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why would arle watch dave chappel? i know scaramouche would buts hes an incel

I was talking about Midwest princess chappell roan the singer song writer

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arlechino is gay and that cant be argued

Amen 🙏

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You mentioned the chasm in your tags so I'm curious what your thoughts are on it 👀

Mostly just this.

But if i had to ramble:

Im not sure if u mean in general or just the fatui in the chasm but since thats what i was referring to in the tags and also what i feel strongest about, i’ll focus on that.

Also disclaimer: considering it’s been…. Oh my god its been 2 years… what… ok.. since the chasm came out i might be a bit fuzzy (haha) on the details.. MY CHEESE!

When I played through the fatui quests in the chasm i. I was distraught for a very long time. Katarina’s quest is so unbelievably gut wrenching in every way.

Summary for anyone who needs it but like i recommend experiencing the quest for urself: Katarina Snezhevna is an orphan from the house of hearth that is stuck in the chasm looking for her brother. Who is. 😬 probably dead. But all we know is he is missing. So then she goes to look for him. Only to. Also.. go.. “missing” super fun. Thanks mhy.

But what really is a sucker punch is the way Katarina talks about her brother and Lyudochka (you might know her from the fortune slip quest). She talks about how she hopes Lyudochka isn’t thinking about her. How she thinks about her often because its what keeps her going but the thought that she is also thinking of her, worrying about her, makes her sad because she doesnt want Lyudochka to be in pain. I had to stare at a wall after i read that. She doesnt know how to feel because if her brother is dead she will have to mourn but if he isnt, if she is able to see him again like she so desperately wants to, she will have to kill him because it means he deserted and well. Thats what happens to children of the hearth who run away.

Anyway at this point you realize the fatui down here are under the impression they are allied with liyue but quickly realize things must have went south considering they have been cut off completely from the surface. So I, after eating drywall about katarina, ran into the next emotional pipe bomb:

The rest of the ninith company. Or .. i guess.. whats left of it. 😬. 64… people were sent down. And only. 4. Remained. Aurgh.waugh. And it gets so much worseeee.

Summery: the final girls are fighting!! Or well. They are dealing with the emotional train wreck that is not understanding what is happening and being stuck in the Horror Hole. After holding the traveler back like a feral dog (THEY LOVE BEATING UP FATUI) you fail and end up beating them up anyway, giving them some food, and finding out that they have been purposefully cut off from the surface and the millelith is banned from contacting the fatui in the chasm and if they see an fatui on the surface, they have to arrest them. Learning this, Anton (the leader of sorts) decides they have to retreat.

So happy ending right? They leave! Not really. See Anton says they have to retreat but its not without push back. Even after learning EVERYTHING one of the other members, Radomir, IS STILL INSISTING THEY STAY. WHY/?? BECAUSE THE CAPTAIN SAID SO. CUZ THE CAPTAIN SAID THEY SHOULD BE WILLING TO GIVE UP THIER LIVES DOWN HERE.. FOR WWHHAAAATTT. they are still going on about how they are here to protect liyue and they cant leave even after everything so Anton snaps back that the captian also said they wouldn’t die in vain but 60 of them are dead or mia and if they die here it will be in vain. Radomir finally agrees and the matter is settled.

My point is: these people are miserable. They have been abandoned and left to die miserable deaths and yet they STILL say “if not us, then who?” Its. Like i cant even put it into words how it makes me feel. They are so desperate for their sacrifices to mean anything, to keep their faith in what they have been taught. As if starving in the chasm, watching the people around you get slaughtered, knowing deep down no one is coming for you, is going to mean anything in the grand scheme of things. God. GOD.

“Fuzzy you’ve been going on for so long but have yet to explain why they are there in the first place..? Protecting liyue? Why are the fatui-“ OH I DIDNT FORGET. I TOLD YOU. IT GETS WORSE.

SO WHY ARE THEY EVEN IN THIS SITUATION/?:

Signora, being the excellent diplomat she is, apparently made a deal with the Qixing. She got some trade agreements going but under the condition that liyue allow the ninth company to investigate and get rid of the horrors in the chasm. The idea is that any info gained would be shared between liyue and snezhnaya. There was literally. No ulterior motive. They were. LITERALLY. JUST HELPING. They were allies! One of the millelith even left some supplies for the company out of guilt along with a message expressing his regret that they would be enemies now.

“But why did the Qixing cut them off?”

Childe lol. Or well if you follow the line up, Zhongli and Signora. The fatui rising a dead god to drown liyue didnt really leave a good impression on them so they immediately voided all their agreements with the fatui. Awkward! Obviously, Signora knew about the fatui in the chasm (made the deal) but i wonder if Childe or Zhongli knew anything about it. Sad! Even pulcinella knows (its his men down there) and Anton literally says that he understands and doesnt object to him “dispensing with less valuable assets” in the quest for bigger endeavors.

No one was coming to save them. Left in a nation they were trying to protect that is now incredibly hostile to them because of the actions of the archon of said nation LOLLLL its such a tragedy. The entire time you are treated to the ideals the fatui drills into these soldiers heads and for me, this was the moment that i became unable to relate to the travelers distrust and resentment of the fatui. I understand it but i just. I couldnt feel the same rage ever again after knowing what they are told and what they believe.

When i confronted trofin in sumeru i was so. Sad. Because i knew something had to be done about what he was doing but i also knew how fucked the entire situation was. And then i accidentally let lumine KILL HIM DIED and i sat there like 😨 BECAUSE I DIDNT MEAN TO. I THOUGHT I WAS JUST BEATING HIM UP. but i guess it doesnt matter because if you dont kill him the house of hearth does when he abandons his post. And like. He knew they would. He knew it was over for him. All the fatui recruits we meet are so. They know they arent the good guys. They are family to each other and they know that these connections are going to end in heart break but its all they have. I mean. I guess thats why they are called “fools”.

Anyway. Big fatui head. I find them and their mindsets so unbelievably interesting but i feel like the genshin fandom… doesnt really like.. fully digest a lot of the info we get about them. there is so much focus on the orphanage and what they do as if its not a symptom of the environment of the fatui in general. Childe was also 14 when he was enlisted and never stepped foot in the orphanage and like.. look at the guy. He is so unwell. I didnt even mention polar star. Oh my god. Polar star makes me sick. The ninth company mentions it. God. Look at the lyrics for polar star. I have a google slides thing about childe where i pool all my thoughts on him and the fatui (its at. 136 slides… lol…) so i could ramble about them all day but like . I .. i have to stop

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Arlecchino discourse is really awkward because both sides are so convinced they are right and that the other side just lacks media literacy but 9 times out of 10 the take in question is also wrong and it leaves me scratching my head a little bit….

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Self indulgent silly fella because i think a lot about how he is named after a play in genshin (he wanted so badly to live up to the role of Ajax he ended up in the abyss) and how they say he “often becomes part of the show himself” in relation to public performances (but it so accurately represents his attitude in archon quests) and how his theme is called never ending performance (people always question why they bothered including him in the fontaine archon quest as if the parallels are an accident) and-

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Screaming into the void but why does no one ever talk about how each genshin harbinger has themes about identity and what it means to be “you”…. Heart motifs this heart motifs that when are we addressing the elephant labeled “questions on the self” in the room

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So ningguang just barely won this poll but some thing interesting I noticed was

Both in this poll and in the one I gave to friends, people voting for miko are more likely to also not think they should kiss about it? Not sure why that is but I think ningguang having more people vote for her but also in favor of her kissing miko kinda proves the results of this poll imo

Love wins or something congrats ningguang

I asked my discord friends and the discussions it sparked was funny so ill ask tumblr too

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I asked my discord friends and the discussions it sparked was funny so ill ask tumblr too

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I usually dont feel the need to post things like this but ive seen like a billion posts saying the same thing all with like a billion notes/likes whatever so im just gonna shout into the void and say: some people seem to have only taken in what scaramouche had to say about what happened between him and ei and have completely ignored what both ei and miko had to say on the matter and its genuinely so frustrating. Ei did not see humanity as a flaw or hated him because of it or whatever wording you wanna use its literally because he shed tears that she took pity on him and did what she thought would be best for him. Miko suggested literally destroying him but ei couldnt bring herself to do it. Obviously, scaramouche took this as him being thrown out because he was weak but thats not what actually happened at all. The story between scara ei and miko is genuinely so heartbreaking because of how unintentional everything was and yet ppl would rather just label ei a hater ig and move on

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Usually when i dont post for a long time its cuz i shrimply am not drawing anything good but this time I disappeared for 2 months cuz my everything blew up 👍 i blame the limbus ishmael incident-

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I found a really cutesy music box when shopping around with a friend and i needed to draw a lyney and lynette version of it so bad that I resorted to using my finger to draw this 🫡

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Heres an outis i drew 2 months ago and didnt post as compensation

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Hi im back with stupid posts. if you want context its under read more if not 🫡

The context for this is i was psychologically tortured by a friend while playing fashion famous cuz i made an off hand comment about how i got jumpscared by demian

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Happy birthday to todomatsu once again 🫡🫡🫡 and also the other ones i guess maybe

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Apparently they have the same va and that information does something so crazy to my brain

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So as i thought… the results are different… not only do more of my friends feel more positive to him but having a running joke about eating him does in fact skew the results… 🤔

Update on my ugly son btw.

Long ago, I asked a simple question to my friends about whether they would give uppies to Childe (from hit game Genshin Impact.) the results were. Well. ABOUT LIKE… 2 DAYS AGO…. I asked them AGAIN. BUT THIS TIME…. i asked specifically about the ‘childe gummy’ im crafting… the results were…. Also interesting ig… NOW I ASK PEOPLE I DONT KNOW (and maybe some i do hi mutuals im waving and batting my eyelashes) THE SAME QUESTION….