freshoutthaslammer

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ok also i’m making a new sideblog bc im soo sick of getting hate anons like plz go eat some food. have a shower. take a walk outside. spend some time with friends and family. so reply if u would like it 🫰

I might come back if i decide i miss my 600+ drafts here too much but probs not. Yea. oops.

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bruhhhh

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he ghosted me for so long i became a lesbian

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unfortunately i can feel the arcane hyperfixation developing in my neurological pathways… every episode i watch is another inside out island solidifying in my brain… caitvi will soon be all i think about…

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the most insane girl you know had a miguel o’hara phase in 2023

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so like basically

i have nightmares each week about that friday in may. one phone call from you and my entire world was changed. trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers. you took everything i loved and crushed it in between your fingers. and i doubt you ever think about the damage that you did. but i hold onto every detail like my life depends on it. my undying love, now i hold it like a grudge. now i hear your voice every time that i think i’m not enough. and i try to be tough. but i wanna scream. how could anybody do the things you did so easily? and i say i don't care. i say that i’m fine. but you know i can’t let it go i’ve tried i’ve tried i’ve tried for so long. it takes strength to forgive, but i don't feel strong. the arguments that i have won against you in my head in the shower in the car and in the mirror before bed yeah im so tough when im alone and i make you feel so guilty and i fantasise about a time you're a little fuckin' sorry!!!!! and i try to understand why you would do this all to me you must be insecure!!! you must be so unhappy!!!! and i know in my heart hurt people! hurt people! and we both drew blood but man those cuts were never equal!!!! and i try to be tough but i wanna scream how could anybody do the things you did so easily? and i say i don't care i say that im fine but you know i can't let it go i’ve tried ive tried ive tried for so long. it takes strength to forgive but i don't feel strong. do you think i deserved it all???!!!!! your flowers filled with vitriol. you built me up to watch me fall. you have everything and you still want more!!!!!!!!!! i try to be tough, i try to be mean but even after all this you're still everything to me and i know you don't care!!! i guess that that's fine but you know i can't let it go i’ve tried i’ve tried i’ve tried for so long. it takes strength to forgive but i’m not quite sure im there yet. it takes strength to forgive but—[GUNSHOTS]

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so like basically

i have nightmares each week about that friday in may. one phone call from you and my entire world was changed. trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers. you took everything i loved and crushed it in between your fingers. and i doubt you ever think about the damage that you did. but i hold onto every detail like my life depends on it. my undying love, now i hold it like a grudge. now i hear your voice every time that i think i’m not enough. and i try to be tough. but i wanna scream. how could anybody do the things you did so easily? and i say i don't care. i say that i’m fine. but you know i can’t let it go i’ve tried i’ve tried i’ve tried for so long. it takes strength to forgive, but i don't feel strong. the arguments that i have won against you in my head in the shower in the car and in the mirror before bed yeah im so tough when im alone and i make you feel so guilty and i fantasise about a time you're a little fuckin' sorry!!!!! and i try to understand why you would do this all to me you must be insecure!!! you must be so unhappy!!!! and i know in my heart hurt people! hurt people! and we both drew blood but man those cuts were never equal!!!! and i try to be tough but i wanna scream how could anybody do the things you did so easily? and i say i don't care i say that im fine but you know i can't let it go i’ve tried ive tried ive tried for so long. it takes strength to forgive but i don't feel strong. do you think i deserved it all???!!!!! your flowers filled with vitriol. you built me up to watch me fall. you have everything and you still want more!!!!!!!!!! i try to be tough, i try to be mean but even after all this you're still everything to me and i know you don't care!!! i guess that that's fine but you know i can't let it go i’ve tried i’ve tried i’ve tried for so long. it takes strength to forgive but i’m not quite sure im there yet. it takes strength to forgive but—[GUNSHOTS]

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it canNOT be a coincidence atp omg

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they need to invent a winter that lasts forever

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oh and also spencer reid btw. 😄🫰

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spencer!!!!! 😭😭 reid!!!!! 😭😭

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loser freak lame weirdo wearing a stupid fucking cute pumpkin ring to the clubs he’s in my bed rn im kissing his face cuz he’s such a loser goddddd

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we never talk about your mother. easy for you to have a go, isn’t it? why do we always have to talk about my shit life, hm?! mr “tell me a fucking secret”?!

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shoutout to carl jung and the shadow…

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the 15 year old within you never truly leaves 🚬

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you make me feel so validated mwah mwah !! you kind of explained perfectly how i feel about men 😭 like yeah ill like FAKE OR UNATTAINABLE men but if i saw/knew them irl i would not be very attracted!!! thank you and goodnight

AWW KISS im so glad baby angel!!! honestly its been such a rocky journey to get here because of all these freaking self doubts… wdym the spencer reid freak only likes women?!?!?!? Not true. but it is true!!! and im allowed to feel that way!!! anyways ily wlws for spencer reid 💋