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no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy,moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious,gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever bro could cause a nuclear bomb inside me and I'd still ride.

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HIS REACTION I-

he’s definitely a kinky mf

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do you ever just ….

like put me in a headlock or something damn

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Belt open. Shirt open. Hand placement. Messy hair. The stance alone.

Passionately, next question.

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DREW STARKEY W Magazine Best Performances Issue 2025 | ph. Mert Alas and Marcus Piggott

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the difference in twelve year old percy jackson, who is discovering the world of the gods for the first time, taking it all in, feeling hope, feeling like luke is a traitor to the gods and everyone else

vs

eighteen year old percy jackson who has sacrificed everything time and time again for the gods who never gave a damn about him, who claimed the lives of his friends, his family, their own children, and never cared, who realized that in the end, while he may have gone about it the wrong way, luke was right in the end

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honestly, i just want 3x04 to have its own post?

i’m just going to be repeating myself and putting a lot of thoughts i’ve written in other posts verbatim in this one but i kind of just feel like 3x04 deserves its own post.

because honestly, honestly, what’s really great about their first encounter in 3x04 and what really enhances the hold-your-breath tension and things-unsaid when they see each other

is rodrigo obliviously describing lucrezia’s afterglow and how happy and blushing she looks

and this question is so loaded

because it wasn’t exactly the wedding night she’d imagined but it certainly seems to be the wedding night she’d been hoping for for a while

and thereby became a night that did bring her everything she could desire, like I mentioned noticing before, when they have their first “real” kiss in 3x03, she smiles about it

then there’s cesare there just not allowing himself or just trying not to allow himself to feel anything positive about the night before, at least not around lucrezia

and then when he confronts lucrezia about the consummation with alfonso, he is decidedly calm

despite the fact that he’d just had a fit

and part of it is him hoping that if he stays calm then she will (even though he knows it won’t work) but i also note that he physically distances himself from lucrezia when he tells her the news

so as to try and keep his emotions contained, much like how he couldn’t even be alone with her in public at the beginning of the episode because he is so conflicted about what just happened.

and then lucrezia’s multi-layered anger, the first level of anger at how could you possibly ask me to do this, it’s embarrassing, it’s degrading, it’s humiliating

and then the second layer of how could you possibly ask me to do this, you who I love more than anyone and anything, me who you love more than anyone and anything and cesare is just determined to stay calm and detached and to just take it

but the moment she asks “where is your love for me?” he just completely breaks because she’s now questioning the depths of his affection for her, which know no bounds

thereby asking this question again

and then she reiterates that she loves him because she whimpers that right before he kisses her because of course he loves her too, of course this is tearing him apart, how could she possibly even ask that?

and the fact that he kisses her instead of just holding her or instead of just saying i don’t want you to do this speaks to what i believe is the primary issue, which is lucrezia’s second layer of anger, which is i’m in love with you, i’m not sleeping with my husband because this love between us has been realized, do you honestly not feel this with the same intensity, are you honestly okay, as the man that i love, with everything that’s happening right now? and the kiss being an affirmation of love that is not familial love

(and even as she’s distraught she continues to actively kiss him).

it should also be noted that when lucrezia previously asked if he was by her side i.e. if he loved her, his response also came out in this emotional kiss as if to be like, could you possibly have any doubt?

and can we talk about how this

isn’t false, how cesare isn’t just saying things to appease her because we know he would’ve murdered him if he could, he’s murdered for her before

and this agonized expression

is as much about how he can’t do that for her as it is about anything else.

and because of that confirmation of non-platonic love, it allows lucrezia to punish him, to make him experience the torment of the entire situation with her

like the sheer devastation of cesare’s face and the soft exhale of “no” like no, please don’t make me watch you with another man

and lucrezia’s harsh resolve of if this is happening to me, it’s happening to you

and cesare crying with the weight of it all?

and then it’s the actual night and i think it’s interesting that cesare is balling his fists

because he did that in their previous scene too

and i don’t think he’s crossed the threshold into arousal just yet, he might be getting there but i don’t think it’s happened so i think it’s just him trying to contain all of these emotions he’s feeling including a murderous jealousy

then the threshold is crossed

and he’s watching it teary-eyed

because it’s this combination of a) i don’t want her to go through this degrading experience b) i don’t want to watch her with another man c) but now we’re simulating the act by watching each other and i’m turned on because it’s like we’re having sex

and so d) i shouldn’t be having these feelings and it’s tearing me up inside and i’m utterly ashamed of myself

now lucrezia has a whole other set of layers because in order to comfort alfonso and get him through the night, she tells him to be there with her and pretend like it’s only them in the room

but she’s not there with him, in fact it’s like she’s checking to make sure he’s occupied

because she’s not using the same technique with him, she’s using it with cesare, she’s there with cesare, she can only climax or enjoy the sex at all because she’s watching him and simulating it with him

it’s also interesting that she goes into the room with her mind made up that she’s going to give cesare a show

whether it’s because she knew the only way she could get through it was by keeping her eyes on him or because she wanted him to be jealous, i don’t know, i kind of think it’s both at the same time.

with the aftermath, what i haven’t really spoken about is how neither of them believe what cesare is saying

he isn’t earnest when he’s speaking to her, he’s defeated

and i think it’s partly because while he wants lucrezia to be happy, it’s clear that they’re not going to escape this bond and throughout his speech, lucrezia’s expression is sad

until he says this

and she looks at him like you know that’s not going to happen, you have to know that that isn’t going to happen

and he looks at her like please, just please, let me believe that it’ll happen, let me do this right thing for you by telling you to let us go

and then when she touches his arm, he can’t help but hold her hand and he looks like it’s quietly killing him inside to leave her

anyway, it’s my favourite episode that demonstrates their chaotic, angsty, transcendental mess so i figured i should do a thorough breakdown of the episode.

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THE BORGIAS || 3.03

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[In this alt-reality-Oasis thing the two have going on, Mitchell is the shy, sensitive one.“I’ve heard online that I’ve got a pussycat face or something. I do something with my lips. I pout.”) And Glynn-Carney—who until recently was actually the lead singer of an indie folk band called Sleep Walking Animals—is the guy who’ll match you Guinness for Guinness. (When the server hands me a beer: “Oh, here we go. Here we go. This is what you need. Come on. Hey!��] The never-not-bickering brothers Aegon and Aemond. The final three episodes reintroduced the siblings at ages 21 and 18, respectively: Aegon (Glynn-Carney), the reluctant misfit chosen to sit on the Iron Throne, and Aemond (Mitchell), the cunning younger brother who wants to usurp him.

EWAN MITCHELL & TOM GLYNN-CARNEY for Esquire magazine (june issue)

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You can tell by the reaction people have to Penelope asking Colin to kiss her whether they ever experienced being a wallflower/insecure fat girl at a party or not.

Because you say it's pathetic, I say it's relatable, no matter how desperate it may sound. If you've never had your insecurity eat you up from the inside (but also the outside, as Portia literally told Penelope that she was delusional for thinking she was gonna find a husband in her third season out) to the point you genuinely, wholeheartedly believe no one will ever love you unless you physically change, then obviously the scene is off to you.

But Pen literally told Colin she felt stupid for thinking she's gonna find a husband (she just started believing what the ton and her mother said) and that she knows no one would want to kiss her. And for a romance girl like her, do you think the thought of never having a kiss, never experiencing that passion, would be easy to bear? I can so relate to being the most romantic of the bunch but also being the loneliest and aching for physical and emotional romantic love.

She is so vulnerable and so real in that moment but y'all gotta bitch about it because it doesn't make sense to you. It doesn't make sense to me either because she's gorgeous, but that's the thing - no one ever told her she's gorgeous and actually meant it. And even if they did, there must be 10 more people who didn't that keep that insecurity in her, specifically her sisters and her mother.

Nicola said this one was for the wallflowers, and it truly is, so if you find scenes like this cringe, you just don't relate to the character enough to feel it and recall moments when you had the same thoughts as her.

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The Borgias 1.03 | 3.03

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cesare + lucrezia 34 / ?

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— Let him know that.

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THE BORGIAS || 3.03

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I just finished the borgias, one of your posts a while ago motivated me to watch it, I dont know if you're still answering asks about this but I wanted to talk about something that's been going around my mind.

When Lucrezia refused Alfonso on 3x04, do you think it was because a part of her thought she and Cesare were together then? As in, despite him avoiding her gaze after, do you think she thought there was hope about it happening again in the future so she wanted to be "faithful" to him and taking advantage of Alfonso's seemingly innocence to convine him to have a sexless marriage for as long as she could?

It could also be that after finally sleeping with the man she trully loved, it was hard to get in the mood with her husband, since before she seemed on board with sleeping with him an felt rejected when Alfonso didn't want to.

But I really like the idea of Lucrezia having hopes of her and Cesare being in a relationship, despite her marriage.

I will always be open to Cesare and Lucrezia asks. And this is an interesting one! I think it's a combination of both things, the latter leading to the former. So, I would say that it's more than it's hard for Lucrezia to get in the mood with Alfonso after sleeping with Cesare, I would say that the physical realization of her and Cesare's romantic love was transformative

like there was an internal shift that makes sleeping with anyone else an impossibility to her

like how would it be possible for her to feel anything with any other man

when she and Cesare have finally, finally stopped lying to themselves and the truth of their feelings has been laid bare to both of them.

And because of that impossibility, it becomes a sort of faithfulness to Cesare, a sort of resistance to betraying what was realized, which is why when I broke down 3x04, I spoke about how when Cesare tells Lucrezia about her having to consummate her marriage in front of Alfonso's uncle, there are two levels of anger :

and then lucrezia’s multi-layered anger, the first level of anger at how could you possibly ask me to do this, it’s embarrassing, it’s degrading, it’s humiliating

and then the second layer of how could you possibly ask me to do this, you who I love more than anyone and anything, me who you love more than anyone and anything and cesare is just determined to stay calm and detached and to just take it

and then she reiterates that she loves him because she whimpers that right before he kisses her

and the fact that he kisses her instead of just holding her or instead of just saying i don’t want you to do this speaks to what i believe is the primary issue, which is lucrezia’s second layer of anger, which is i’m in love with you, i’m not sleeping with my husband because this love between us has been realized, do you honestly not feel this with the same intensity, are you honestly okay, as the man that i love, with everything that’s happening right now? and the kiss being an affirmation of love that is not familial love

so I do think because of this shift, this transformation, this impossibility of true affection with anyone else, which they later reiterate in Relics

Lucrezia, at the time of her initial abstaining, had hoped for them to keep a sort of physical faithfulness to each other as well as a spiritual one.

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— I placed you here, as you see. At my side. Are you?

“I think they've come to realize, I think it is Lucrezia who says, 'Only a Borgia can love a Borgia.' I think it's also a part of Cesare's vanity. It’s definitely eating him. There are different kinds of love and when you love someone as much as Cesare loves Lucrezia, you want to possess her but you wish her happiness more than yours. And I think Cesare has many doubts about what’s better for her. I’m sure, for himself, he enjoyed the whole thing. [Laughs.] I don’t think he has many personal regrets about it. But I think for her especially he feels like he should be the bigger man. He should lead her the right way. And he probably feels that he failed her in a way." — FRANÇOIS ARNAUD (request by @borgiatargaryen)