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((BLOG POST FROM 3 WEEKS AGO. POSTED FOR ARCHIVE REASONS. ADDITIONAL STUFF WILL BE UNDER THE CUT)

I haven't been using this blog because i've started to think this blog is starting to become useless.

Why? Because everything has been almost completely silent. I lost the ability to even pickup the presides of anyone (which was very poor to begin with) which in return meant i actually lost the ability to identify myself. I wasn't able to hear anyone during my sundown period and think like recently but i dont think childen laughing and other is actually from them or just some other unspecified issues. Its probably what was going on last year(?) with the women screaming, glass shattering, and other stuff.

Apparently plan does say I have schizoaffective disorder but I don't know how much I trust that but whatever. Thats probably what it is.

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Reminder

DID isn't just having fun people in your head

Along with shifts in personality, it's often times:

amnesia: 'waking up' with no memory of what's going on

travelling and having no idea where you are or how you got there

dizziness

confusion

spacing out

headaches

feeling broken & worthless

fear

not knowing why or how you're wearing what you're wearing

nausea

pain

anxiety

finding things amongst your belongings you don't remember acquiring

time loss

depression

suicidal ideation & action

spikes in inexplicable emotion, especially anger, fear, and shame

body and voice dysphoria

depersonalization & derealisation

loss of control

hearing voices

finding injuries you don't remember getting

self harm

not recognising friends/family/colleagues

forgetting important events (birthdays, parties, graduations etc)

mood shifts with seemingly no trigger

finding notes in similar handwriting but something about it is slightly off

flashbacks: somatic flashbacks, nightmares, split second flashbacks to 'little things' but not getting more detail

bed wetting

age regression

inadvertently lying, or being questioned if you have

feeling like your body isn't yours

knowing something is wrong, but not what

wondering why your body doesn't align with your perceived sex (for alters whose gender/sex don't align with the body)

watching your body do things and having no control over it (feeling like a puppet or like playing a video-game in 3rd person)

mass fluctuations in libido: fluctuations from hypersexual to zero sexual desire

not being sure if things really happened, or whether you imagined/thought about them

identity confusion

+ many more

I have two book recommendations DID experiences: "All Of Me" by Kim Noble, and "The Girl in The Green Dress" by Jeni Haynes. Please check trigger warnings.

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If people expect dissociative systems to act miserable all the time, they are fucking ablest! Same with people who think people with mood disorders, personality disorders and trauma disorders are expected to just be miserable or act in a certain way. Like dude we don't give a shit how you think we are allowed to act in front of you! Nor should you give people shit for having healthy coping skills such as art!

I've seen too many people give systems shit for using art as a way to cope, same with insys relationships whether platonic or romantic! There's nothing wrong with trying to live with a trauma disorder through these means. We are not romanticising it, we are just trying to cope and we don't owe you shit!

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Y'all, can we NOT fakeclaim for; "They have too many disorders!" And then they're nearly all caused by trauma. That's why they're a system in the first place, thanks!

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shoutout to systems with trauma less commonly talked about in our community

-shoutout to people who grew up in and around the foster care system

-systems who were neglected because their parents prioritized their siblings

-people who have been traumatized by another system

-unwilling loners

-disabled people who've been denied accommodations

-people who have suffered with violent/frightning intrusive thoughts or delusions as long as they can remember

-kids who lost close family members

-people with medical, and also dental trauma

I think sometimes we as a community fall into the "trauma olympics" and forget that lots of things are traumatic to young children. You don't need specific types of trauma to be valid and to deserve care. It's easy to be scared that because you weren't traumatized the same way as someone else that you aren't "really traumatized" or that you're faking your symptoms. But always remember that you were a child, if something bad happened to you and nobody was helping you cope with it, that's enough. Don't invalidate yourself because of trauma that somebody else went through. You are loved, reach out for support if you need it <3

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Anti-Endo System Terms

[Plain Text: Anti-Endo System Terms]

These terms were made to provide a good alternative to fictive/factive without the clunky-ness of -roject terms.

Ectite - An alter who is not a brainmade

Fictite - An alter whos source is from fiction

Factite - An alter whos source is from real life

Foctite - An alter whos source is both from real life and from fiction

Hymtite - An alter whos source is from a song

Vocite - An alter whos source is a singer/songwriter or the personification of a band

Anitite - An alter whos source is an animal whos species has existed on planet earth

Exite - An alter whos source is of a being that is " other worldly ". This can include aliens, spiritual beings, ghosts, etc

Plutite - An alter whos source is from a stuffed animal

Persite - An alter whos source is someones persona ( could be the systems or someone elses. made with youtuber personas in mind )

Sihtite - An alter whos source is of a pre-existing alter

Duoite - An alter whos source is a group of people mushed into one being ( similar to the second definition of vocite, but not exclusive to bands )

ANTI ENDO SYSTEMS REBLOG!!

[Plain text: ANTI ENDO SYSTEMS REBLOG!!]

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DID is more than just having parts. Its also,

• amnesia

• confusion

• headaches

• nausea

• repeated childhood trauma

• anxiety

• spikes in fear. Anger. Or shame

• mood swings from parts

• body dysphoria

• depersonalization

• derealization

• self puzzlement

• loss of control

• flashbacks

• dizziness

And more.

DID is not "friends in your head" its traumatic, scary and uncomfortable. Its not fun it's a terrifying TRAUMA BASED disorder. And it should never be romanticized - Vesper

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Hey if you had an isolating childhood experience because you were undiagnosed with a neurodivergency, remember that THAT IS TRAUMA!!

Your isolation/bullying/attachment trauma is so so so valid. It’s trauma.

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Attachment is not a joke. Losing your favorite person can mentally destroy you.

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can people just go back to kinning and/or roleplaying instead of faking a debilitating disorder

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Please, please, do not listen to what Sophie has to say

Nobody is going after you. You are safe. Nobody is going to go after your family, or your friends. I understand the things she said are scary and hurtful and dangerous, but it's just to scare you. You are going to be okay

Please, take care of yourselves out there

- Vash

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a comic about pseudomemories

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Excuse us while we panic in pure paranoia and distress

We're Schizophrenic and we're terrified that we aren't actually a system. It's all a delusion from our schizophrenia. Or whatever other shit we have going on is causing us to think we're a system or schizophrenic or MAYBE WE ARE A SYSTEM AND WERE TOO BLURRY AND THINK WERE SCHIZOPHRENIC IDK

IF IT TURNS OUT WE ARENT A SYSTEM WE ARENT A SHITTY PERSON RIGHT 😭 LIKE WE DIDNT MEAN TO HELPPP

You are not a shitty person! Mistakes happen and it is very wrong if people say you are a bad person for making a mistake!

Don't worry anon, whatever happens, you are valid <3 /p