why does I come before A before the Be before See Yet there is never a We We only see what we want to see Creating circles out of Non biodegrable Killing our homes and suffocating ourselves to death Dont we already know that use of such comes with a price too high? A price we are all too willing to pay, regardless of its worth or lack thereof Subtle intentions pollute the air Intrigues and fake affections, all for the glory of the spotlight What can we do with gold, light and power? We linger on for as long as we can then fade away leaving a carcass of what we originally were, obliterated. Blinded by what shines, we forgot what really matters. Intent of filling our own boxes we overlook to go beyond it and see a universe outside of ourselves We lose ourselves in becoming each others possessions, selling ourselves for a price too cheap until theres nothing left. Then we wither on, off and away in hopes of yet another shot at living the same. Fuck.

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Find what you love and let it kill you.

My mind is numb It feels as if a million voices are buzzing in my head Not one coherent thought My insanity is leaving me bare It feels as if im stripped naked, cold to the bones. Empty, thats what i am. Sanity had never been my trait, it feels so alien to be holding it within my palms right now. All that i am, engraved into my flesh, embedded deep within my soul Strip it gone, i am not but a shell of my former self Nothing but hollowness inside I would die to be a monster rather than become a ghost With everything i disowned haunting me for the rest of my days I do not want to lose myself into this madness I do not want to be one with the currents It would be an honor to sink with boulders tied on my ankles than to drift away into nothingness I dream of blue skies, yellow dandelions, soft grass, cool wind, and calm sea Of soaring high into the skies Somewhere far off away from the chaos But chaos is my name, is it wrong to love the things i know i will destroy?

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Flight of the Chicken Shit

Those who chose flight instead to fight Will always wonder what difference it would have made If they have stayed and fought harder than they did I guess we’ll never know

Do we accept things just as they are or do we fight for what we want The difference in knowing when to fight and when to take flight Between holding on and letting go Damn it hurts it hurts like hell Cause those we want greatest scares us the most.

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Fucked Love

Of course i knew. Of course i knew that something worth having would be painful to have. I just didnt understand why. Why pleasure has to come with pain. Why loving so much can be such a bad thing, that you can suffocate and destroy someone just by being inexplicably in love. By being human. I just dont know how, in moments like this how i can make myself be brave enough to want to go through all of this over and over again just for the sake of loving and being loved in return. But fuck the love that kills, that hurts, that destroys, that suffocates and makes us feel so small. Fuck the love that binds people so tightly wrapped together, they lose themselves in each other. Fuck the kind of love that will alienate you from yourself, that will say i need you to stay with me. Fuck that love. Thats not love. Im done with that kind of love.

I now know why some birds no matter how kind you treat them in captivity will fly away first chance they get. Because birds arent meant to be caged. They are meant to soar high and be beautiful in the skies. And if you love one, you wouldnt try to tame it in a cage, because thats not where birds belong, no thats not love. Love is setting that fucking bird free because you know that its better off than in your fucking cage no matter how beautiful and safe it is, that its better off than you killing it with your kindness. Birds like that dont need your kindness nor protection, they need their freedom. So please let them go. Or just kill them swiftly with a bullet in their head.

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You’re mine. Mine, as I’m yours. And if we die, we die. All men must die, Jon Snow. But first we’ll live.

Ygritte, A Storm of Swords

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Yup this is me right here

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Dangling Fruits

I hated that tree with the lush leaves and dangling fruits.

I hated that i was never tall enough nor strong enough to reach for you

So i just stood from afar and spent half the time trying not to look you,

The other half convincing my heart not to long for you

My arms may not reach you but my wandering eyes looked out for you

The way your branches dances with the wind but never bends in spring

The way winter made you cold and covered you in snow

The sound you make when your autumn leaves rustle in fall

The way you bloom in summer soaking in the sun

The way you made the wind howl as you stood strong through the storm

I poured out my heart for you in silence, nurturing you from the sidelines

I soaked in your shadows

I watched you grow, regress and progress

I saw your fruits as they first appeared in your branches

I was there when they first started falling and i stood there with a silent prayer, waiting and hoping.

But of all the wasted fruits that dropped on the ground, you were that one fruit that never became ripe enough to fall for me

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If smoke can burn agony, i’ll gladly trade my lungs

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Running Out of Fucks to Give

I raise my middle fingers to all those bastards who broke my heart, i had faith in you, well i still do I raise my middle fingers to those i trusted and betrayed me in the end, so long motherfuckers I raise my middle fingers to all those who killed my thoughts and gave me poision in school, you cant kill whats already dead fuckers I raise my middle fingers to those judgemental fuckers i no longer give a fuck, those three other fingers are pointing back at you and at the other one at the fucktard beside you I raise my middle fingers to those that made me and those i love, cry. Thank you for your assholeness otherwise we wouldnt be this awesome I raise my middle fingers to all those who inspired my poems, thank fuck for making me feel this god damned bad how else will i be able to write if not in pain I raise my middle finger to all those ive loved and broke my heart, you deserved love as much as i do, i hope you find peace wherever that is. I raise my middle finger to all those words left unsaid and the thoughts at the back of your head and the back space you kept on pressing, it broke us apart.

Im done raising my middle fingers, they’re tired. Give me a goddamned break. Fuck you all. So long motherfuckers, im done with you all. Fuck you Fuck you And you too.

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Icarus

From down here, i look above Behind these prison walls, i admire you from afar Thinking one day i will set out and reach for you And so i took my time Crafted my wings and started to fly Youll burn my wings they say Youre worth more i say You are the spark that might consume me But nonetheless will lit me alive My pounding heart and sorry flight You were up high But i was willing to climb and fall way down If yours is the arms that will catch me now I may burn but ill die with warmth And in your arms ill find solace For you my love Ill burn alive Way too bright to last for long Hold me close, we’ll take our time And when darkness comes for me I'll be nothing but burnt out Spent with love and the fire in your eyes Of passion and adventures and one too many tales Till then my love Ill burn for you and for me too For ours is a world of connections Of souls intertwined And eyes that shine their brightest As they burn out the fastest But ours is not a matter of how long But how much And i will love you enough To last one too many lifetimes

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The Lost Cause

The eyes aren’t blind but they’re not open

Ears’ not deaf but we can’t hear them

Lips not sealed yet we aren’t outspoken

Hands are tied and we say we’re free

We aren’t numb yet we can’t feel them

We have our minds yet we don’t use them

Are we a cause so lost already?

We build our walls way too high

Only to suffocate us into gasping a sigh

Beyond the walls of comforts

Lay the scattered hearts that were broken

The brightest eyes, the once enlightened

The greatest minds, now forsaken

The dying hopes of those spirits, now broken

Those who were bold have now turned cold

The lost minds who can’t find their way home

We are the people who lost our bones

We fear not the dark but the light so stark

We lost our bones the same way we lost our homes

Soon there would be nothing left to lose anymore

Not even this cause.

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A Burning Candle

A spark lit me up

It set me afire

I twisted and churned as try to set it out

I looked for ways to make it all cease

But then it only got worse

I waited and waited and wasn’t oblivious to the pain

After a while I got tired of it all

And instead danced with the flames

It devoured me alive

Consumed me from inside out

I shined my brightest

Only to burn out the fastest

So now I’m bleeding, slipping through time

And not before it

But that’s what I do

Maybe the only way I can make the world gain is through my pain

As I slowly wither away, maybe they’ll start to bloom from my remains

That’s not a bad way to go

A lot have died for a lesser cause

Mine is as good as any other.

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The Fallen

Over the cornfields

Among the wheats that makes our breads

Lies the corpses who had no bones

Before the breaking of the dawn

The men with fury in their eyes

The women and their last goodbyes

There lay a comrade with drying sighs

We bleed that’s what we do

Screaming our lungs out for a battle that wasn’ttrue

Trying to make the world gain from our pain

We think that one will rise from one’s remains

But no,

It was nothing but bandage over a hemorrhaging heart

Cause how can there be peace when there is war raging on inside of us?

Slowly tearing us apart from within as we wither away,

A mask of serenity etched upon our faces

And so they say

Movement is the key to survival

And life is a battlefield filled with the fallen

so we run.

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Refuge

We are all running, escaping from something

Some find solace in a bottle, some in plastic

Some in the comfort of warm arms and bodies intertwined

Others in narrative pages written by souls so old they practically crumble with age

So fragile we are, too soft against the hard realities of life

I feel myself gasping as I choked in the hands of time

Then I struggled and fought to no avail

Only to succumb and resort to shame

Oh no, we can be tamed

And so we find escape in a stone

Too enthralled we are by a means of escape that we forgot that it comes with a price

A price that is never cheap

To continue running and running until there’s nowhere left to run

And no stone left to spend

So we run back in circles carving pumpkins in the dark

Until we stumble through the discarded stones

We scrape our knees, tumble and fall

Weep out our eyes and prolong the inevitable

I wonder when it will ever stop

This constant cycle of running in circles

No we can’t be saved and we won’t be saved

Because there is no saving us from ourselves.

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Currents

The endless cycle of repetitive nights and days gone by

A bag of bones, a sack of stones, a gold filled throne

What do I want from this race called life?

The raging river of rapid currents dragging me by

I am submerged and yet I felt so dry

I flail my arms as I try not to drown

How high can one go to fall so far down?

I gasp and wail all to no avail

My limbs tire the same time my lungs starts to fail

What was I thinking swimming against the tide?

but hey does it matter?

Least I knew I tried

What else was I to do?

To stay in the banks of safety was to wither away

What was I to do with life anyway?

Maybe the goal is not to live as long as we can

Maybe it’s to love as much as we can

Until we can no more.

Ah but to love is to destroy and to be loved is to be destroyed

But what better way is there to be destroyed

Than that by the one you truly love.

And with that breath, I took my last.

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Omnipotence

I met a man born of the stars

I was young and naïve and he thought me how to love

He taught me things, he taught me not to sin

And I clung to him like a second skin

Oh, what I wouldn’t done in your name

As I grew old, the world took hold

It made me bold

Bold enough to questions the lies I was sold

The world may not be as round as I was told

And so I pulled on the knot and the tighter it got

And for a while I was but a lost cause

And like any lover who has lost a loved one

I cried for you

I had loved you like a mother loves her child

A lady and her lover

A daughter and her father

I died the same day I had to wake up and live in a world where you did not exist

But I could not dally longer, for the world need its monster

And so I died a thousand more times

Before I woke feeling alive in my own skin

And realized that the world is not ours for the taking

And that we are not meant to live but to love

And that has made all the difference.

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Starry Eyes

I mourn for her

For the girl in white dress and twinkle in her eyes

The girl who paints the world in colors when she knew it was black and white

The girl who danced in the flames of a funeral pyre

She saw me watching the chaos of the ocean and wanted to calm the sea

I saw her as she started towards the waters with the wind and tide warning her against it

I warned her not get her feet too deep

But I was too late

The current swallowed her whole as she fought against it and drowned

I stood there frozen as I was

For she was wailing, gasping, putting up every inch of fight in her

Her siren’s cries ringing in my ears slowly leading me to oblivion

I stood there and watched as she drowned with boulders tied to her ankles

I watched as she sank until not a trace of her can be found no more

No one saw it, no one knew

But I did

It was as if she never existed

And so I mourn for her

Until I can mourn no more.