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sex is cool but have you ever been told that you lost some weight?

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i’m SO fucking FAT and i can’t stop EATING AND I HATE myself

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goals

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Reblog if you have an eating disorder but

You’re not underweight

Even a little chubby

Struggle to fast

Binge eat

Struggles to lose any weight

Maybe I’m just a fat ass…but I just want to feel like I’m not alone

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🍋Lemon Cake!🍋

I’m back with more low cal sweets😋

Mine is with lemon juice, but it can be orange juice, smashed strawberries, bananas, or any other fruit you choose!

Calories for the whole recipe: 340kcal

Each slice: 42kcal!

(8 slices)

Ingredients:

Egg white (1)

Egg (1)

All purpose flour (60 g)

Butter (2 tbsp, 20 g)

Lemon juice (80ml)

Stevia sweetener (60g)

Baking powder

How to:

Preheat the oven to 325 degrees F.

Beat the eggs and sugar over a bain marie until the sugar melts and the mixture is warm, then put the mixture in a mixer on high speed until it’s big and foamy (about 7 minutes).

Put the cake flour little by little, while mixing with a whisk, then put the rest of the ingredients, leaving the juice out. The texture should still be a little bit foamy.

Pour the juice at last, slowly, while mixing, then pour the batter into a baking pan.

Bake for 30 minutes, always giving it a look.

You can add any whipped cream, or syrup. Totally optional. I covered it with lemon mousse.

Enjoy and stay safe!💕

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🥗 48 CAL MINI OMELETTE-QUICHE 🥗 This is honestly one of the easiest recipes in the world, it’s super simple, super yummy and is full of vitamins. I love these when I can actually be bothered with breakfast because it tastes so good and it will happily keep for a couple of days in the fridge. It’s delicious, vegetarian and you can’t go wrong with less than 50cal a quiche!

🥗 INGREDIENTS 🥗 -4 whole whisked eggs -4 whisked egg white -Veggies veggies veggies! Use whatever you like but some of my favourites are capsicum, mushrooms, spinach, onion, coriander and garlic. Find some flavours that you love!

🥗 METHOD 🥗 1. Whisk all your eggs and egg whites together really well in a measuring jug 2. Dice your veggies really well and set them aside 3. Get out your frying pan, add a titch of oil and sauté those veggies until they’re soft. 4. Pour the veggies into your egg jug 5. Now pour that into small muffin tins (or into a brownie pan to slice up later!) 6. Bake that for 15 minutes or until golden 7. Enjoy!

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Amazing Ana Pasta Meal

2 large servings of Shirataki noodles - 20 cal

2 medium eggs whites - 34 cal

Seasoning (salt, garlic powder, onion powder)

*Mix together and microwave for 5-6 minutes with occasional stirring*

Total cals - 54 cal

I am staring at my plate and am blown away by how much food is here (not posting photo because I forgot to make the presentation cute lol). I don't think I'll be able to finish all of this. And it's only 54 cals. Make this at the beginning of the day and eat it whenever hungry. Living on 54 cals a day with a full stomach.

*Only do this when fasting the healthy way. I don't support eating disorders*

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stream of consciousness // ignore this

(tw: negativity. im not doing great) 

 im really not doing good. i can’t stop eating. i can’t dose myself, if im in front of food i eat it. every night i cry because im regaining the weight i lost and i wasn’t even close to my ugw. every morning, i can’t stop myself from eating. i want to cry any second of the day. i just don’t understand how i did so well two months and now im just failing every single day. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it. i hate my stomach, that’s the worst of it. i’ve been ashamed of my ‘tummy fat’ ever since i was twelve. twelve. that’s not okay, i know it’s not okay. but a few months ago i really felt like i could finally get to a point where i’d feel semi-okay in a bathing suit. where, even though i’d never like my stomach, i could lose enough weight to not want to cry literally every time i see my body in a mirror. i thought this was it. i even forged my url after it. i felt like i was able to do it. and now all i do is keep eating. and i hate it. i hate myself for it. i feel lost, because im supposed to “start” my career. i graduated in january. but i dont know what i want to do. i dont know. i dont know what type of job i want to do. and i know there’s only a very small percentage of people who have the luxury of working their dream job. i know. and my mom keeps telling me that when she started her first real job, she cried every single day for six months because she hated it. but honestly? fuck that. are we really so deep into capitalism that she thinks its normal for her child to cry on the way to work for six months? or that it’s something that is just ... part of life? i HATE it. 

so i dont know what to do. and with everything going on, is it even worth it to try to conjure up a life worth living??? who tf knows where the world will be in a year. in two, in five years. it’s only gonna get worse. i know that’s dramatic, but this feels like inferno. and i have a great, stable family. great friends. a hobby that i love. im financially somewhat stable bc of a parttime/side job that i enjoy and that’s not going anywhere. so i know that im fortunate. i know that having the freedom to not know what i want to do with life is a freedom i should treasure. i know. but that doesnt make me feel better, or helps me out of it. and i cant turn to anyone because there is no one else but me who can figure these things out. i am not a religious person. in fact, i am incredibly atheist, i dont believe in fate or in destiny or whatever, but PLEASE. i need a sign. i need someone, something to guide me. i know that there’s no meaning in life. i believe that’s what makes life meaningful, there’s no plan, no path, no destiny. there’s no afterlife. because of that, you make life what you want. that’s what life is about. that’s what i have always believed, will most likely always believe. but i just ... i feel so, so lost. and - as cliche as it sounds - i feel so misunderstood. or not even misunderstood, i just feel like im not even speaking the same language as the people around me. i wouldn’t even know how to begin explaining why i feel so end-of-the-world. i know that the state of world as it is in now has something to do with it, i know that most likely has an effect on my psyche. but if im honest, i’d been feeling like that since last year, or even before. now, it’s just come to a full blast. and i just dont see myself ever having a life to be proud of. not even proud in the sense that it should be somehow more than other people’s lives or whatever, but just.. a life that’s worth living. it’s the first time ive realized that im no longer scared of death because .. why would i stay alive??? and im not suicidal, if anyone has read all this post through dont worry, im fine. its just a very dull realization that i’d be fine with dying, because what the fuck else am i supposed to do?

and maybe when i think about it, dull is a good way to describe it. i just feel dull. i havent had grand emotions in years. ive been in love once, i think? that was years and years ago. when i listen to music, with 90% being love songs, i can enjoy it on a theoretical level. but ive never felt like that. and i love my family, my friends, they mean the world to me. but thats a stable, constant love. there’s no intensity of new, of change, .. it’s just there. and maybe that’s all that love is. and maybe thats okay. but i would just like to feel reckless and exhilarated once. im far too much a coward to do drugs or drink or ‘break the law’ or whatever. im also not a teenager anymore, so i dont want to be stupid. but ive always been such a rule follower, and now i feel like im numb. and its eating me alive.

anyway. i can’t stop eating. that’s why i started this post, to talk about that. i just want to stop eating.

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