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Can we get a tag? Lmao

The Anti-Endo Agency

For those who can't access the linked text

https://discord.gg/wcX73QHXsD

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Term time

Fishbowled

When you keep dissociating and feel like you're going to switch, then forget about it only for you to notice it again

No switch actually happens- You're just stuck in a loop of forgetting and feeling like brain soup

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do not claim to support systems if you are pro endo.

do not reblog posts that are anti endo if you are an endo “ system “ or support them.

do not claim to be neutral and then reblog discourse or either pro/anti endo aligned things — that’s not even close to neutral .

do not say you don’t can about terms when you should at the risk of breaking someone else’s boundaries.

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System culture is being called "violent" because you went through RAMCOA and ICT. That's the reason.

- @decayflux-protocol

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I'm very fucking upset.

If you:

Cannot make a joke without targeting

Cannot make a joke without targeting a group of individuals

Cannot make a joke without targeting a group of mentally Ill individuals

Cannot make a joke without targeting a group of mentally ill and traumatized invididuals

If you cannot make a joke without targeting people with DID..

Don't make that joke at all.

This video Is incredibly insensitive. If you're gonna make a punchline and joke about tariffs, then don't be ableist. Thanks.

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Do we have a sysblr story

So, before we deleted it we ran Anti-Endo-Safe-Space. And when we created the blog we were kinda new to sysblr. And because we thought it was fine, we posted in commonly-ran-endo-tags (think #plural #pluralgang #actuallyplural). We thought it was fine until one day we googled our user

We found the start of a group of people calling for us to be slammed with hate because we were "evil, vile spewing bigots". Aaaaand then we got an influx of death threats, links to shock sites, and being told that since we believe systems are disordered, maybe they should make us MORE disordered among more and more things

So basically because for a little while we posted in endo-friendly tags we got death threats anr just horrible things and until we deleted the blog the other week, we still did

BUT ON THE PLUS SIDE

We found some really good friends through sysblr so not ALL bad happened

Oh hey I remember that blog, we used to follow you.

Jfc, people need to stop sending death threats to other people. You didn't know, and it's so fucked up to treat you that way.

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This [user/system/alter]

is gay

is gay [mlm]

is a lesbian

[not requested]

Likes and reblogs are very appreciated!

This blog is anti endo. Endogenics and supporters, please respect our boundaries and seek out a pro-endo userbox account instead of this one.

Image sources

pride flag, mlm flag, lesbian flag

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system fact #3

DID, OSDD and UDD are all from childhood trauma to the point the brain couldnt handle it and coped by caused severe dissociation, its only formed from that but we can all get better together<3 never give up we believe in everyone in the community can get better and recover<3

-rotting sys

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something that is so laughable to us is those "build a headmate" accounts. you guys seriously want more headmates?? what do you do, just add them in like it's mii maker and plop them into your headspace? personally i'm fine with the people i'm stuck with already, i don't need any more

-banana 🍌

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When my blog was mainly a system focused blog I posted a intro template that said anyone could use it but endos may not credit, which I thought was a good enough sign (along with a big "ENDOS DNI" in description & pinned) to warn endos not to follow, but maybe not because they still followed with "sysmeds dni" in their description and pinned.

Breaking their own DNI I see.

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Got this in our inbox while we we were on the road. Once again, endos and pro endos have shown they don't give a shit about very simple boundaries.

(screenshot so we could block the anon):

I want to say, even if many of them won't see this (as we have many (pro)endos blocked on this sideblog), thank you to the (pro)endos who have seen our posts and respected us by not using our boxes/blocking us. We appreciate you. Truly.

Now, believe it or not, a lot of endos do claim to have DID without trauma. There is a large argument that endos are using, that the DSM "doesn't explicitly say you need trauma to have DID," as "proof" of how endos could possibly exist.

Not to mention, in no way do endos as a whole even attempt to separate themselves from the traumatized CDD community. Even if there is an endo plural who isn't one of the many that are indirectly claiming to have a disorder without the trauma that literally causes it, they are still claiming they are systems. They are still claiming they relate with a traumatized group of people, just without the trauma or any of the negative symptoms. That's like someone who wears glasses frames without lenses, and claims to be legally blind without the blindness. It doesn't make sense.

You can support a community like that if you want to. Free will and whatever. I don't, because it's ableist and wildly insensitive to invade disordered spaces they don't belong in, and I don't want anyone who believes that's something which is okay to be doing to interact with me. I would just rather not involve myself with that group, which is why I have (pro)endos on a DNI.

To the anon who sent this, please find a userbox account that is pro endo instead of using mine. Better yet, go start your own. It doesn't make sense for you to send hate mail yet continue to use anti endo userboxes. That's hilariously contradictory. Please find something better to do with your life. Go be independently creative. Don't invade the blog of someone who wants nothing to do with you, then throw yourself into an anonymous inbox to try and prove a point. There was no reason to send this. Hell, you could have continued using our boxes without coming in to be a jackass, and we probably wouldn't have noticed a damn thing.

As for our followers, if any of you see systems who claim to be endogenic or pro endo using our boxes, PLEASE let us know so we can block them. Thank you.

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I firmly believe most endos are people with subclinical presentations of CDDs.

It makes sense. They have alters (an inherently dissociative way if being) but don’t experience clinical levels of distress, automatically disqualifying them for a diagnosis of a dissociative disorder.

They likely have smaller traumas over a long period of time that don’t register as traumatic in their heads. So they attribute multiplicity to something else.

They are most similar to OSDD systems with mild life impact.

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Little insane that Eden is calling anti endos "sysmeds" now.

Pretty sure that has transphobic roots? If I remember correctly?

What's next? Calling us "traumascum"?

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I really wish people would stop treating OSDD as "lesser" than DID.

I see this constantly, every time I see ANYTHING about systems it's always DID. Any time I see people talking about disorders that cause systems, it's always DID. Every study done, DID. Talk to our therapist? Only knows about DID, completely unaware that OSDD exists.

As an OSDD system, it's EXHAUSTING. We're never anything more than a footnote because people focus on DID. We're used as scapegoats to either justify or debunk endos because we "don't have it as bad" as people with DID. Everywhere I go in system spaces, the vast majority of systems are DID systems. Things are always focused on how DID systems experience amnesia, and those of us who experience it differently are left out of the conversation. It's always talk of people losing memory between switches, never those of us who don't have that.

It's always fucking focus on DID. Every. Single. Time.

Pro endo spaces? Focus on createds and leave those of us with disordered experiences to rot. Anti endo spaces? Focus on DID to the point that OSDD systems wonder if it's even worth fucking talking about our struggles because they're seen as lesser. The ONLY fucking places where we really feel comfortable talking about it is places where the focus is specifically on OSDD or that don't bother specifying between DID and OSDD.

We are not scapegoats. We are not a footnote. We aren't lesser.

I am so fucking TIRED of it. When will OUR experiences be valued? When will WE get the focus? Why are we always the ones left in the dark? Why are we always the ones that get ignored?

Can yall PLEASE consider us for once.

-Xero

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Really wish people would talk about the system culture moments where you're just randomly thrown into a PTSD episode and have no idea why, what happened before, what triggered you, or what the fuck this tramua is thats coming back as flashbacks. My day completely went well but by night, it all went to shit and it was honestly terrifying. System culture is pure unbridled confusion sometimes. Mixed with the random moments of pure horror that you'll probably forget about again. I'm so tired of random shit "coming out of nowhere" to haunt me because it's just... HUH. Why can't the PTSD make sense huh... it's always random horrors that i just have to deal with huh.

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System culture is blinking and suddenly three weeks have gone by.

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Genuinely confused. If a system started off as traumagenic isn’t any alter after the system creation through trauma also traumagenic. In my opinion even if you create an alter afterwards or something, that’s still a traumagenic alter because you wouldn’t have had the ability to even be plural if you didn’t go through the trauma that made you a system. I don’t personally experience this I only have traumagenic alters but to me this makes the most sense

It confuses me too honestly.

Honestly with a lot of "endos" or "mixed origins" or whatever, it really does seem like for a lot of them it's just traumagen but slightly to the left. Obv not all of the ones I've seen/heard of seem to be this way, but it's genuinely how a lot of these experiences sound to me.

"Oh I created headmates by helping fragments form" Those fragments initially formed by trauma? You know, traumagenic fragments?? Like sorry but that genuinely just sounds like traumagen with extra steps.

"I was going through trauma but-" You mean it was caused by trauma? It was influenced by trauma you say? That! Just! Sounds! Like! Traumagen!

I know some are going to reply here to prove me wrong or yell at me or whatever, but I really am just extremely confused here. Stuff like this just kinda adds to the "endos are just confused traumagens" thing. This definitely doesn't apply to every endo/mixed origin, but it's just confusing stuff I've heard people say that claim to be either one.

-Xero