ftminyoongi

[ftminyoongi]

𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐎𝐍 | M. Yoongi

title. our season

summary. where y/n writes letters to min yoongi, the person she knew before Suga and the person she misses dearly.

pairings. yoongi x fem. reader/writer

genre. journal entries, flashback scenarios

warnings. this collection of entries will contain sensitive topics regarding depression, loneliness, abandonment, etc. please read at your own discretion if sensitive to these topics.

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*ch. 001, the scar*

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2014 January 6

Journal Entry 1

I remember the way your eyes would close when you gave me that gummy smile of yours. The pictures do not show every little wrinkle or crease of that smile. I remember doing everything I could to make you laugh even when you had tears in your eyes. I remember the smile you gave me when I would bring you food that I learned how to cook, just so you had something to eat that day.

I feel like I am forgetting every one of those details as the days go by. You used to be a phone call away but now your phone rings and it says unavailable. I could walk over to your house but now you live in a shared apartment with your band mates. Now I live a whole plane flight away from our hometown and you don't know where.

I wonder if you think of me like I think of you, I wonder if you think of every memory we have made since we were children or the times I was there for you when no one else was. I have and will always be your number one supporter even if we don't talk anymore. I miss you but all I have left are our precious memories.

Do you remember when we were 7 and liked to play in my parents clothes? We would get in so much trouble for dirtying it but it was okay because we ran around the house like we were getting chased by a monster. We did not have anything to worry about as long as we were together.

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"Yoongi, run! The monster is going to catch us!" Y/n yelled while laughing and grabbing Yoongi's hand. They ran away from Y/n's mom because Y/n was wearing her mothers dress and Yoongi was in her fathers suit.

They laughed together even when they knew they were going to get scolded later by both of their parents but it didn't matter, not now. Y/n was running in heels which resulted in her falling down and hitting her head on a cabinet. Yoongi looked at her and laughed. She hit him on the leg while complaining that it hurt so much.

He soon shut his mouth when he saw blood coming out of her forehead, "Mom! Y/n is bleeding! She hit her head! She is bleeding!"

"You see, you see! This is why I tell you two to not be running around like this but you never listen. Yoongi, I am going to call your mom to come pick you up so get changed. Y/n, sit down so I can clean you up."

Y/n's mother walked away and disappeared into the restroom where they kept the first aid kit. Yoongi sat down next to Y/n and held her hand. She squeezed his hand and complained about how much it hurt. Although his hand was hurting from how tight Y/n was squishing it, he said nothing and just sat next to her, comforting her and telling her it would be okay.

When Y/n's mom applied the ointment and cleaned her wound, Y/n was a crying mess. It burned but she knew she could not do anything about it. Yoongi's parents had gotten there fairly quickly, they only live about 10 minutes away, and he immediately got scolded.

They were blaming Yoongi, even when they knew it was probably Y/n's idea. Y/n kept defending him but her mother said to keep quiet and let the adults talk. She could tell Yoongi was holding back tears but he always refused to cry, at least in front of her. She hated that, but she couldn't force him to cry either.

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The scar on my forehead has slowly started to fade. May be that is a way of the world telling me it is time to let you go.

Sometimes I think about emailing your company but then I would probably seem crazy if I did. I like thinking back about dumb moments like these because even if I don't remember it detail by detail, I remember what I felt at that moment.

I felt hurt, scared, and mad. Hurt because my head was pounding so hard, I could hear my heartbeat. Scared because I knew that our parents would scold us for hours and I hated seeing you sad. Mad because you laughed at me when I was hurt but now that I think about it, I am happy and sad.

I would do anything to go back and feel all that again, even if it means hitting my head again or getting scolded. At least I would be next to you and we would be able to comfort one another.

You would call my parents mom and dad. That is how close we were. I don't know if you remember that, but I do. Then, as the years went by, you started calling them by their last names and a Mr or Mrs in front of them. It might be a small change but that is when I knew, things were changing between us. Nevertheless, I still miss you.

I miss you so much.

Sincerely,

L/N Y/N

— notes! hi everyone, this is actually a story i wrote back in 2022 on wattpad that i never published. I was reading it and really enjoyed it so i hope you all do too. I only have two and a half chapters written but I plan to write at least five. This will be a short series! Please let me know what you all think. Also, if there are any typos or a name used for the reader, let me know, this story used to have an OC.