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Can you believe

@fundamentalquintessential wasn’t taken? Shoutout to tøp for inspiring my new username. I was @petiteswift.

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Tough times.

Do you ever get that feeling when you feel like your heart’s constricting and your whole body’s closing up on you and you feel the sudden urge to cry? That’s basically what’s happening to me in the past few months or so. Don’t worry, I don’t need to go see a doctor, because I know what caused it. Stress.

My last year of high school is coming up. I’m starting school in September. And you know what that means. University applications. Studying till midnight because you know if you fuck up on exams this year means your future will be ruined. Crying because you’re scared. But maybe that’s just me. 

Here’s the thing. I’ve never been good at school. Well, that’s a lie. I used to be good at school until I switched schools and I found out that there are a lot of clever people in the world and I’m one of the dumb ones. And you know what that means. It means that I’m looked down on. And it’s not my peers that’s looking down on me. It’s myself. I hate it. I hate the feeling when you see everyone in the class getting a better grade than you. I hate the feeling when you feel utterly useless.

And I try. I really do. My mind tells me that I can’t fuck up, but I always seem to be the last one, the dumb one. My mind tells me to concentrate, but at the same time it’s curled up in misery because it has no idea how to do that one assignment. 

I don’t know how to get out of this pit I’m in. I don’t know how to tell my heart to stop pumping depressing thoughts into my mind. But most of all, I don’t want to be that girl who had big dreams but didn’t achieve them. I want to be smart and do my homework on time and get a decent grade in my exams.

(I’m sorry for the ramble I’m just feeling so negative and down and I just need to let it out)

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me: i'd love to be in a relationship

*is shown any kind of affection*

me: yikes yikes yikes yikes yikes yik

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What she says: I'm fine

What she means: I didn't go to the Speak Now World Tour and if time travel was possible I would immediately go watch Taylor sing Dear John but time travel is not possible so I have to resort to watching the Speak Now World Tour dvd over and over while crying

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Taylor accepting her Grammy for Album of the Year

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im actually really afraid that no one will fall in love with me

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These exchanges between a bigot named Brendan Sullivan, and a heroic troll named Robert Graves, will be the best thing you read all day, I promise.

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2006 album photoshoot by Andrew Orth.

#10yearsoftaylor

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There’s this one color that defines a lot of the emotions that I’ve been writing about lately, really great emotions like frustration, anger, jealousy, falling in love, falling out of love, heartbreak, all that good stuff. 

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“The bestest and longest relationship I’ve ever had.”

Thank you for standing by our side and always caring about us just as much as we care about you. @taylorswift

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It's been 5 years and I'm still totally in love with @taylorswift

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