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All jirais should get a weekly allowance of 100 bucks for not kïļľing ourselves yet

It’s really hard existing when your mentally ill

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me: can someone just check up on me holy shit

me when someone checks up on me: no its ok im fine!! thank u tho!!

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I have not been well lately

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Tw: vent

I hate my family so fucking much. My stepmom called me to go to her house to fix her router at 8am and woke me up to do it, so, since I'm not pure evil I agreed to and went up to do it. I fiddled with it for about 30 minutes trying to get it to work and eventually fixed it, not even getting a thank you. Then on my way out the door she asked if I was doing anything today, I told her I wasn't, and she fucking laughed at me. For context, my family thinks for some reason that I don't do anything all day except be happy and play video games, both of which are not true.

How can they not fucking comprehend that I am fighting tooth and nail to get a better job right now? Do they think I want to sit at home all day? No! I fucking don't! It's embarrassing. All my friends are getting job placements, even ones in the same college as me, and I have no idea what I'm fucking doing wrong. It's so frustrating having no luck with finding a job when I'm trying my best, and then getting LAUGHED AT for not having one yet. Like, go fuck yourself, please. And she wonders why I don't feel any real emotion towards her except contempt.

I'll show them all one day. Either when I'm successful and happy or when I'm a pile of guts and blood on the pavement with their fucking name all over my suicide note. Then they can laugh. Maybe she'll be happy then.

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KANGEL CAKE?!

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I think this is the most soul crushing song i know. It's up there with Earthmover and Edit the Sad Parts in my personal rankings.

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Just got home from the miku movie it was cinema

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