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26/11/2023

#ExH

3 weeks passed from our last trip dy. I don’t know why but you keep appearing in my mind. Yeah, as I said before, tbh, I still have love for you (although only 1/10 of my heart). But probably the main reason is I’m too lonely now. I thought if I’m dating someone, probably I won’t think about you that much.

Well, it’s your fault that I’m still single until now. Not because I still love you. It’s just… I’m scared I might be injured again. So, I become so picky when finding a boyfriend now. I just hope I can meet the right guy in my destiny, and he will be the one who walks with me until the end. And after I get married, I will just keep you and our memories in a corner of my heart, and treat him wholeheartedly.

These days I keep listening again and again one song. It really makes me feel it’s about us now. But there’s one thing I think differently. I don’t want you forget me. I just hope you will always keep a small place for me in your heart, now and until forever. But tbh, even if you decide to be with me, I still don’t think I will be back to you. I’m not confident that we can fight all the obstacles. There are really too much, I scared of being at a different country without any family and friends, and I also scared of your family. Probably if I come to you and marry you, our marriage can destroy our love. Then at that time, do I still have a chance to regret?

So, this current situation probably is the best for us. I just… want to have another trip with you for the last time. And I want to ask you if you still have love for me. I hope we will find a chance in next year and before my marriage, because I think I will never meet you again after that day.

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12/11/2023

#ExH

Hi darling. I have never expected that I will continue to write for you.

4 years dy passed after we broke up. And 1 week after our last meeting. At first, I didn’t think I will write a new post. I thought I don’t have any regrets after meeting you. I thought I don’t love you anymore. I thought I finally get over you. Yeah, it’s not wrong also. I don’t love you as much as before, I don’t love you with all of my hearts and my souls anymore. But to be honest, I still have love for you, and you still keep a special place in my heart (but probably only 1/10 of my heart?). But I don’t have any hopes for our love anymore. I accepted the fact that we don’t belong to each other, and we can’t have any outcomes. Without my blind love, I also realise you are such a “red flag” haha. But I’m still just… a bit sad when I think again about all the memories we have :)

To be honest, if we don’t need to care about living conditions, I still want to be with you. We can go on dating, love, and don’t need to think of any difficulties. But sadly, life is hard. We have to think about bread and butter, so yeah, we will suffer lots of obstacles if we decide to be together. Thus, I understand and accept your choice (or maybe my choice also).

But then, I’m still a bit sad. I don’t know if I’m too confident, but I feel you still have love for me, maybe can even compare with your love for your girl? I feel you can’t forget me, and keep thinking about me. Why life has to treat us like this? 2 people love each other but still cannot be together. Or maybe it’s all just my illusion only :)

I know I can’t be the one that bring happiness to you. And I can’t be selfish to hope you aren’t happy without me. So I hope you will be always happy, but please secure a place in your heart for me :)

Btw, probably I will try my best to meet you one more time before I get married. And after that, all memories about you will be locked down in a corner of my heart.

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6/5/2020

#ExH

Hi darling, we haven’t talked for a long time. Let me see, 3 months? Haha, I guess you dont really care. Last time we talk, I try to find things to talk to you. But what about you? Only answer me in an annoying way haha. It’s me only who still struggling in this love. Maybe you don’t even think about me anymore. I think my love for you is less and less now. But I still love you a lot. I want to be with you, even in a very short time. Darling, do you remember today? 2 years ago, we have a very fantastic date. We went Shanghai bay, you bought me Pandora, we kiss and we love each other. And last year, although we were already apart, you still be very gentle and sweet to me. You wish me happy birthday, you said you love me a lot. But this year, I wonder will you remember? Probably Facebook will remind you, but will you send me a wish? I plan to talk with you sometimes. But I scare, I really scare. I cannot stand your coldness to me. I want to talk to you a lot. But everytime I miss you, I have to find distraction to forget it. But please, today is my birthday. So I hope you can miss me for a while. I hope you know there’s a girl love you that much.

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9/12/2019

#ExH

Darling, I miss you. Why only I be so painful now? Why you can be so happy like this? I hate you. Why you have to start all of this if you don’t want to be with me? Why you say you love me but now you dont need me? I know there’s lots of thing we cant decide, but if you know from the first place then why you still love me? Why make me love you so much and now take everything from me? Do you know how much I love you? I really want to see you again. I want to be with you, even when you are not the best guy for me? I have lots of other choice, but you are the only one I love. What should I do? Why you still say you love me for a long time? But you cant fight for me? Do you know how much effort I put on for you? I think you will never know haha. We are apart so long dy, but still, I cant forget you. There’s a guy just confess to me, but I can’t accept. I only need you darling. Why you dont choose me? I’m a normal person, I also have jealousy you know? I don’t want to see you happy with others. I only want to stay with you.

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24/11/2019

#ExH

Hi darling, too busy to write for you these days. But I actually think of you a lot. Sorry about all the troubles, but actually I’m a bit happy when your family know about this. I’m too selfish right? Sorry, I didn’t want to do so. I just want to be a friend of you, talk to you as normally. Ya I know it’s not as friend, just think of us as a virtual couple. I still want to think of you as my boyfriend, although I know we had no chance already :) I always say I want you to be happy. But now you have troubles, I suddenly think is that my chance come? I can’t help but feel happy about it, so sorry. Darling you never know how much I love you. They can’t compare to me you know? Did they fight for you? Did they try every little chance to help you? Haha, they just win me, because they have the same blood with you, not me. Even if don’t have them, we still have no choice as we are too different right? But now maybe you will lose them, will you belongs to me? Sorry about being selfish. But I just love you and I can’t help it :) Darling ah, I’m sick these days, just want to find you to have some compensation. I miss the time you cook porridge for me, wrap me in the blanket, bring me hot ginger drink, and pamper me. But now I can’t even tell you about my sickness anymore. You choose her, hahaha :) now finally I know your choice :)

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13/10/19

#ExH

Darling, finally you back to your country. From this day, you will be back to your normal life, with family, with friends, and without me. Maybe you wont talk to me anymore. Maybe you will forget me. I know our chance is like 0. But I still want to keep some hope. I will wait for you, at least for now, I cant give up. I think I can get over it. But I don’t think I can love someone as much as I love you. But wait, can I really get over it? We’re already apart for like more than 8 months, and I still love you that much. You will say I’m stupid again right? Ah nvm, I will move on soon. But I will still love you, and wait for you, until the day I can give up on everything about you. Thanks for your love and all the memories we created. 2018 will be one of the best year in my whole life. I love you, EPJY.

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10/10/2019

#ExH

Darling, I love you. I wish we can be together, until the death :)

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10/10/19

#ExH

Darling, it’s been a long time. I didn’t write anything for you doesn’t mean I stop loving you. I’m just too tired of everything, of our hopeless love, of my work, everything in my life makes me so stress. I really love you. I have never love someone so much like this. Yeah, it’s my fault I didn’t apply more jobs for you after Dyson. I should have apply lots and lots. But I’m extremely busy with my job now. When I have spare time, I’m too exhausted to continue apply job for you. Sorry, if I was more hardworking :( I just want to be with you forever. I even think that I can sacrifice anything just to get you a job in UK, and I will go there to find you, and we can be together. But what now? You are going back soon, only 2 more days right? I’m really hopeless and stressed now you know. I scared that after that day, I can never meet you again, or maybe even talk to you. I miss everything of you, your voice, your smile, even your scolding. I wish we can be together forever, but is it any chance for this? Haha, you are going back to your normal life again, and you don’t need me anymore, soon you will forget that there’s a girl love you a lot right? I used to have a dream, you come to my house and tell me that I’m your final choice, but it’s is only a dream right? You’re going back to her soon, then what about me? How can I handle everything ah darling? Pls rescue me...

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8/9/2019

#ExH

If one day you can know my feeling...

Darling, I’m sorry. I’m still trying to move on from you, but it’s so hard. Why you take an important place in my heart when you dont plan to be with me? You never know how much I love you. I’m trying everything, I know you like UK, so I’m trying to help you find jobs. So hopeless :) but i still hope that it can come true. But what now? How you treat me? You are thinking I’m so troublesome right? Hahaha, I know that you don’t love me anymore. It’s just me, stupid and hopeless, waiting for you.

[formslonely]

#ExH

Darling, this day 6 months ago we separated. I really miss you, and miss the time we are together. Now you also move house already, move from the place with all our memories. I miss the time we move house last year. Yes actually 405 has more memories of us than 144. But because that time I still got you beside me, so moving anywhere is not so important. Because I know that we can have a lot a lot new memories. But what now? I’m not sure that we can be together or not. I’m trying everything I can. Just hoping that i can stand besides you, and stay with you till the end. You dont know how happy i was when you said you will stay in UK for a while. It means that we still have some little hope to be together. I love you, really really. Pls can you be with me forever?

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22/7/2019

#ExH

Darling, finally I have some times to write for you. I have to keep all of my feeling for a week dy. i want to cry, from the day we talk, but I don’t have a private place. I really love you. But what can i do? Inside me now is just sad, hopeless and powerless. I want to be with you, until death. But you dont want me right? I’m trying to apply job for you everywhere. I regret, if I apply for you sooner, maybe everything is different. But i dont have your cv, how can i apply? But i cant blame you also. You have suffer a very hard time also, busy with study, everything, I understand you dont have time for all this. But you still got 3 months right? Pls can you stay until the last minute? I will try everything to find you a job. Pls dont give up yet. I really need you in my life. I know, it’s not like i can live without you, because i still have my parents. But I don’t know when can i love someone again. I just want you only. I wish we can be together.

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14/7/2019

#ExH

Why? Why I try so hard we still can’t be together?

I really love you darling. This time too busy so I can’t write anything for you. Or maybe actually I’m trying to get away from you? But I just cant. I really want you. I only need you to stay in UK. You don’t know to help you find a job, I have even connected so many people. You only need to stay, then I will come for sure. I can do anything for that. I even make a plan already, to study and to work together. But why? Why fate treat me like this? I love you, pls. I just hope you can stay.

[formslonely]

6/7/19

#ExH

Darling, am I still in your heart? I just want to be with you. Can we be back to this time????

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3/7/2019

#ExH

Darling, I love you. Can we be together?

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25/6/2019

#ExH

Darling, long time haven’t written anything for you. It’s not like I didn’t miss you. Just... I’m trying to forget you. Many times wanted to write something for you, but then try to keep it in my heart only. Quite a long time dy, I thought I can get over you soon, but maybe I’m wrong. I still really love you. You never know how much I miss you, and how hard for me to not think about you. I keep on thinking about you, dreaming about a day that you stand in front of me, and say I’m your final choice. Haha, I’m so stupid right. I don’t think that day will ever happen. I even know that even if you can find job in UK, we still might not have any outcome. But I still hope you can stay in UK, and still prepare myself to go study again, just to be with you, in that case. Darling, you never know how happy I am when I see that watch on your wrist on your trip to Bournemouth, I feel like the time is back, and you’re holding my hand in our trip. If only we are both Vietnamese, so I wouldn’t be so hopeless. I love you, really love you, EPJY.

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20/5/2019

#ExH

Darling, you guess what I’m doing? Hmmm, I’m writing you a happy birthday letter. And it makes me cry. Haha, I am so silly right? We are so far away, I still try to find a way just to send you some of your favourite coffee. Darling ah, I thought I can give up on you. But I’m wrong. Just because I’m quite busy and don’t have much time to think about you, doesn’t mean I love you less. Now only I realize how much I love you. I just want to be with you, forever. But I understand, I only have a chance if you can stay in UK. Once you’re back, we’re done. I know, but I cannot take this now. But if worst comes worse, just think of it as my last gift to you :) Well, but let’s talk about good things. Please I wish you can get a job and stay there, and we can stay together again. I love you, EPJY 😍

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10/5/19

#ExH

Darling, your birthday is still 1 month ahead, but I want to prepare some gift dy. Do you think I’m actually stupid? Yea probably you will think so. You know, I really love you. I still can’t imagine how my life will be without you. I have a thought that since we are apart now, and there are lots of obstacles in our love path, it might be better if I try to give up on you. But I really can’t. These times just because I started working dy, so I don’t have as much spare time as before to always think about you, and you are also too busy to talk to me, so I thought I can move on without you. But no, when I stop and think of you, I can only feel how much I love you. I realize that your love is a motivation for me to fight, as I still hope that we can be together. I know the chance is so tiny, but still not yet 0 right? So it’s still my goal. I don’t want to think about my future without your love. I wish that you know how much I love you.