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Hot take but I believe Twilight (not Loid) is a psychopath.

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Anya's Pink Hair Theory

(Translation credit to: yumeka-sxf.tumblr.com)

Disclaimer: Just a theory so everything might not make sense, as expected of me and my ramblings but it's fun to think about.

Initial discovery

In Volume 12 there's a bonus omake which covers Anya and Becky's day at the zoo during the mole arc and it should be pointed out that as they cover various animals, Anya says something specific when they get to the flamingos.

I found it interesting that Anya wonders if she ate red colored things, as if even she isn't aware of why her hair is pink.

Implications

Martha basically explains how flamingos turning pink works and to elaborate on it a bit further, it's because flamingoes have a high diet that consists of carotenoid pigments, most prominently beta carotenoids which are a red-orange pigment. Due to their diet they tend to eat a lot of these, hence causing them to be pink.

So when Anya wonders if she ate red things too then chances are she ate whatever she did in large amounts to cause her to have a full set of pink hair. Which leads into my theory..

Telepathic drugs and MK-Ultra

One thing about Anya's existence (or rather Project Apple as a whole) I always found interesting would be how it reminds me of a more supernatural MK-Ultra.

For some background, MK-Ultra was a human experimentation program aiming to develop drugs for mind control and identify any that could be used for psychological torture or brain washing, to force confessions out of individuals.

While the project was ultimately unsuccessful I still wondered about the drug development aspect, and then I started to think about Project Apple with their whole goal being to create highly intelligent animals for military use and likely that extended to humans as well.

Theory

That leads me into my theory that, Anya was Project Apple's attempt to see if the same procedures to make a highly intelligent animal could be applies onto a human. However, instead of being experimented on like the animals were she was instead given a drug that happened to gave carotenoid pigments present within it, that researchers believed would give her heightened intelligence if given enough doses over time. Though in doing this it would cause Anya's hair to change color as a side-effect but also accidentally create her telepathic abilities.

Conclusions

This is a really insane theory and chances are someone had thought of it before but I just wanted to bring it up since I found it fascinating. I really enjoy it when stories have some sort of government experimentation plot which involve the supernatural.

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« Time for your daily temperature checking » 😳

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Loid Forger and Weakness (Analysis)

I was watching gameplay footage of What Remains of Edith Finch and towards the ending I thought about the idea of memories, and one thing led to another and I thought of Spy x Family, specifically Loid. It made me wonder if he ever did confront his past and what exactly weakness means to him.

(These thoughts may not be organized since it happened so late at night but bear with me.)

Initial Thoughts

I always thought about being taught that the idea of, "you have to be strong" which often goes hand in hand with this idea of "you can't show emotions". I feel like Loid constantly tells himself he can't be weak, buy what does that mean if his idea of being strong is to not show any emotion?

Memories

I don't believe it being so long ago is the reason he doesn't remember his parents faces, I want to believe he purposefully forgot what they looked like, and this probably applies to his actual name too. His home was destroyed, any and all photos of his family were lost in the debris, he burned his identification papers so there's also no record of him ever having existed. He said it himself that there is no one left who knows his name.

I should also mention how he remembers the faces of his friends and croquette lady. Loid remembering his friends faces are a given since he believed they had died during the first bombing but he later reunited with them when he was a teenager, only to lose them during a botched military operation, leaving nothing behind but dog tags.

While it may be random to include the croquette lady I feel that remembering her face is still significant given that she was the last person he spoke to before the bombs dropped, as well as being the first casualty he saw.

Memories (continued)

It may not mean anything but find it interesting that his name is hidden like this, maybe I'm thinking it about it too much but it's almost as if it were blocked out, much like how classified files have certain sentences edited out because of their sensitive nature. If he had forgotten his name it liked would've been blurred but instead it's redacted, this paired with not remembering his parents faces, it's almost as if he made himself forget, but why?

Weakness

I think his parents faces specifically his mother and his actual name are all that connects him to who was before, he likely still remembered up until he joined WISE where he was possibly taught to let go of the past, not because they didn't care about what happened to him but because it likely would've had an impact on his work, and he passed on that same mentality to Fiona, about spies not showing emotion, to stay alert and not be ignorant, because to him those two things are what make someone weak.

I find it interesting to believe that Twilight wasn't always this way but rather he adapted his own experiences and the mindset he was taught into him and realized that his emotions and overall ignorance is what led him to participate in a war, without even knowing why. The reason he did so was because of those weaknesses and that he needed to discard them. So it's no surprise that during his fight with Wheeler, but mostly Yuri, that he came to terms with the fact he's getting weak, because instead of doing what he would normally do if it was anyone else, he instead chose to spare him. If he was the Twilight that he was prior to Strix then he absolutely would've killed Yuri because he wouldn't have any reason not to, but he does, and in doing so that decision to spare him almost cost him his life.

"You're getting weak"

It all comes to a head when he recalls the event, he acknowledges that Wheeler is for lack of a better word, perfect. Someone that he himself used to be but somewhere along the away something changed. Twilight acknowledged that he was getting weak and the source of that weakness, was his small but still very present feelings for Yor, if those feelings weren't there and if Yor was just another person to use for the sake of the mission, then he wouldn't have spared Yuri but he did, for her sake.

While he may have been thinking about doubting himself while thinking about the encounter with Yuri I believe the panel still holds some weight, Loid knows he's starting to slip up and this time was too close of a call, he knows he's experiencing.

It may have happened long ago but it still relevant to how Loid is as a character thus far, that being Fiona's observation that his smile had a shred of genuineness to it when she visited, that bit of emotion being a result of spending time with his family, and learning to form connections again so it's only a matter of time before he actually expresses his own emotions directly in some capacity.

Closing Thoughts

This entire post came as a result of What Remains of Edith Finch, which I highly recommend people play as it has a nice mystery element to it as well as its overall themes of death and memories and being presented in such a unique way. The concept of keeping your emotions hidden and locked away is something I relate to which is all the more reason as to why I'd like to see Loid be more open about the way he feels or genuinely breaks down and lets all those bottled up emotions out, allowing himself to fall apart be vulnerable around people, specifically his family. There's this really nice artwork I saw once of Yor and Anya hugging a child Loid, and I always thought that externally Loid is a grown man but internally he's a child wanting someone to lift him up and tell him, "it's going to be okay".

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Would cry the whole first week of preschool

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doodling a bunny vs doodling a hare

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She has chosen her team, have you?

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overflow

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a child that is not embraced by the village will burn it down just to feel its warmth

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A surprise Mamimi has appeard on your dashboard!

What does she say to you?

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Mamimi doodle thing

made after 1 hour of loathing after I lost a piece I worked 3 days on

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Silly little Anya doodle

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Doodle thing requested by Anonymous

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More Fionky (messed up on Fiona’s hair 😓)

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See you’d think Yuri is the obvious pairing option for Fiona until

Franky cuts in 😎

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Absolutely love this goofball