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My refusal to wash this cheap fur coat that I wore on drag race needs to be studied. I truly think i don’t want to wash it because it was such a significant piece of my drag race experience. I wore it on the plane ride there, wore it almost every day I was there, wore it on the plane ride home…it’s been with me the entire time. And oddly enough, as many times as I’ve worn this jacket after filming and layered different fragrances onto it, i can still smell the Alien by Mugler perfume I’d spray on myself every day under it all. Or maybe it’s just my brain tricking me into thinking I can smell it because my brain associates this piece of clothing with that smell?

I’d spray that fragrance on myself every time I was in drag or out of drag on that show. Smells are a big part of my life and I tend to associate very significant things in my life with specific scents. So I wanted Drag Race to have a scent that I could smell and instantly think of drag race. And of course it just so happens that that perfume was also the one that mistress was wearing every day as well. So now I can’t smell it without thinking of her too, which is like annoying but kinda sweet because when I was there, mistress and Marcia were kinda like my tether to people back home? Like Marcia reminded me so much of my boyfriend and sometimes on the van rides to and from set I’d have the urge to hold her hand or lay my head on her shoulder as I would my boyfriend because the energy was familiar (not in a me and Marcia are lovers kinda familiar, but she just reminded me of him so much). And mistress reminded me of all of my friends back home so I’d gravitate to her sometimes because we just clicked. Same sense of humor, same energy. It was all about energy. Anyway, i also think of mistress when I smell the jacket because same fragrance Yada Yada we get it. Back to the jacket.

I feel like I can’t wash it because I’ll wash away all of the memories attached to this cheap jacket. That I love and cherish.

Maybe I’ll just buy a completely different fur jacket to attach more memories to…and another. And another…

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My new tattoo is so cute I’m obsessed <3

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