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Mizu, in every single episode, without fail:

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I wish people understood this, this is NOT what a love triangle looks like

THIS is what a love triangle is supposed to look like

It ain't complete until Mizu and Akemi stop fighting against their blue/red, narrative foil, enemies to lovers destiny

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Fuck hostile architecture, I want unhostile architecture. I want benches to be designed to be as easy as possible to sleep on. I want little places for pigeons to nest to be purposefully put on buildings. I want people designing public spaces to think about what they'd be like to skateboard on. I want "Please loiter" signs. I want people to be kind. I want...

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Lol it turns out you just weren't in love with me anymore

Thank God everyone on the bus is too invested in their phones and music to see me holding back tears. I know you said you've been busy, a lot is going on your life and I totally get that! I've had times like that. Where I'm busy, and its hard to keep up with everything. Between school, your uncle and aunt, your friends and life in general it can be hard to remember to text back.

But I feel, really neglected. Its ridiculous for me to say that. I'm also busy and overworked and trapped by school work and club meetings. What's worse is I've spent times neglecting you when I should've been giving you all the attention you deserve.

But right now its like I'm talking to a ghost. Or a computer. Its like chatGPT is responding to all my messages. Nothing is wrong but its so...labored. No effort to continue the conversation. No attempts to start any chats on your end. You haven't texted me first in over 10 days.

I felt like things were going so well between us just a few months ago. I met your extended family, we went on dates together and it was great. But now its like I'm in high school all over again: trying to come up with something to say just to be shut out. Maybe if I catch up on your favorite animes? Bring up the new season of aot? Maybe I gotta learn more about motorcycles so I can ask better questions. Maybe its just the bland "how are you doing?" thats driving you away. I'm no longer interesting and there are better things you could do with your time.

I was supposed to see you last month but you were sick. Its wrong of me to be mad about that. You can't control these things it was just unfortunate timing. On top of that you went through a traumatic life event so of course you wouldn't be well rested or able to travle. But its been nearly 3 months since I've seen you longer than an hour. And weeks since we last called. You promised to make up the distance to me; promised me roses and chocolates that were never delivered. A surprise that maybe just hasn't come to fruition? Or maybe something you forgot about in the chaos of life.

And now on the one day I might be able to see you before you leave for your break you're busy. Its nothing you could've arranged differently because I never told you my schedule ahead of time.

Its not your fault. It just sucks.

It sucks so fucking much. I miss you. We've dated for 6 fucking years and right now I feel like you don't care about me at all. Like you're just going through the motions of a relationship.

And I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix this or be better or be more interesting. I don't know what you need. I don't know how to help. I just don't know what to do and I feel like there's no one there for me, to help me.

Who do I talk about a 6 year relationship ship with? My co head captain who's girlfriend almost broke up with him cause he and I were too close? My best friend who is maybe a little self centered when it comes to any conversation. My new boyfriend who doesn't deserve to council me through my other relationship?

I'm just drowning.

What a semester.

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what REALLY makes me feel wild is the fact that wwx took so long to realize his own attraction to lwj because, in part, he just assumed that everyone felt that way about lan wangji. it was soooo obvious to him that lan zhan was the best, smartest, most handsome person in the world that it felt like an objective truth and not a personal opinion

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Actually, what a perfect choice to have Lan Wangji’s display of intense emotion happen in pitch blackness where only Wei Wuxian would be privy to it. Those feelings aren’t for anyone else but Wei Wuxian.

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So I have the official English translation of the MDZS novel and there is a line about Wei Wuxian that, I kid you not, says “He had a Wei of starting conflict, you might say.”

How the hell did that translate over from Chinese to English.

MXTX you are too clever for your own good.

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i have a friend who has kinda bad eczema on their right hand but their left hand is fine and thats because acidity makes eczema worse and that includes vaginal acidity and my friend is both a lesbian and a slut so they finger a lot of people and that fucks up the hand they use (their right hand). Anyways do you think BBC sherlock would deduce that by looking at my friend’s hands

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Getting in depth about it would take more energy than I have at the moment, and I’m sure it’s been said, but it’s really interesting to me how much MDZS shows what war does to a generation of barely-adults. Lots of fiction covers aspects of that, but MDZS sort of…hits more angles than a lot of things do?

You meet the characters before the war, and see who they were as relatively carefree kids.

You see their struggles and their pain and their own wrongdoings during the war: the people they will mourn and the things they will regret.

You watch the immediate aftermath of the war, in terms of how the Wen remnants are treated and everything that happens to Wei Wuxian from there.

And then you see the long-term aftermath, almost a decade and a half after the war, and how the trauma of one generation impacts the next generation.

Jiang Cheng and some of the other clan leaders are determined that the children must be made as hard and as strong as they themselves had to be at that age.

But then there’s Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, determined that the children should never have to go through what they did…and I just really love them for that.

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Idk who needs to hear this but LWJ didn't become righteous because he liked WWX. He liked WWX because WWX himself was righteous. Hanguang Jun needs nobody to be his moral compass. He has his own.

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…I need to see more content of Wei Wuxian solving problems by manipulating people’s emotions.

He isn’t a long term manipulator like Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang, but it’s actually one of his main strategies when it comes to solving problems! Stopping Mianmian being sacrificed in the Xuanwu cave? He angers Wen Chao into stepping out of Wen Zhuliu’s protection, allowing him to hold him at swordpoint and to take advantage of Wen Zhuliu’s loyalty, meaning that he (the greatest threat at the moment) won’t attack them. Helping Lan Wangji fight Xue Yang in the mists of Yi City where he can’t be seen? Taunt Xue Yang into talking by bringing up Xiao Xingchen, a subject he’s very sore on, so Lan Wangji can find him by ear. Suspect that Su She is behind the loss of everybody’s spiritual powers at the Second Siege? Mock him so he grows impatient and careless, as well as trick him into thinking he (Wei Wuxian) had two pages from the Collection of Turmoil to heighten that effect and stir up paranoia, so he carelessly uses spiritual power to deflect Lan Wangji’s attack – something he probably wouldn’t have done otherwise. 

That applies when he’s on the defensive too. When Wen Chao and co capture him in Yiling and he doesn’t even have a Golden Core, what does he do? Use his words to scare him into not killing him – very much manipulating him emotionally (though I do believe he meant/wanted to mean what he said then, too)!

I’ve talked a bit about how he’s very resourceful, but something else that’s overlooked is that he’s also extremely emotionally perceptive, and won’t hesitate to use that to his advantage in dangerous situations. He may not be someone who manipulates for some ambitious, long-term goal. But as a tactic or a strategy? He’s very good at it, and it’s a method his mind very much defaults to when solving problems.

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My favourite thing about Wei Wuxian is he literally got resurrected and then decided "We're not gonna unpack all of that", indirectly murdered his host's abusive family, threw his son's friend in front of a murderous arm, then stole a donkey.

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Honestly if Wei Wuxian drank wine like a slut, flirted and sword fought my repressed ass under the soft mantel of the moonlight, I would fall in love with him too.

You ain’t special Lan Wangji

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Wei Wuxian might actually be my favourite depiction of an adult interacting with unrelated kids that I’ve ever seen in fiction. He reminds me of the adults I look back on fondly from when I was growing up, and of the adult I want to be when interacting with teens through work etc.

He’s fun and silly and teases them, but knows when to step up as the adult in the situation and be responsible.

His degrees of closeness to them are appropriate; closer to the ones who are “his kids” (ie Jin Ling as his nephew and Sizhui eventually as his son), and friendly but not excessively so with the others.

He actively watches out for the kids and protects them from danger, but also gives them practical advice and opportunities to spread their own wings and exercise their own abilities.

He impresses upon them that they don’t need to achieve the things their fathers and uncles had by their age: he was there, he knows those tales of glory are rooted in blood and suffering, and he works to free the juniors from the pressure to hold themselves up to that shallow veneer of triumph as a standard.

He even occasionally drops good relationship advice even before he and Lan Wangji get their shit together: the bit in Yi City where he refuses to waste time on the whole “I won’t leave without you!” thing and instead tells the kids essentially, “No. I trust him, and I have to do what I need to do, and leave him to do what he needs to do,” really sticks with me.

Anyway…rambling, but yeah. I love him, and I love that he’s sometimes a disaster but he is so good at switching to Adulting Mode as needed. Also there’s definitely some very bittersweet thoughts to be had about the fact that, aside from his brief sweet memories of his parents, Yanli was definitely the one who taught him how to be a caretaker. And now, he gets to use what she taught him to watch over her son.

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Props to lwj for not jumping wwxs bones at the wen training camp when he started reciting the gusu principles at wen chao my repressed ass would have climbed him like a tree broken leg or no

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one of the things that makes mdzs SUCH a great story is the fact that it's a tragedy with queer protagonists, but their queerness isn't the cause or the center of the tragedy. it's not even related, really. it's a story about love and loss and wrong and right, about what we owe each other and what we owe ourselves, about how you can find joy even amidst chaos and grief; its complexity and tragedy is what makes it so profound and touching. sure, there's 'casual' queerphobia in the story, but with everything else going on, it's not really relevant- wwx's mostly like, 'oh, i like guys? i like lwj? i love lwj? fuck, what if he doesn't love me back? am i being presumptuous to think he returns my feelings? what do I do now?' followed by 'wait, he loves me back??? we're getting married IMMEDIATELY', and that whole attitude is very refreshing because sometimes you just want to read a queer story that isn't about queer suffering but that's still incredibly miserable, and i think we as a queer community deserve it