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Only Weather report you will ever have to watch.

no seriously watch it.

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The fault in our stars (2012)

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27 July 2020. 12:03am.

Kind of triggered by what Christie said. Basically I’m really conscious of Charlie gaining weight because it for sure is a habit that’s just developed when you’re young. Praise is given by food and that’s all he knows. Now Christie is saying that she thought I would understand because I have an eating disorder. Fuck that honestly. Just because I have an eating disorder doesn’t mean I’m fucking body positive. I’m all for healthy eating habits. That’s all I want.

Anyway. A quick update. I fell in love with my PT, fell out of love because he has a girlfriend. Although I think he kind of solidified the type of person I would actually like to date - combination of banter plus serious, family oriented, has friends, sunshine by all around.

Fell out of love with Brian. Fell back in love with him somehow. Two weeks ago hanging out with him was a little painful. I just didn’t care much, but now I see him again and I enjoy it. It’s odd because I do feel like it’s very two way, like he seems to feel the same, and it’s just easy between us again. It’s hard because I just don’t know what’s going on in his life, and he doesn’t know in mine, so we could just be being difficult people just because.

Feeling pretty detached from work right now. I really do want to get out of natural resources banking and into media banking, but I am feeling not very confident right now with my ability. Should also start networking and stuff.

Finally getting my eating and weight in order. Tracking food has done wonders honestly.

Getting there. I cried on Friday because I realized I fell back in love with Brian but again I’m not sure how he feels. Jeffrey just doesn’t seem to care right now and I’m a little worried because the person who did my birth chart was basically like yeah he seems like the person who’s good to you and you should get back with him if he does ask you, although it’s probably not good for you guys to be together in the next few years because things are going to change.

Sometimes I also feel like I don’t really have true friends. Why do people like complaining to me so much? Just because I take it? I hate it. Just never want to cross that boundary anymore

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Too real it all seems 

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Passion Project

What subject could I read 500 books about without getting bored?

What could I do for five years straight without getting paid?

What would I spend my time doing if I had complete financial abundance to do anything?

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