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History is written by the victors. How much of it went the way they say it did?

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Reblog for good luck 🍀 💰

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My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

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This just broke me

-Rumi

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i hope my absence gives you the peace my love never could

- dee

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I'm turning 30 tomorrow and my headspace is a mess. There's no one to talk to, so I'll say it here even though I vanish into the void.

I'm turning 30 and I don't have anything to show for it. I have no savings. No plans for my life. I don't own anything of value. I've made no achievements. I'm in severe pain from my neck to the base of my spine which affects my legs and just about everything else. Dent and curve in my back to thank for that.

I feel like I've failed at life and can't see how this life will get better... even though I tell myself it will every day despite watching it get worse. For once I want to feel joy as much as this pain. I wish I thought life was worth living. But I see nothing past 30... I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired. たすけて。

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“That’s the way it is: If two people want to be together, they’ll find a way. They’ll forge a way.”

— Shobha Rao, An Unrestored Woman: And Other Stories

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“The moment you feel like you have to prove your worth to someone is the moment you absolutely and utterly have to walk away.”

— Alyssia Harris

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Why am I always made to be the bad guy when I ask for effort and reciprocity?

Don't I deserve those things too?

Why must the effort come from only me and why should I be okay with that?

Is something wrong with me...?

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“Imagine being with someone where it’s safe enough to just talk for hours about your fears and the things you’re ashamed of … Imagine …”

— Unknown

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“Some people are in your life to test you …. Until you stand up and say: Enough is enough. I am worth more than you offer me.”

— Unknown