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I still think of him sometimes

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Only the 2nd time I saw him in my dreams.

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I can think of him in a better light in my mind. I just have a crush that's all.

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Wishing I meant more to him / wishing you were more dominate / wishing to be the artist I can be.

Ive been wishing a lot lately.

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I'm good at getting what I was. Manifestation is real. I have the power to get where I want to be.

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I met him at a crazy time in my life.

I ended up cheating on my husband. I don't think I'm that kind of person but I always wondered if that would ever happen...

You said I'm chasing after someone who's pushing me away and you're right. Idk why I even let myself catch feelings. But I am a girl and hella emotional and feel so much.

I felt ready to share my love I guess with another person and I knew you were not ready for that. Especially the way it happend. If you were awake maybe nothing would of happened between us. I can't say honestly we already know how we feel about that.

I lost control without you and I am ashamed. I think I processed through it tho and am starting to forgive myself.

I am letting go of him. I still think of him everymorning. Not as intensely. I am learning to leave space in my mind for him only as a friend. (Eveb tho I still.have a crush on him) he gives me butterflies when I think of him. I still get horny sometimes too.. I eventually want a dexual partner out of him. Only Time will tell If that lies innthe cards for us or not. I can't pressure it on you and he also doesn't want that right now either..

I wish I could sext him. I wish I could talk dirty with him. I guess I have to stay mysterious lol. But I just want him to want to be my friend. One sided relationships are a waste of time. I hope he doesn't see any time wasted with me. I don't feel like I wasted time with him. I really enjoyed the time we got to talk. I got to enter his life a little and I thanked him for that..

Still hope I didn't embarrass myself too much and make a fool of myself to him. I'm so much better of a person than I was at thw hot springs. I hope he saw me at lib. I did make mistakes ams climb into his bed in the morning. He maybe didn't want that. But I didn't care I guess. I'm selfish. I wish I could apologize for my actions but I don't regret anything to him.

Being apologetic to a fault when I overthink everything and wonder if I just made all the mistakes.

I made so many mistakes with him. Everything I could of done wrong I did. I'm selfish. I wasn't trying to break your heart. You understand that. Thank you for giving me space to explain myself cause it is so very hard for me to do so...

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I'm so indecisive, but I know what I want.

Gemini moon problems

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Been enjoying getting so high and drawing

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Biggest focus = music and art.

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“Our love was sadly pointless, like tears in thin Summer rain”

- Caterina Pallucchini

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“Do you think it’s possible that some people are born to give more love than they will ever get back in return?”

— Tyler Knott Gregson

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I know my needs vs. My wants.... but why do I just want so badly.

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“Some people walk into our life and make us fall in love with our self.”

— Avijeet Das

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“If you don’t fight for what you want, don’t cry for what you lost.”

— Jan Jansen

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I hope my kindness won't be taken advantage of. And I also hope you don't think I'm taking advantage of your kindness..