fruitswrl

[fruitswrl]

what do u do when shifting is obviously accepted one way or another by your subconscious? ik that sounds stupid but…..

i had more dreams where shifting is naturally there. dreamt ab worrying if someone found my shifting journals, dreamt that i shifted to a parallel reality in which two of my fingers were missing nail polish. there’s probably more but i just don’t remember. ik ik i prob shouldn’t keep asking why, but i just have never seen anyone talk ab having similar experiences to mine. shifting sometimes already is a lonesome experience, at least for me, so i guess it just sucks to not even understand my own brain.

[fruitswrl]

　𝜗𝜚　a woman with ocd tells you how to finally stop checking　.

(　✶　)　so, you want to unshackle yourself from the 3d. you want to be free as a bird, living it up in paris, or hogwarts, or wherever the hell you should be right now instead of scrolling endlessly through tumblr at 2am like some kind of digital ghost. guess what, that's completely possible to achieve. here's how i managed to do it, coming from somebody whose brain loves to sabotage itself with obsessive – compulsive disorder. to explain this properly, i have to pull back the curtain on ocd itself, and explain specifically how an ocd episode ( or spike ) works, and how to survive when your mind decides to stage a full – scale rebellion against your peace. or, at least, how i manage to do it.

first, there's a trigger — something feels off, wrong, like a note played slightly sharp in an otherwise perfect symphony. it could be physical, mental, or that sickening combination of both that makes your skin crawl. second, this trigger activates an obsession, a thought that digs its claws into your brain and refuses to let go, feeding on your attention like a parasite. you can't look away from the car crash, you can't pull your brain away from it. the obsession is all – consuming and devastating. third, the urge to perform a compulsion crashes over you like a wave — you have to do something, anything, to fix this wrongness that's eating you alive from the inside out. this action becomes an obsession in itself, performed repeatedly to soothe the original obsession. this is why people with contamination ocd often overwash their hands, to use a well – known example. as you can imagine, living like this isn't just exhausting — it's disabling in ways that people who've never experienced it can't fathom. your life becomes a series of rituals and checks, a prison built from your own desperate attempts to feel safe in your own skin. there are many kinds of ocd therapy, but one of the most effective is erp — exposure and response prevention. it's exactly as brutal as it sounds: deliberately exposing yourself to situations that trigger your obsessions while simultaneously forcing yourself to sit with the discomfort, to resist the magnetic pull of your compulsions however, it's effective. erp is oftentimes hailed as a saving grace for recovering from certain compulsions, and not without reason.

now, here's where it gets interesting for shifters. the way i see many people on this app approach shifting — constantly checking for symptoms, analyzing every sensation, refreshing their awareness of the 3d to see if anything's changed — you're triggering yourself into obsessing over whether you've shifted yet, then compulsively checking your current reality to either confirm or deny your progress. you're stuck in the same exhausting loop, just with different stakes. the solution? apply the same principle that helps people with ocd. stop checking. stop monitoring. stop treating every moment like a test you might be failing. when the urge to analyze whether you've shifted hits you, when that familiar anxiety starts crawling up your spine because you're still aware of this reality, sit with that discomfort instead of feeding it with more checking. let yourself sit with it for longer and longer. accept the feeling is there, acknowledge it, then move on. you are not the exception to the rule, nobody is, you just need to learn to stop checking constantly. practice this, get good at it, erp is a skill developed over time and doesn't come instantaneously — the same is true for not constantly affirming the 3d and your current reality.

assume you've already shifted and then leave it alone. don't interrogate the assumption. don't poke at it looking for proof. don't turn it over in your mind like you're an archaeologist with a particularly interesting piece of pottery. just let it exist, solid and unquestioned, while you go about actually living as the person you know you are. your desire follows you, not the other way around. the more you resist the compulsion to verify and re-verify your reality, the weaker its hold on you becomes. your brain will scream at you to check, to make sure, to gather just one more piece of evidence. this is normal. this is expected. this is exactly when you need to be most stubborn about not giving in. because every time you check, you're telling the universe — and yourself — that you don't actually believe you've shifted. you're reinforcing the very doubt that's keeping you stuck.

break the cycle. stop checking. trust the process enough to leave it the hell alone.

[fruitswrl]

i told my sister immediately, she was skeptical but into it. we became obsessed with it together and talked ab shifting somewhere together. then very early on she shifted to her DR, freaked out, and decided shifting wasn’t for her 😭

shifters here, have you told your siblings about shifting? if so, how did they react? my brother thought I was insane at first but now we watch shifting videos together

i am hashtag sister of the year

[fruitswrl]

let’s all do a shifting exercise tonight! doesn’t matter if you have doubts. doesn’t matter if your script is unfinished (yes i’m talking to you overthinker). doesn’t matter if your sleep schedule is fucked and you planned to do it at this time but now it’s “too late”. doesn’t matter if you have things to do tomorrow. this exercise is for everyone—whether you’ve shifted to your dr or not.

tonight, when you go to shift, i want you to feel the emotional tone of your dr before setting your intention. let yourself be filled with the peace and love and wholeness of finally being in the place you belong. be present. where do you feel the energy most? let it overflow into every part of your body. even just two minutes of this is enough for your intention to be backed by emotional resonance (which strengthens a manifestation and an assumption because your subcon processes things you experience emotion with as real). after you feel you’ve connected emotionally (again, this should not take a long time. anything will work) set your intention simply and clearly.

say things like:

“i’m shifting now.” “i’m going to my dr as i sleep.” “i allow myself to be in my dr.”

(you can also say your own dr specific thing! no limitations, just examples!!)

this is not to convince yourself. there should be no “okay and now what?” response. don’t immediately go searching for your dr in your senses. do not wait for things to change. just say it like you mean it and let go.

once your intention is set, act like it already worked. i don’t mean start convincing yourself you’re seeing, hearing, or thinking in your dr. i just mean own the choice. own the decision of having just shifted. relax. listen to music or asmr. and go to sleep. it’s done.

[fruitswrl]

imagine the most natural, no effort, most you way of shifting. is it falling asleep mid scroll, mouth open??? then that’s the one (my personal favorite). it could be laying face down and thinking "lol what if i just wasn't here anymore" and then in an instant you’re aware of something else?? your dr is not gatekeeping. it is not judging you. it doesn’t care if you didn't journal, didn’t meditate and didn’t loop that “magical” subliminal a hundred times. shifting is literally just a doorway that you can walk through whenever you remember is there. and sometimes you don’t even walk, you just trip and fall through it.

you don’t need 24 steps. you don’t need angel numbers, a chakra cleanse, or a ritual sacrifice to the moon. unless you want that. then pop off. nothings needed. it’s a level of effort so low it might be legally considered a nap. so stop auditioning for a process that already picked you. lay down. think your little thoughts...or don’t. you’re doing enough <3

[fruitswrl]

you're conscious, right? and you're aware that you're conscious, and the very fact that you can intend something, the fact that you can even want to be somewhere else, well, doesn't that kind of imply, in a roundabout but not totally illogical way, that you already have access to that somewhere else?

not physically, maybe, not yet, but...... experientially and mentally and perceptively. you can feel the possibility of it, and that's already halfway there.

and so, if we accept that consciousness isn't fixed, and it's not, obviously, that's not even spiritual, that's just neuroscience and quantum theory and good old existential nausea, then why wouldn't shifting be real? or more than real. inevitable.

if you can dream something in full sensory detail, if you can affirm it to yourself over and over, and if every cell in your body believes it, or even wants to believe it, then eventually, doesn't that do something? doesn't that shift something? like internally at first, sure, but then... reality follows. gently, maybe even reluctantly, but it does, it has to.

because the only real prerequisite is consciousness, and you have that.

and time is flexible, and you know that.

and you've already imagined the place, and felt it.

and feeling is the first version of arriving.

[fruitswrl]

i want to be there so bad it physically hurts

[fruitswrl]

you were meant to find shifting. you were meant to find your s/o(s). you were meant to find your dr families. you were meant to find your dr friends. don't give up on this. this is so very real. i know it can be so exhausting sometimes but when you're there, when you're home, it'd all be worth it.

[fruitswrl]

When I finally shift after 6 damn years I will let out the loudest, rage-filled roar known to mankind. Fuck this place

[fruitswrl]

i see! thank u for the advice! <3

just woke up from another shifting and dr dream……. if anyone has any advice i would love to hear it ( i’m actually going crazy i feel like throwing up )

[fruitswrl]

what exactly do u mean by that tho

just woke up from another shifting and dr dream……. if anyone has any advice i would love to hear it ( i’m actually going crazy i feel like throwing up )

[fruitswrl]

just woke up from another shifting and dr dream……. if anyone has any advice i would love to hear it ( i’m actually going crazy i feel like throwing up )

[fruitswrl]

your dr might feel like home in your heart but does it feel like home in your mind? are you able to decenter this place? to level it with your other realities? to understand it’s not more important than the next place but equal in significance?

sometimes because we are so comfortable in our cr, we subconsciously pedestal it as home. and home is safe. home is normal. if you find yourself having trouble shifting to your dr, perhaps you need to make it feel like home too. so it doesn’t feel like something far away but something familiar. something close.

just a thought i had while doing a shifting advice reading for someone. take it if it resonates, leave it if it don’t.

(and please don’t ask me how to make a dr feel like home, i promise if you think for 2 seconds you will know how. ) remember: no limits! anything is possible!!

[fruitswrl]

“the light has been at the end of the tunnel but i don’t think i’ll ever reach it.” aka something that you might want to hear if you’re struggling <3

this is not a lost cause. not now and not ever.

the fact that you’re still here, still aching for it, still trying, it’s not failure or proof it isn’t real. it’s proof that something inside you knows it’s possible and that it’s it’s than here.

i’m not going to give you a soft, meaningless answer, i know exactly how much it hurts and i know what it feels like to want something so bad you can barely breathe without it. i know what it’s like to look at this world and think i wasn’t built for this one. i belong somewhere else, with him, with her, with them. and i know what it’s like to have thought: what if i’m just lying to myself? what if this is never going to happen?

but look at what you’ve built.

five years, and you have not let go. that’s devotion.

you’ve done more than most people ever could, you have a whole reality, multiple even, layered in your chest as if it’s a second heartbeat. you’re not just chasing something vague, you know their eyes and have memorised the notes of their scent and how they never let go. you know the exact slouch of their shoulders when they’re sleepy and trying to stay awake for you. you know how they hold you like your body is the answer to every question they’ve ever asked.

that kind of knowing is not fake or imagined but memory.

if your mind can go there so vividly, so often, so intensely that it hurts not to be there……… then the place you’re aching for already exists.

and you exist there too

you’re not wrong for feeling hopeless. and you’re definitely not behind

i won’t say it’s “building.” but i will say say this: it’s not that you have to get there. your awareness is already tangled up in that world, and the moment that tangle pulls tighter than this one, you’re gone. gone in a blink, gone like breath, gone like magic. you’ll open your eyes and they’ll be there and it will feel like the only thing that’s ever been real.

please don’t give up. dont let go of the one place you feel home

the second you let yourself assume it’s real without shame, without pause, it will be. i promise you

[fruitswrl]

what are some things i could script for an obx dr,,,,, i need ideas STAT !!!

[fruitswrl]

new theme :p

emma ⭑.ᐟ

i. about ꩜

𖥔 20 𖥔 she/her 𖥔 artist 𖥔 writer 𖥔 shifter 𖥔

it's about time i made something like this, ( but i've been putting it off... ).

this is my shifting blog, but really i'll talk about anything spiritual, or just my life. i've been in the shifting community since mayybbbee 2021 ? i gen have no idea when i found out, i just remember freaking out immediately

ii. realities ꩜

i'll prob make a more in depth master list for my dr's when i make more posts about them, but i basically insert myself into everything i even slightly consume, so i don't even think this is a definite list...

𖥔 main realities:

୨୧ waiting room, the vampire diaries

𖥔 back-burner realities:

୨୧ hxh, stardew valley, college dr, jujutsu kaisen, apocalypse, small town/gilmore girls, haikyuu !, genshin, study dr, txt, mha, le sserafim, kamisama kiss, aot, doctor dr, gravity falls, monster high, inheritance games, multiple fame drs, ever after high, royalty dr, drs for stories i've written / story ideas, obx, baldurs gate, streamer dr, marine biologist dr, kpop survival show, the cruel prince . . .

iii. tags ꩜

𖥔 emma’s shifting diary

𖥔 emma’s vampire diaries dr

𖥔 emma's stardew valley dr

𖥔 emma’s pick a card

𖥔 emma’s card of the day

[fruitswrl]

i feel like i’m losing my mind jejwbwbwjqjw

can someone please give me advice on something? i’ve never really seen anyone dealing with what i have been, and i just don’t know what to do anymore.

for the billionth time i’ve tried to shift subconsciously in a dream. and this time, like other times, i wasn’t even lucid yet i was convinced i shifted. but this was just a dream. and like i’ve said before, this has happened multiple times, in different ways too.

today i was convinced i shifted, not to any dr of mine but in the dream i was ok with that. i don’t remember what was happening before really but i just started doing a method i guess till eventually it “ worked ” i didn’t have my senses, but i focused on all of them until i was “ fully grounded ”.

but i am certain it was a dream, no matter what i thought at the time, i didn’t have all my senses. it wasn’t secure like real life.

it’s honestly frustrating that this keeps happening. so maybe someone out there has some advice.