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I’ll never forget the day the attending I was training with as a student asked us if we could stay after clinic hours because they were bringing Syrian refugees to the hospital and needed as much help as they could get. They didn’t have insurance and not a lot of the staff could stay so me and the other student with me stayed.

The attending was a pediatric cardiologist and the first patient was a few months old baby who was suspected to have a heart defect. I was given the task of taking his medical history from his mother and when I got to the part where I needed to ask about her family history, she was silent for a few long moments and didn’t pat an eyelash as she said: “I don’t know, they all died in the bombings.”

I don’t know why I’m remembering this now and it’s stupid to make her story about me, but I remember not being able to ask any other question of her. I didn’t even know what expression I was supposed to make. I was taught to be professional, so a polite smile? a nod? what the hell kind of textbook tells you how to respond to such an answer?

I still remember her and her baby’s faces every time someone tries to say a word about refugees taking our jobs and opportunities. Well, at least you don’t get to answer a question about your family medical history with “I don’t know, they all died in the bombings.”

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what if you went outside and saw slender man what would you do

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tired isn’t even a mood anymore it’s my entire personality

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Even if you don’t feel like it, you are worth it. I promise.

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one time a stranger on neopets years ago told me “school makes you think you have to be good at everything but sometimes it’s ok to just be good at one thing. even if it’s not something you get a grade for. they don’t grade you for being a good person” and tbh i still think about it little did i know all i needed this whole time was in glowing purple text and that icon of the goth fairy

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Let people grow.

When I was younger I was very right-wing. I mean…very right-wing. I won’t go into detail, because I’m very deeply ashamed of it, but whatever you’re imagining, it’s probably at least that bad. I’ve taken out a lot of pain on others; I’ve acted in ignorance and waved hate like a flag; I’ve said and did things that hurt a lot of people.

There are artefacts of my past selves online – some of which I’ve locked down and keep around to remind me of my past sins, some of which I’ve scrubbed out, some of which are out of my grasp. If I were ever to become famous, people could find shit on me that would turn your stomach.

But that’s not me anymore. I’ve learned so much in the last ten years. I’ve become more open to seeing things through others’ eyes, and reforged my anger to turn on those who harm others rather than on those who simply want to exist. I’ve learned patience and compassion. I’ve learned how to recognise my privileges and listen to others’ perspectives. I’ve learned to stand up for others, how to hear, how to help, how to correct myself. And I learned some startling shit about myself along the way – with all due irony, some of the things I used to lash out at others for are intrinsic parts of myself.

You wouldn’t know what I am now from what I was then. You wouldn’t know what I was then from what I am now.

It distresses me deeply to think of someone dredging up my dark, awful past and treating me as though that furiously hateful person is still me. It distresses me to see others dredging up the past for anyone who has made efforts to become a better person, out of some sick obsession with proving they’re “problematic.”

Purity culture tells you that once someone says or does something, they can never go back on it. That’s a goddamn lie. While it’s true that some remain unrepentant and never change their ways and continue to harm others, it’s important to allow everyone the chance to learn from their mistakes. Saying something ignorant isn’t murder. Please stop treating it that way. Let people grow.

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reblog if you’re def the kind of person who

says “cool beans”

does finger guns

says “coolio”

“my guy”

“my dude”

ironically said “get rekt scrub” and now can’t stop

“ayyeee” 

makes a lot of weird faces

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Do you see that? Looks like a joke image, right? Well, it isn’t.

This happens in Venezuela. It looks like nobody knows how is our crisis, because I’ve talked with a lot of people (Americans, French, Canadian and even Mexican people) who really don’t know what is happening.

I’ll explain the imagen.

In Venezuela, we haven’t medicines, even in the hospitals. This is because a patient with hypoglycemia is being attended in this way, because the hospital don’t have dextrose for the people. This is happening in Caracas, Venezuela’s capital. But not only in Caracas, is confirmed that in Maracaibo too, and who know where too.

Another cases:

“I take prednisone for animals because I can’t found it anywhere and it helps me, isn’t logic, but our health can’t wait”

“Confirmed, I’m medic performing in so many decadency. We even’t have privates places for dextrose for decompensated diabetics and believe me I could write for hours about so many that I’ve lived in the middle of this catastrophic crisis, where personally I’ve take with me a hurted pacient behind of a 350 because we haven’t ambulances, where we haven’t gloves for protect ourselves and a lot of  things like that, this is the reality…. It must be give “ORALLY” because the drink is rich in glucose (Sugar) for these pacients this imagen showes [She means the soda imagen] how is conected to a micromanager where it doesn’t looks very good… But it’s valid by an OROGASTRIC probe. As a heroic way, becase like we know “It’s incorrect”.

I even can give my own testomony. My mom is sick, and she must work everyday, I can’t help her because my leg is broken, and my brother must help his own family. She’s in pain everyday, and the money is too hard to found. If there’s money, but there’s no medicine. And, if there’s medicine, there’s no money, because all the treatments are very expensive, like everything, for our inflation on the 1600%.

Please, help us.

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My relationship with my followers

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forgive yourself. whether you fail a test, eat too many cookies, say the wrong thing, fail a class, or spend a whole day in bed — learn to forgive yourself. the next day will be better. the next day will be a day closer to your next success. you can do it.

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This is my kitten, Aphrodite. This pic is a few week old, and she is sick now! She developed an INFECTION that WILL cause her DEATH. She is 3 months old, and she is a wonderful soul. I love her so much, but I have NO MONEY cause my boss isn’t paying me. I’m crying she is my best friend, I love her and I don’t want her to feel bad. But she NEEDS surgey. The infection starts in her nose so it will affect also her brain very soon. Please I…I’m crying I don’t know what to do, I’m scared I don’t want her…you know…

Please donate if you can, I’m scared I’ll offer you tarot, pendulum, dream interpretation, visions of what I see, energy readings, drawing, digital drawings, sketch, anything please I don’t know. You can pay what you can, the minimum is 3€ on ko-fi please! Reblog if you can’t donate, but this is important to me 😭😭😭

ko-fi.com/wolvesmaze this is the Ko-fi link please, I’m in panic, she doesn’t deserve this!!! Also I offer customized spells, sigils and something more, just ask me if and I’ll try my best please please! Reblog!

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as ur friendly Neighborhood Nursing Student™ i feel somewhat compelled to remind everyone with the hot weather:

every liquid except sea water and alcohol hydrates you. It’s not CHUG WATER OR DIE. in fact, gatorade and the like are designed to hydrate you efficiently.

yeah, this includes coffee and tea and soda. the diuretic is not enough to cancel out the liquid. juices and milk have solids in them, sure, but they’re also mostly liquid! it counts. 

your body can only absorb so much water at a time, so chugging 64 oz of water at noon and calling it good will do a wonderful job of flushing your kidneys, but not so much of hydrating your tissues. it’s more important that you’re getting consistent fluid throughout the day. 

there’s a lot of fancy ways to determine How Much Water (Liquid) I Should Drink but honestly? 8 oz (1 cup) every other hour on cool days and 8 oz every hour on hot days should be fine (assuming you sleep for a normal amount of time per day…. i’m assuming ur awake 16 hours a day.)

figure out how many oz each of ur favorite cups is. it’ll help your guesstimation. 

if ur urine is darker than light yellow, you’re dehydrated. 

if u pinch the skin on the back of ur hand for a couple seconds and it takes more than a second or two go to back to normal then ur dehydrated. 

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Maybe you don’t put a steel blade to your wrist, but you constantly guilt yourself over a past that eats you alive.

Maybe you don’t abuse drugs, but you go from toxic relationship to toxic relationship because you weren’t taught any other form of love.

Maybe you don’t pop pills, but you drown yourself with liqour and parties because you’re too afraid to be alone with your thoughts.

Maybe you don’t have a traumatic past, but depression consumes you and you feel it isn’t valid because you’ve “had a good life.”

And maybe you haven’t tried to kill yourself, but you don’t feel alive either.

Self-harm, like abuse, is not just physical. It’s in your thoughts, your lack of action, and things much less visible. Treat your mind as your friend, if you wouldn’t tell your friend that she was worthless, ugly, and messed everything up, catch yourself when you do the same.

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WARNING

There is a blog out there called:

lovelylittlelittles

PLEASE I beg of any of you who post selfies, body pictures, weight loss progress, if you have an eating disorder, if you use the tags ‘me’ or ‘mine’ to BLOCK THIS BLOG.

He will steal your pictures, he will not remove them even if you ask, and it doesn’t matter if you are underage. This person is a predator. He will reblog your pictures and attach a disgusting and usually degrading caption to them, please do yourself a favour and block him. He will most likely steal multiple pictures if he can, so it’s best to block him before he can steal more or steal them at all. His followers will harass you also, it is very very annoying and not worth the hassle.

Spread the word to any of your friends who post selfies or any form of body pictures. You all deserve better.

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today my anthro professor said something kindof really beautiful:

“you all have a little bit of ‘I want to save the world’ in you, that’s why you’re here, in college. I want you to know that it’s okay if you only save one person, and it’s okay if that person is you”