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I should kill Myself Now

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money please i need money i fuckinnnnn need money why the fuck did my roommate not have money why did they have to go to a psych ward instead of just sucking it the fuck up and talking to someone about how they felt ohhhh my fucking god they now owe me $515. over half a thousand dollars. my car payment was late this month because i spent all my fuckin money on paying my rent and part of theirs oh my fucking goddddd someone set me free someone please drop a bigggg sack of fucking cold hard cash at my feet im going to throw the fuck UP words can not describe how fucking distressed i am fucking fuckin god fucking hellish fucking damned fucking fuck

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i need a nap

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i like to care about people. why do the people around me not like when i give a shit. maybe im auck of caring now. just like my mother always told me as a kid maybe i dont care. you all fucking deserve this

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everyone is leaving me

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i am not myself. i am not here. my brain and my body are 2 separate things. i am a spectator and i dont know how to get back in the game. it does things on its own. i am constantly on auto pilot. i very rarely commit things to memory

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ill never be the reason someone stays alive

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if they were to die, i would only blame myself for not being helpful enough

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roomate donte ven care that im laying on thefloor sad

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the line between "i can/should keep doing this" and "i need to delete everything ive ever made off of the internet and go into hiding right now" isnt super thin but i dont like being able to see the other side of it

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maybe ill be going to the psyche ward next. who fucking knows

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get this bitch out of this fucking house. im so fucking sick of her living here. god im so thankful the end of the month is coming up. she'll finally fucking leave. im so fucking sick of her holy fucking shit. im this close to smacking the shit out of her. fucking bitch

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the lives of everyone around me are crashing down. everything is going to shit for everyone but me and i cant help any of them

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every day more and more it seems like killing myself is the way to go; maybe my friend had the right idea

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nothing has felt real or permanent. what the hell am i supposed to do

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anyone mind if a normally cheerful guy speak a little kind of fucking miserable tonight?

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House MD is awesome it's like. Did you know self harm isn't always physical. Sometimes it's sabotaging your relationships so you can feel emotional pain when people leave you. Now he's dancing with a boombox