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pairing non-idol!jake x fem!reader genre angst warnings cursing, mentions of jealousy, lovers to exes (if i am missing any tell me) wc. 766 !!

author's note. hiii, I'm back again with another drabble inspired on another Taylor's song, I really hope you enjoy it...even tho it's angst but yeah yk what I mean hehe also you can make request if you want to!! anyways thanks for the support and byee <3! drink water and stay safe !!

It was a Saturday night when you stepped into your apartment, followed by Jake, your boyfriend, you just returned from a dinner with friends.

Your steps dropped tiredness and reluctance, an effect of your boyfriend's actions.

"Come on, baby…you have to open your eyes, listen to me" Jake said while he places both of his hands on your shoulder squeezing them a bit

You looked at him in a cold and annoyed way 

"No, now don't give me that look…I just want the best for us…for you…why can't you see it…?" He developed a gentle kiss on your neck

"I know…I know that you love me and that you care about me, but you shouldn't have done that…that was so impolite and immature of you, standing up on the table and decided we were leaving because you 'had things to do'...?"

"Baby…I-" Jake was cut off by you

"No, Jake, this isn't the first time you've done that, you did it a few dinners ago too…and I think I know the reason why…"

"Your jealousy" You said firmly and with confidence as you look into his eyes

"What?! what are you talking about now?!" He mocked "Jealous, me? Are you hearing yourself right now?" He left go your shoulders

"This is what I get for trying to be a good boyfriend now, right? being called a jealous and possessive man" He said 

"No, no, no I didn't say you were posses-" 

He didn't let you finish your sentences, his voice filled with anger and frustration.

"Are you listening to the bullshit you're saying right now? God…woman…you're unbelievable…" 

By now, you're sat in opposite corners of your living room, Jake paused for a bit and then he finally spoke again.

"You're helping him, right? you're on his side…yeah…you so fucking are…" He said looking at you with boiling eyes.

"What? what are you even talking abo-" You said, all confused.

"Your best friend, your little best friend…all of this was an idea of that friend of yours, right?"

"Now you're accusing him of senseless things?!!" You said, offended.

"Senseless things?...SENSELESS THINGS??!!! DO YOU THINK I'M A FUCKING SENSELESS THING??"

"HE'S TAKING YOU AWAY FROM ME!! FROM EVERYTHING WE BUILT! EVEN ALL THE THINGS I HAVE DONE FOR YOU, YOU'RE STILL BEING UNGRATEFUL, HE WANTS YOU ALL FOR HIMSELF!!"

Suddenly, Jake stood up and began to pace the room, his fist clenched tightly at his side while he kept his angry gaze firmly on you.

"Him?!! You're the one who's taking me away from not just him, but from all my friends; you're the one who went to a party and searched for me to get me out of there! you're the one who prefers me being in the house than outside!" You said to him with your proud, cause everything else you had lost it in the process of your relationship .

"It's not me taking you away from everything we've built, it's him," he shouted. "He wants to take you all for himself...I know he does!!" 

"You're so blindfolded by your jealousy that you can't see how much you're hurting me!!" 

Jake stayed silent.

"Please…Jake, I don't like feeling whatever the hell this is." You said.

"But if you let me just-" He said gently as he started getting closer to you again

"No, Jake, leave" You said staring at the floor

You took off his coat, which was over your shoulders, as a signal of refusing his warmth if he still had it. You threw it at him.

"Fine, I'll come back tomorrow to talk abou-"

"No, Jake, you don't understand; we're done" You said not allowing him to finish.

Jake looked you up and down.

"Hah, I doubt you'd last long without me. You're probably just going to run right back to me after a few days, begging me for another chance. Don't bother. I've moved on to bigger and better things than you." He said before storming out of your apartment.

Even though you knew you were gonna be better without a man like him, sometimes you wished you could just forget him like if he was nothing in your life ever; but that's not possible at least not in this universe. You just get used and live with the wounds and marks that his passive-aggressive actions and words left on you but not before without recognizing your achievement of running away from him.

Sometimes in the nights, you miss him, yeah, it's normal, sometimes your mind just dives into an ocean of thoughts and you just wonder what would have happened if you gave him a second chance…maybe he would've the one.

Only if he had been a different man, a better man

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[fnhrtt]

› mine  ִִֶָ !

drabble inspired by taylor's song

pairing non-idol!sunghoon x fem!reader genre fluff, angst warnings cursing, kissing (if i am missing any tell me) wc. 1.5k !

author's note: hiii!!! this is the first time I'm writing stuff like this and more important the first time I'm posting it!! anyways I just got the idea of a drabble inspired on "mine" !!! I hope you like it :) btw english isn't my native language so if you notice any error on the writing or you want to help me with it , tell me ! I'd be so grateful with you for it!!! that's all for now! enjoy <3

Sunghoon and you met a few months ago, 9 months to be exact, the both of you were in college, he was working part-time waiting tables, that's how you I met him, while you were staying up doing homework, he was working (secretly staring at you from time to time) that turned out into your new routine. wake up, get ready, go to college, end your classes, café until 12:00 a.m. or until it was closed, home and that again and again; but you knew that the main reason of your daily long stay in the cafe was him, the handsome waiter  Sunghoon, but you also knew that he convinced his boss to stay open the café a little more than the usual on his workdays cause he knew you were always there, always.

And on that way the little glances turned into a few seconds of eye contact then suddenly to a 'are u free on Friday?' and in less than you expected, the two of you are laying on your couch.

'and then the teacher just didn't accept my essay cause the margin wasn't as thick as he had requested!!! ahhhh can you believe it???' you say in pure courage and rage 'who the hell he thinks he is??!!'

'how does he dare?? did he even see your writing? he's judging it just for a stupid margin!' he said in annoyed tone along with his pouty face, what just makes your heart melt

'ugghh anyways…it isn't a big deal, it's just a stupid essa-'

'NOT A BIG DEAL??! do I really have to tell you the the amount of days I had to stay at the café past midnight just cause you still were there?! also your work matters!!! just like my time!!' he reproached.

you rolled your eyes in a frisky way 'but you don't seem to be complaining about the kisses I gave you either…' you said clearly teasing him what just made him blush a little. 

'pffffft shut up!' he said and chuckled awkwardly, you sat up in the couch what just made him did the same.

'shut me up then' a little innocent smirk appeared on your face

he just answered by cupping your cheeks leaning on giving you a sweet but lovely kiss.

that was the way your relationship had been through the long 5 months, where you had shared memories just like picnics near the lake, study sessions, video games night and whatever activity you could do together that adjusted to your student budget.

there was one point where he started to influence you and your life cause he was already part of it, he changed you, not in a bad way (well maybe a little) you passed from be meticulous and perfectionist to start enjoying the present, his presence. letting him know your secrets, your insecure side, the one that had been tormenting you since you had memory; your fear of love and giving yourself completely to someone cause you had grown up with a pessimistic view of love, with the expectation that if you gave your heart to a person this sooner or later they would leave you.

but this time was different you started to believe for the first time, he made you feel comfortable, you started to love every detail of him, his eyes, his hair, his cheeks, his eyebrows, his laughter and his dad jokes, making you laughed even if the joke wasn't that good.

all seem to be perfect this time, stable was the word, the word longed for by many, achieved by few. you thought you already could enjoy it…but that feeling didn't last how much you wanted.

in a slow and silent way, you started to spend less time together, the drawer of your things at his place has been untouched for 3 weeks now, you were falling apart but it wasn’t your fault, right? it was the school that was consuming you and leaving you with almost nothing of time to even take care of yourself ,at least that's what you told yourself, cause you knew that unconsciously (or maybe consciously…?) your relationship was falling deeper and deeper with every week. the café, the place where you used to spend the most of your time beside the college, now it was one of those places that you prefer avoid or try to take another way, all with the excuse of “discovering and exploring the streets city more cause you haven’t had the opportunity to”

but you weren’t doing this to Sunghoon, he didn’t make anything to you and you knew it but you kept depriving yourself of any sign of his affection: his good morning and good night messages, his littles presents and letter that he occasionally left at your place even his small smiles that he’d give you if you two happened to see each other and his attempt to have a conversation with you that would go further than a  "I can't today, I have assignments to do"

that happened around 3 or 4 weeks but you knew that you couldn’t keep being like that though you didn’t know how to approach him again either, this situation added to your constant insomnia were the perfect mix for your trips to convenience stores at dawn.

you found yourself again in front of the small section of frozen drinks that your nearest convenience store had. after you picked your favourite drink and some chips, you headed to the till while you were waiting for your things to be scanned. someone tapped your shoulder.

It was him. Sunghoon was there. he looked worried and you could say a bit annoyed.

‘Hi! has everything been alright?’ his voice tried to sound happy or at least encouraging but his eyes were telling all the truth of his mind, soul and most important of his heart.

you could notice his deliberate sadness and desperate hope but that didn’t stop you from just saying your favourite quote lately…’yeah…well I have a lot of work now, see you later’ paying and taking your purchases, you dared to leave the store as if you hadn't left your boyfriend of more than 5 months in there, alone and hopeless.

but this time was different when you said it you could feel a lump on your throat, before you could put a feet outside of the store the tears started to coming out, you knew it, you knew this was the ending, you knew he was mad with you cause your childish attitude of ignoring him everytime he was around or at least at your sight.

the idea of losing him a few weeks ago sounded impossible but now it was here, right in front you, right in the tip of your tongue, you could feel already all the pain and imagined how many nights you were gonna spend crying until falling asleep, how everytime you drink coffee will remind you of his eyes or his little hobby of pampering you with free coffee every day, you prepared yourself for the goodbye.

you ran out, crying, and he followed you out into the street, grabbing your sleeve before you could walk away more.

'hey wait-' sunghoon's voice had worry on it 

'this isn't working anymore, I'm not working…I'm sorry…' you said with tears running down your cheeks

'what? no, no! don't say that-'

'no, it's true…I messed it up, I've been avoiding you all the time just cause I didn't want to get hurt by losing you but all I did was being selfish…I'm so sorry really…'

'you're not being selfish for taking care of yourself, you're just being carefu-'

'no, Sunghoon I am, I am being fuckin selfish like I have always been, I put away your feelings to give priority to mines, I'm just a burden to you, admit it, you know it and I'm not judging you if you're thinking of dropping me, I'll understand it completely cause I've been a totally idiot, a completely coward for not wanting face my reality, for not facing my fear of people leaving me…so I leave them instead'

'you finished? can I talk now?' sunghoon said a bit concerned, he sighed

'listen, I knew about this…do you remember the picnic near the lake? that was the day when you told me about this side of you and even after knowing it I stayed with you, do you remember when I said that I'd never leave you alone? I really meant it! I mean it now!' sunghoon said while he was holding your hands, you missed this, his warmth, the sweet way he talks to you, his sincere voice

'with all preconceived rights I tell you that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, you are the best thing that has ever been mine'

'and also let me tell you that your drawer is already beginning to have cobwebs uh!' he said trying to make the environment less tense and it worked, you chuckled at his silly joke then he wrapped his arms around you 

'let's go to my place and make fun of the cheap TV series, shall we?' he asked while look into your eyes, his look showed what you've been looking for through all this time, the pureness and truthiness of a soul, a lovely soul which doesn't care about the time or place, it always enjoy being by your side

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