Gene Tierney in Leaver Her to Heaven (1945) dir. John M. Stahl
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—Chris Mc Geown
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﹡ h, fawn .
𝚂𝙷𝙴'𝚂 𝙰 𝙱𝙸𝚃 𝙳𝚁𝙰𝙼𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙲 . actually , that’s an understatement . eloise is very dramatic . but fawn can’t pretend like she doesn’t see some truth in her words . her teeth sink into her bottom lip as she watches eloise sketch - the delicate lines of her fingers clasping the pencil so harshly she’s worried that the lead will snap with the next movement . “ well , you’re definitely not a god . and this isn’t a game either . so we just have to figure out ways to … deal , “ not the best pep talk but fawn isn’t deterred . she forces a smile , reaching her hand out to her . “ we’re going to go for a swim . and then for a walk . to stop thinking about everything that’s making you hold a pencil like a knife . “
﹡ notepad set down, eloise twirls the pencil through her fingers once — twice, for show before tossing it aside. she deals with stress poorly, wringing her hands together, breaking pencil tips on the soft pads destroyed in her emotion. fawn has a much healthier way of avoidance, one that doesn’t involve palms being pressed into or the soft, elegant toss of a stuffed animal. “ fine. we’ll go for a swim. ” eloise would rather hold her pencil like a knife for the rest of the day ( it’ll keep people away from her ), but upsetting fawn seems like a terrible option. “ we have to stop by my house, all my bathing suits are there — and my hiking shoes. ”
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﹡ s, elijah .
❪ talk? about what? ⸺ it was the simplest of questions yet somehow elijah found himself backed into a corner. it was his own fault for taking matters into his own hands after being instructed to stay away from eloise. he never considered himself to be impulsive, jumping head first into any sort of situation without assessing the potential damages it may bring. elijah felt he was completely out of his element, however, not knowing what was wrong or right in a situation that felt like the end of the world. he felt almost on edge, that they were all waiting around for the inevitable doom to take place, but were all delusional to believe everyone pulling apart would save themselves. even with the case of the world coming to an end weighing heavy on elijah’s shoulders from time to time, there was still so much the two half - siblings had to discuss before they went their own ways or disappeared. the two never had a real connection as cousins, elijah wondering if their mother kept them apart with the purpose of a vile secret staying hidden or if the two never clicked, ran in the same social circle to notice one another. the past wasn’t how the present was and it wouldn’t be how the future is either. the two are siblings, brother and sister who never had the chance to bond and grow together. while the two don’t have to walk into the sunset as the best found family trope, he wanted nothing more than to clear the air. “there’s so much to talk about, eloise.” elijah insisted, almost a desperate plea to his tone. “we’re brother and sister ⸺ “ he was quick to cringe, immediately lowering his voice a moment later in case any other faction or factionless member was listening. “ ⸺ we’re siblings. there’s a whole bunch of history we didn’t get to make for ourselves and, you know, i didn’t get to say my peace either.” he fights off a pout, frowns instead at his younger sister. “i get it you want me gone. i get it, i do, but we ⸺ we haven’t even scratched the surface of what happened.”
﹡ she’s spent hours tracing the roots wrapped around her ankles and crawling up her arms, fingers following wood woven into blood as she searches for an origin. for twenty one years, they have always led home — crawled up the cobblestone steps and leapt into the arms of her parents. for twenty one years, she’s smiled for family portraits and signed christmas cards with a needlepoint in the back of her neck telling her that these aren’t where her roots lead and she’s never fought back. why rip the blindfold off when it isn’t hurting her? why cut her fingers on silk when the cloth wasn’t sharp? she, like she has been for all of her life, was complacent in her roots, letting them wrap around her snugly until they were snug around her throat, choking confrontation past her lips as she flung poison and song at elijah over something that was out of his control. brother and sister, sister and brother, roots tied together to an ankle that tried to cut her off. “ you don’t get to say your peace to me — ever, okay? ” she spends hours perfecting herself, patching up the cracks in her mask and fixing up every fault she can find in her system. eloise is supposed to be good, she is supposed to be kind and benevolent, a girl that people will love so that her entire family will be loved — so that they will look at her and see something she is not. if she is not who they want, will they want her? her real mother didn’t want her and she was the first one to see her truest self. “ we’re siblings because of our fucking mother — not because of anything else. i don’t owe you anything after i was robbed of everything. ” this is her truest self, after all, it is who she knows best — claws and teeth and blood and cruelty. is this what their mother saw? is this what she knows? maybe she is more like her than she knows, but eloise doesn’t know their mother at all, not the way that elijah has gotten to know her.
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𝐬𝐦𝐬 ˛ 𝐣𝐞𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐡 ﹙ church ﹚
jebediah: actually
jebediah: the treehouse colony doesn't sound bad.
jebediah: at least you don't have to argue about jobs and rations.
jebediah: you've been holding this in since the start of this adventure?
jebediah: this must be zock level.
jebediah: what's going on? i'm sure i am not equipped or intellectually able to handle it but tell me anyways.
zacque: fine, i'd let you live in the treehouse colony with me. as long as you stay far, far, far, away from me on your side only and we never see each other.
zacque: but .... yea, if anyone finds out about It, my life is over. it's literally a zock level event.
zacque: you know, actually, nvm, it's not that big of a deal i think i'm overreacting haha.
zacque: anyway... sorry...
zacque: no it's a big deal, i think i might get cancelled.
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﹡ h, zane .
“we’ll know the answer at some point. but not now. all in god’s time,” answers zane. this is bullshit, of course. the gasp he emits when she hands him the banana milk is not bullshit, on the other hand. “shit, thanks.” he’s grateful for it, sincerely. and maybe a little overwhelmed. “ah, i didn’t bring anything to give you….” he sounds genuinely upset, because he is. but he’s back on his bullshit soon enough: “this must be the test that god was talking about. well, maybe i should head back and find a gift for you, kind friend.”
﹡ eloise hums, unimpressed with his answer about god, but she fails to feign surprise or disappointment at his answer — she isn’t a faithful person to begin with. “ i don’t need a gift in return, don’t worry, that’s not why i brought you some. ” she wraps her hands around the strap of her backpack and tilts her head at him. “ i found an extra case in the basement — probably left over from my mom’s last trip to the store — i figured god’s prophet would enjoy it. ”
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𝐬𝐦𝐬 ˛ 𝐣𝐞𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐡 ﹙ church ﹚
zackie: i think i have to come clean about something with you, jeb.
zackie: there's something i've been hiding from everybody for the past three months — ish — and i don't know ... i thought that it would make me feel a lot better at first but the more i hide it the more i feel like i'm just digging myself deeper into a hole that i'm not gonna be able to get out of and if i don't share it soon i think i might end up in the woods building a treehouse colony meant for only one person.
zackie: it's about my cousin — the one who came over to thanksgiving and got scratched by gertrude? u know, from the aunt who hates me and never comes over except for holidays like once a decade? anyway ...
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With your permission, Mistress Anne, will you teach the King of England how they dance at the court of France?
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﹡ d, finnegan .
𝙻𝙾𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽: masons pond .
𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝚄𝚂: closed for @flownhigher .
𝙸𝙽𝚂𝙿𝙸𝚁𝙴𝙳 𝙱𝚈 … bottom of the river by delta rae .
( * ── 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐍𝐃 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐁𝐄 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐃 by none , domain of the isolated ── indiscriminately . water has no regard for loyalties . still , after the latest incident , fin feels restless . their faction has scraped by seemingly unscathed , no member accused of arson and no resources consumed by merciless flame ; leader feels like tensions are too high to leave even neutral territories unobserved . it seems like they are not the only one with this thought in mind ── there is already a figure there by the time they arrive . ❛ eloise , ❜ finnegan greets , voice unusually neutral for someone whose kindness is known among west & new ham alike . warmth , however , is not extended to someone whose motives they constantly find themselves doubting . ❛ here for a dip ? ❜
﹡ her gaze latches onto them before they see her, her hopeful vision of an empty pond dissipating into thin air before her as she pockets a certain vice that only comes with isolation. when it comes to power and leadership, eloise wants none. she is not the fiend who tore her way up from a shallow grave and took finnegan’s spot out of greed and hunger — eloise is so much more than just a girl who wants control; she has a much bigger vision than that. survival is weaved into the fine strands of her hair, latched onto the tip of her tongue and imprinted into her fingertips — it is what she craves most in new ham. and when she sees the newly ascended leader ( one of three ) in her place of quiet loneliness, she swallows down every complaint that bubbles up her throat. she may not crave power, but respect will get her farther than disregard. “ can you not tell? ” a bored lilt to her voice, eloise sarcastically gestures toward her attire. “ the swimming skirt is all the rage, these days. not meant to weigh you down at all. ”
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﹡ r, autumn .
location: mcdermott drugstore
availability: any!
survival now took on a different meaning than it had the earlier part of her life. everything had always been about survival, where they were going to eat, sleep, how they were going to get to school, how she was going to pay for college, even her escape plan. survival now was still in the same vein with the same issues, just a different set of skills. she needed to take a step back and reevaluate the means of which she was given, the means of which they were all fighting for. autumn had braced the walk to mcdermott, having turned over her own bottle of ibuprofen and turning up empty handed. maybe it was the weather, or the migraine headache, or the last town meeting they had attended, but her mood was sour, and she’s certain the look on her face said it all. she found the medication she was looking for easily, but apparently wasn’t the only one in need of their limited supply. “wait don’t tell me,” she feigns a pout, “you partied too hard the last time we tapped into the town’s alcohol supply and you’re truly paying the price?”
﹡ often, in the old world, where she was made of gold and marble, eloise would label herself a saint. give to the poor, volunteer for the needy, whatever would make her look best and now . . . now, eloise helps the wounded and feeds the faction because it is what is expected of her. how funny, that she never really cared about anyone but herself and all of her reputation chasing and mongering has caught up to her. of course, eloise would help the needy, she always has. “ don’t. ” she doesn’t have the fight in her to argue with autumn, instead reaching for the bottle and placing it in the other girl’s hands. a single word, and eloise turns back to the shelves to look at the dwindling supply of painkillers and ibuprofen. the health center is as stocked as it can be, but rationing will only take them so far. “ would it be smarter to empty the bottles? start rationing them out in twos? ” she turns to autumn with a stoic glance. “ therefore, the partiers and the rats can’t walk away with, ” her eyes drop to the bottle. “ a full bottle? ”
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﹡ c, vanessa .
she was taught to share. it was the polite thing to do though growing up so wealthy, it felt like a facade. her parents definitely didn’t share their wealth so was the whole aspect of ‘sharing is caring’ just a show? the liquor store had already been thoroughly raided, she was one of the first few, smart enough to hide the most expensive of tequilas in the rafters. only just now going to retrieve it. to say that vanessa had changed a lot was a massive understatement. a fallen angel. once an uptight, popular girl who had the world at her fingertips. now she was rebellious, closed off, meaner. why be fake anymore? what was the point. a soft sigh escaped from her lips as she took a sip, “you’re lucky i’m in a good mood today. i’ll share.”
please assume plots! basically she was your stereotypical super popular girl, on the cheer squad, dated the jocks, probably homecoming queen and now she’s like the complete opposite. a total 180!
﹡ eloise knows her well. they are the types of girls to know each other, to wave at the townspeople as they cross the street with their arms looped through one - another’s. good finds good, girl finds girl, facade meets facade. they’ve both changed in the venomous climate of this dangerous town, shifted into who they need to be to survive and some may argue that this — who they are now, is who they have always been. wretched, wicked, changed, morphed. adaptation is a skill, eloise says, it’s not a sin. “ i don’t drink, vanessa. ” it’s impossible to miss the judgment in her tone, despite the cigarette that finds itself between her lips. “ if you’re going to insist on getting drunk, do it by yourself. ”
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﹡ b, noelle .
* OPEN.
location: picnic area at west ham commons.
fingers fumble with the current task at hand — sewing a lone button back onto her prized flannel shirt. admittedly, the shirt had seen better days but noelle clung to it like the fabric was imported silk, the item holding far too much sentimental value for her to toss it. her frustration builds as she tries to thread the needle, attention turning to the sun that was now directly in her line of sight. “ is it just me or are the days getting longer ? ” as each day transformed into the next, it seemed as though time seemed to drag on ( or maybe she was finally losing it ) . she laughs but it’s dry and bitter, shaking her head as she rolls the button between her fingers. “ you know, i rarely enjoy watching the sunset anymore … just means another long ass day is on its way. ”
﹡ they have found separate paths, now, chosen to walk concrete versus dirt in a way that should have torn them apart but eloise wouldn’t erase the lifetime they’ve had together for even the sunset. it’s her, indie and noelle against the world, even if they wear different badges and align themselves on opposite lines. eloise takes the thread, then the needle from noelle with a ‘ tsk ’. “ they feel longer because our responsibilities are no longer optional. ” she doesn’t sew, but it’s a skill she’s had to pick up in this place. she threads it, secures it, and hands it back to the blonde. “ we aren’t doing chores because we have to, anymore. we’re doing them to survive. still, babe — ” eloise’s legs stretch out, toes pointed. “ take a break. no one will chew your head off if you take a day to yourself. ”
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Sophokles, from Elektra; translated by Anne Carson in An Oresteia
Text ID: I am already nothing. / I am already burning.
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��� j, minhyuk .
it seems as though ever since the world turned upside down months ago, minhyuk has been coming to terms with some MAJOR life realizations. whether or not they’ll serve him well is UNKNOWN considering there is no expiration date on … whatever the hell is going on. what minhyuk does know is that he SUDDENLY has ample free time to spend as he pleases. at first, the ability to go on runs around town or go to the library for some reading provided minhyuk with a desirable amount of self seclusion, leaving him to his thoughts and the ability to focus on either his labored breaths or the ticking away of the wall clock. it took minhyuk some time before realizing that before now, this level of ISOLATION never existed for him. pre-new ham consisted of soccer practice, studying, and spending time with eloise. a consistent trifecta that consumed his time. minhyuk remembers that whatever free time he had it was spent with eloise — most of his memories held a shape of her in them. and while he would HARDLY consider it fully negative, minhyuk would be lying if he were to say at times their attachment to the hip didn’t feel stifling. these past two months felt as though he could truly exhale and exist as his own entity — purely minhyuk, when for so long it was minhyuk and eloise. even so, at times, his solitude feels unusual and it’s then he finds himself visiting his old home in an attempt to cling to the old sense of familiarity from his life before. minhyuk’s plan is to tend to the rose bushes that are his father’s pride and joy, though he’s not expecting to see anyone, let alone eloise. he’s not sure why he’s SURPRISED when she willingly calls out to him — not that they ended on bad terms to avoid each other so fervently, but still. minhyuk approaches the porch, eloise’s confession causing his lips to curl upward into a small smile. ❝ your secret is safe with me. though, i’m curious what a faction one punishment would be for stealing milk. sitting in the corner with a dunce hat on while everyone else silently judges ?? ❞ he shakes his head before stopping in front of eloise. ❝ if it’s the last bowl then you can have it. that’s always been your favorite brand anyway. ❞ minhyuk pauses after his words, eyebrows knitting briefly before meeting eloise’s gaze with his own. ❝ i’m pretty sure there’s a box or two in my pantry at home if you ever want them. ❞
﹡ it was oft - repeated advice that she would hear regarding her relationship with minhyuk. one﹕ keep him happy, be a good girlfriend so that she may one day become a good wife. he would absolutely be who she would marry someday, a big white wedding so they can live in a big white house with two perfect children. the other﹕ be prepared for the break up, because high school sweethearts don’t last forever and when they do break up, it’ll be okay to feel directionless for a while. ( AS IF her life revolves around her relationship ) when they returned to west ham and peeled off of the stuffy busses, hands still clasped together as they realized that nobody was here to tell them no, their break up came so naturally that for a moment, eloise forgot to feel devastated. she felt more like she could breathe, instead of feeling like her world was imploding in on itself. a lifetime spent together and for the first time, they were allowed to be on their own, eloise wouldn’t change anything she did if she woke up on that day all over again.
a laugh falls from her lips, carried by the wind as it flies softly down the street. “ the dunce hat isn’t that bad, actually, it’s the parading you around town with the dunce cap that might be a little bit humiliating, ” she jokes — people often told her too, that things would never be the same between her and minhyuk. in her opinion, they’ve never been better. she likes them both a lot better apart than together. at his offer, her eyebrow raises with another spoonful of cereal. “ am i still allowed in your house? you won’t freak and report me for trespassing if i come to steal and hide your cereal? ”
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﹡ c, sam .
〳 his intentions were earnest and callow when he stepped into the empty library on evenings like this. the silence reminded them of days spent tucked away at that very desk they were perched against, one leg curved atop the edge while the other dangled to the floor — paresthesia slowly running from the compressed nerves in their thigh down to their toes like a billion pins and needles. he’d contemplate a new piece, imagination running wild with the sounds of instruments filling his head, pen and foot tapping with anticipation and purpose. on this night though, there were no deadlines to meet nor a desire to continue exploring their passion. on this night there was just sam and a scathing silence. it was incredibly coincidental that the section their table was positioned beside was filled with dozens of books on self - help. their eyes would shift to the front covers, curious but with obvious rebuttal. he rose to browse the nearest row, fingers tracing the spines as if a single touch could draw its contents into his mind — i have to have a problem to find a solution, sam would remind himself, then move on to the next book and repeat the cycle.
〳 that familiar squeak of the door echoes in the distance, breaking his compulsive pattern out of fear of being uncovered, and his quick feet guide him out from between the sections. eloise. that was who their eyes met after coming to a frantic stop. that moment of fleeting panic was countered by a single glance, that paresthesia from earlier moves from their leg to their chest but this time they welcomed it as a warmth rather than a discomfort. she apologizes for arriving but he smiles because she did ( and there was nobody else around to influence his behaviour ). “ hey eloise, ” their voice meets hers but in a slightly more cautious tone, their worry that she’ll turn and leave overpowering their elation. azure hues follow the movement of her wrist curiously but that final word draws them back to hers. “ arson ? jesus— alright say less, ” sam turns on their heal and heads in the direction they think they remember some sort of science being. it’s safe to assume the reason that drove her to seeking out that type of information but truthfully, sam wasn’t looking to engage in the conversation. playing oblivious was his goal. small goals, small successes. “ how’ve ‘ya been? if you don’t mind me asking. heard your group’s full of nerds so … i can only imagine how boring it gets. ”
﹡ she can name on one hand the people who make her feel at ease. the edge is where eloise finds herself most often, teetering on the thin line between cliff and free fall. she lives here, with her toes just over the edge and her heels digging into the earth behind her and the wind in her ears, her hair, her eyes. on one hand alone, she can name the people that are allowed to pull her away from the edge and into the comfort of the dirt and grass of the land beneath her feet; it isn’t many. with no reason except for who haunts her most, eloise spends every second of every minute of every interaction with her head turned over her shoulder — keeping an eye for the wild wolf that stalks the forest, waiting for another misstep, claws reaching for the red cape that keeps her tied to purity and perfection, always in the shadows, always between the trees. one mistake and she can fall from the place that she has worked so hard to climb to, one word uttered from her lips and her life can be ruined. when she first met them, eloise barely remembered the wolf until she was walking away from them, a bounce in her stride and a wisp of a smile on her lips. the last time she spoke to sam, really spoke to them, she could recall remembering every time she let him pull her away from the edge to land in their arms or in the sound of their laughter or in the passion of their music. his ability to make her — relax — was both a blessing and a curse, and it scared her more than it did comfort her.
but, still, eloise follows him into the rows of books with a ghost of laugh tracing her lips. through it all, it — whatever it is — still feels normal, like finding a book about arson is just their idea of fun [ . . . ] like eloise is dragging them to the library again while minhyuk has practice. her stomach churns with every step she takes, her fingers reaching out to graze the spines of the books she passes — finally, eloise allows herself to laugh softly. though the rules of the library have all but been shed in the new world, she still follows the suggestion of silence. “ you know, by proxy — that makes me a nerd. ” it isn’t an insult, not from him, who wears it with more light than malice. she turns the conversation, avoiding his question by never giving him an answer. “ but, isn’t that how you’ve always seen me? ” her hand drops by her side, letting her eyes follow the shape of their back before she forces herself to get distracted by the titles by her head. “ besides, we can’t all be as dauntless and strong as you ‘ fearless few ’ — i hope you’re doing well there, sam. ”
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