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trying out a new brush to trick myself into thinking that sketching messy and then leaving it messy is allowed (lost skill in my life sadly). pardon my indulgence in tired old reasonable girl + fail guy humor but i think it's so funny when lenalee treats kanda like he's her emotional support animal who she's still trying to train not to bark at people in the grocery store

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someone asked for a print of that last image so i put it up on my inprnt (if you ever want me to put something up there feel free to ask! usually i forget it's there) but it's a bit awkward for their standard print sizes because i sized it to be my phone background. however, i'm trying to table share at a con at some point in which case i'll make custom sized small prints, or stickers or something, so if there's anything you're interested in seeing from me on that front i'm all ears 👍

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i spend months hammering out the intricate lore of my universe where everyone i care about in this manga is a woman and then what do i do with all that effort? draw them in Outfits.

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working on sketches for a gintama themed uno deck i'm going to do and i'm taking suggestions for the other two draw four cards. tell me what you think is worthy to join nabe shogun kagura and draw 4 zurazabeth and i may or may not listen 🖤

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did this for the wha fairytales zine back in 2022, some kind of fairy ring situation x tacky spirit halloween colors crossover happening here. what can i say, i love an acid green!

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she’s chewing on his hair like my childhood cat who used to be obsessed with trying to attack and kill spaghetti loved to do

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deliriously in love with your dgm fanart. i stumbled into a full course buffet. exquisite, splendid, 10/10 no notes. do you have any DGM fic recs, bc i have suitcases full of DGM recs,

ok first of all thank you so much!! dgm is i think the thing i've drawn the most fanart for in my life cumulatively? in many bursts of insanity over the years. lol. so i have a lot of fun drawing it and i'm very honored that you like what i've made so much. also re: your other ask my worstie and collaborator ozwuv and i are working on it together since you sent it to both of us (we made a joint google doc to combine our perspectives lol) so the answer might not come from me but you'll get one!

second of all i am kind of an old livejournal era hag in terms of my taste in fanfiction in general and my history with this series in particular, so there are exactly three things in here that are less than a decade old and two of them are from 2016. naturally this means that a lot of it is now divergent with some details of how the plot and characterization and etc has actually gone (sorry to everyone back in the day who thought kanda was looking for some missing sister or something. one truly could not have possibly seen all of that coming). that said they still hold up to me in terms of general character dynamics and being fun and well written and such. recommendations also depend on what you like! i will generally not put that much shipping in here because there aren't that many of those i've read and would recommend in the first place (no hate to our strong and beautiful yaoi warriors, i used to read nearly anything back in the day, it's just that not too much of it has stuck with me) but there are some things that are so iconic to me that i could not in good conscience not include them. lots of this is kanda-centric because i like him :) putting it all below the cut

Hard Living by metisket - the aforementioned ship fic that's too iconic not to include. changed my brain chemistry when i first read it many many years ago. i seriously considered making it the only thing i put on here for a second just for the bit. To Me this is actually such a classic that it transcends shipping. the humor is very sharp and funny and i'm so in love with the concept of dying young for them meaning getting old early first and having to deal with it all together. they're so damn hilarious. it should happen to them. it does in my dreams. it never will but in my head there will always be a world where it does <3 i love to draw fanart of them as old decrepit men at 35 and maybe i'll post some of it someday. obviously it was written pre-alma so you just have to accept that it's wildly inaccurate in that regard. anyway pretty much anything this author has written for dgm is really good, i will put a few more metisket favorites on this list but check it all out even if i didn't include it. also this particular one is the inspiration for my most favoritest kanda fic <3 below

Blooming From the Mud by zarinthel - this is not just me shilling fic by someone i know. i am an absolute kanda diehard and this is really THE fic for me in terms of like hitting all the things i love about him. zar number one kanda understander. incredibly funny and compelling i don't care if you don't know anything about bleach (i don't either i haven't read it since middle school) or that you haven't read the fic it's inspired by (though you should) or that it's unfinished. you all should and in fact must read it. kanda's life is both so sad and so hilarious because of how sad it is and his pov here is just so excellently funny because he really is such a funny individual. also not a slash fic though it does really highlight how close and kind of insane his and allen's relationship is in a way that i find extremely delightful and accurate and just wonderful. they make me sick (positive). really good. so if you're a non shipper but you care about them you should read it and if you're a shipper you will also certainly enjoy it anyway so you should read it. truly for everyone!

Chimera Obscurant by moonsheen - i tend to struggle with most kanda/alma fix-it fanwork i've encountered despite loving them dearly because i rarely feel like anyone evokes the way their relationship is both strong and a bit unsettling (at least to me) without swinging around into being too edgy (i fully admit i have not explored super deeply because i get frustrated easily so i'm sure there are things that would appeal to me that i'm missing). this is one of the very few things i've read for them that i've been like yes i think this is beginning to get at the kind of atmosphere i want to see. if i remember correctly this was written before kanda came back to drag allen into accepting support and friendship so i'm just like "oh whatever" about its incompatibility with that. fanwork for ongoing stuff truly creates divergent timelines in my head. anyway this is the most nsfw thing that will end up in here and it's not particularly explicit, but heads up that it is there in case you're averse to that

In his Heart by harukami - another kanda/alma but just kanda technically. i read this and was so delighted that i made a :D face in real life. i've assimilated this into my worldview like i think this is something he would do. he's crazy like that.

Economies of Scale by liketolaugh - last kanda and alma one but this one's here less for the romantic aspect and more because i'm so endeared by the idea of fresh out of the lab kanda being so angry and miserable but also completely blindsided by all the stuff there is in the world. ten year old who is learning about so many new animals. really funny and cute and sad.

siblings, probably by scarlet666 - this one's for the kanda and lenalee enthusiasts. the best friends lovers. i love them so dearly i put the level of energy people usually put into shipping into their bestie-isms so naturally this was for me. huge shoutout to this person for writing 20k words about them if nobody else in the world has my back i know they do. i have the memory of a goldfish and this is long enough that i can't really scan quickly to refresh my memory and make more detailed comments but i know it deserves a spot on here. my note from when i bookmarked it just reads AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but i never leave a comment in that field at all usually so that speaks volumes i think. life is so beautiful sometimes. peace and love on planet earth <3

Welcome Home by metisket - for the rest of this list i am about to hit you with the metisket beam. the author whose work i most fondly remember from my youth by far, which means that's what's stuck with me and what half of my recs will be. i love this one dearly because i love a normal person perspective in insane anime settings type of fic and reever is so delightfully normal and longsuffering and also funny as hell. love how his relationship with komui is in this. not a ship fic and am not recommending it as such but it did make me in the back of my head go "komui/reever is almost like roy/riza without the war crimes for people who are cringefail mad scientist enthusiasts." sane responsible second in command type slash babysitter who is devotedly loyal to crazy irresponsible boss but also wants to kill him a little bit. they're so great to me

Growing Up by Accident by metisket - just so kanda and allen and the way their relationship is. having the exact same feelings about something but approaching it so differently that they want to attack each other. love them 4ever. the way metisket writes allen's internal voice is also delightful to me (like not JUST here but in general). he's so jaded and funny. probably my favorite allen to read out of anyone who writes him ever. and kanda is always just so...kanda.......<3

Sand Castle by metisket - (smiles and blood leaks from the side of my mouth) i love you allen walker. i love this look at allen's growth pre-series from cross' perspective and how he managed to become the hilarious twisted convoluted wonderful little freak that he is. allen is so.....everything to me truly i would never have it any other way. really kind of darkly funny but also like agonizingly emotional. delightful

Mask and Mirror by metisket - love this take on what the inside of lavi's head is like, and also the way all the character dynamics shine through even in such a short thing, they're all so wonderfully cute and funny. the sense of humor is really great. lenalee didn't even make a real appearance but even the brief mention of how she and kanda are had me giggling.

in the circus series by metisket - certified classic. i love timcanpy pov and this whole thing is just so emblematic of my fond memories of old dgm fanworks. i love anything that highlights the way they're all just so immensely fucked up to the point that it's actually incredibly absurd and funny. i'm pretty sure metisket's LJ has more mini outtakes from this series but i'm too lazy to dig through the dgm tag right now so i'll just link it so you can do it yourself if you're interested.

lastly if you're looking for someone to share your recs with you're free to! i am on a personal level picky as hell and my taste in styles and approaches to fanwork was forged in the livejournal mines and has not evolved with the times LOL but i also don't judge <3

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this was the first thing i started drawing when i reread d.gray-man over a year ago and i just dragged myself back to make it look something like finished. always thinking about their miserable childhood bestie-isms

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collab with @ozwuv for our beloved 12/25 and 12/26 birthday girlies <3 truly nobody is doing it like them

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so glad everyone's enjoying this post i know i said i wouldn't over-explain the joke but the idea of being misinterpreted is actually haunting me so i have to. this was a joke about the psychiatric tones of some specific ways these two are mistreated for me and my three anti-psych friends who understand the irony i intended in that image because they have seen me discuss it at length and are awaiting my essay with footnotes and a bibliography on the topic. which i then of course posted publicly on tumblr dot com with no context. thanks love you all <3

images unrelated to each other besides that they're both kanda and lena. i keep making jokes about how they have the bond of people who met in a particularly unpleasant pediatric psych ward.

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images unrelated to each other besides that they're both kanda and lena. i keep making jokes about how they have the bond of people who met in a particularly unpleasant pediatric psych ward.

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i like to put my drawings through line camera

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in april 2023 immediately after chapter 247 i was like oh they're splitting up? kanda's going to get a taste of his own dramatic thank you medicine. then i drew this just for fun sketch with that in mind and immediately forgot about it for the next six months. imagine my surprise and delight last week at 249

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got a new impractical fuzzy pompompurin wallet so i made some matching charms for my phone/wallet/keys/car keys :) trying to translate characters with somewhat complex outfit designs to tiny posca pen chibis is always an interesting experience

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in an intensive course this week so i’ve got no time to draw for kanda’s birthday </3 but he’s everything to me as always.  anyway picture of him cropped from the canvas from when friend held me at verbal knifepoint to sketch them all in color for once in my life

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my full piece for wha seasons zine !!  i got to do an illustration for summer :)

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Hello everyone!

My mom, my two dogs, and I are struggling to escape her abusive marriage of over a decade. We are both chronically ill and living without medication or healthcare in order to survive.

We have a GoFundMe, and my Ko-fi if you have anything to spare.

Even if not, we would so, so appreciate reblogs. You can find more details under the cut and on the GFM. Thanks so much from my mom, dogs, and myself!

My stepfather has been emotionally and mentally abusive to us (and physically abusive to me) for years. He moved us far away from our family over 10 years ago, and since then has made our lives hell. I reached my breaking point years ago and have attempted to escape twice, unsuccessfully. He's made it so my mom is financially dependent on him, which is what kept her from attempting to leave for so long, but she's finally had enough and came to the conclusion that she wants to leave together with me.

Unfortunately, my mom was recently laid off and is without income, but I refuse to let my stepfather dangle finances over her head anymore, so I have been the sole provider for her, my dogs, and myself since then.

We have fallen behind on bills, and since my stepfather and I have a deeply contentious relationship, my friend's mother has been kind enough to allow me to stay with her for a week or so at a time. Sadly it's been extremely difficult to consistently work on the commissions I took on prior to this situation escalating since I don't have any privacy there.

My mom losing her job also means we subsequently lost our health insurance, which has been particularly difficult given that we are both chronically ill and have had to forego meds that we have been on for years, cold turkey. My mother in particular has a condition that is life-threatening if untreated, and her symptoms are rapidly resurfacing since she has stopped her meds. The emotional turmoil of seeing her sick and not being able to do anything about it is indescribable.

I've sold many belongings, I'm selling my car, and I've borrowed money from some amazing friends in order to survive, but even that has not been enough to keep us afloat.

Our goal is to escape, hopefully out of state, and return to family that we were alienated from a decade ago. To do that, I need to be able to cover our current expenses as well as save for moving costs, deposits, rent, etc while my mom searches for another job. Moving is extra complicated with two dogs, but one is my service dog, and the other is my precious companion of 11 years, so giving them up is not an option. If I didn't have them, I wouldn't be here today. I owe them a warm, happy, stable life.

Thanks so much to anyone who took the time to read through this. Even if you can't do much to help, I feel your support and appreciate it more than you know.