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↪  𝑼𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑵 𝑭𝑳𝑶𝑹𝑨 .   (  a  collection  of  lyric  starters  originating  from  the  musical  works  of  alina baraz .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .  )

i’m  not  asking  for  too  much .

why  did  i  let  this  get  out  of  hand ?

take  advantage  of  the  moment .

don’t  you  keep  me  waiting .

is  it  hopeless ,  or  can  we  try ?

look  me  in  my  eyes .

can  you  promise  that  you’ll  be  honest ?

now  that  i  grew ,   i’m  finally  ready  for  you .

you  take  away  the  hurt .

how  could  you  forget  that  i  believe  in  you ?

i’ve  got  so  much  left  to  say .

i  just  wanna  get  you  all  alone .

nothing  lasts  forever .

stay  the  night .

i’ve  got  a  lot  on  my  mind .

if  you  really  want  to  know  how  i’m  doing ,  just  ask .

i  only  miss  you  when  the  sun  goes  down .

you’re  the  only  one  that  i  want .

love  me  like  i’m  never  gonna  leave .

anybody  else  would  be  gone  by  now .

you  ready ?  let  me  know .

call  it  what  you  want ,  darling .

you  love  a  little  chaos .

right  now  we’re  not  crossing  lines .

you  should  come  over .

i’m  finally  ready  for  you .

let  me  be  your  peace  of  mind .

i  wonder  where  the  time  went .

can  we  just  let  it  go  for  a  moment ?

you’ve  got  a  way  with  words .

if  you  need  me ,  come  and  find  me .

all  that  really  matters  is  you  keep  showing  up .

you  are  more  than  enough .

we  could  sit  inside  in  the  silence .

i  keep  running  from  all  the  things  i  want .

at  the  end  of  the  day ,  would  you  do  what  it  takes ?

your  voice  is  my  favorite  sound .

everything  you  touch  is  tainted .

just  cause  we’re  in  love ,  doesn’t  mean  that  we’re  right  for  each  other .

would  you  push  your  pride  to  the  side ?

if  you  stay  the  night ,  you  could  change  my  mind .

don’t  you  wanna  know ?

i  need  you  to  hand  it  over .

you  know  exactly  what  i  want .

we’ve  got  things  to  work  through .

i’m  gonna  make  it  okay .

say  the  word  and  you  know  i’ll  follow .

i  don’t  mind  the  sleepless  nights .

i  don’t  like  your  energy ,  keep  that  shit  away  from  me .

is  it  me ?  is  my  intuition  wrong ?

i  can  see  my  whole  life  when  i’m  with  you .

what ?  is  it  over ?

i  don’t  want  to  stay  here .

i’d  like  to  think  i’m  deserving  of  something  better .

why  do  you  have  to  be  defensive ?

you  were  what  mattered .

you’ve  been  gone  for  a  long  time .

if  you  want  my  love ,  i  could  blow  your  mind .

you  know  i  love  it  when  you  say  my  name .

tell  me  that  you’ll  stay .

i  can’t  remember  the  last  time  i  took  a  minute  to  myself .

i’ve  got  this  tendency  of  seeing  what  i  wanna  see .

hold  me  like  you  mean  it .

i’m  home  with  you ,  no  matter  the  place .

you’re  just  what  i  need .

say  you  know  me .

you’ve  got  my  attention .

how  far  would  you  go ?

i  don’t  like  playing  games .

you  know  that  i  won’t  let  go .

i’m  done  with  you .

it’s  you  that  i  came  for .

you  don’t  have  to  tell  me  about  it .

i  don’t  want  to  let  you  down .

i’m  not  yours  and  you’re  not  mine .

everything  you  do ,  i  want  to  do  it  with  you .

i  don’t  know  much  about  love .

i’m  feeling  used  but  i  keep  running  back  to  you .

you  know  what  i  need .

another  day  losing  sleep  over  bad  nights .

why  do  i  keep  running ?

i  just  forget  about  me .

we  could  smoke  a  little .

call  me  when  you’re  alone .

i’m  getting  tired  of  you  and  me .

i  can’t  explain  something  i  don’t  understand .

maybe  i’ll  get  you  out  of  my  head .

why  do  i  stay  if  i  know  you’re  not  mine ?

you  know  what  to  say .

can  i  make  you  feel  okay ?

i  want  to  hold  you .

you’ve  gotta  crave  it  and  chase  it .

you  could  be  my  everything .

here’s  to  good  people .

don’t  play  that  mind  shit .

i  know  it  wasn’t  you .

you  know  that  i  want  you .

i  don’t  wanna  wait  long .

i’ve  never  felt  like  this  before .

you  just  keep  playing  me  like  a  fool .

i  can  give  you  what  you  need .

you’re  mine .

i  love  the  taste  of  you .

show  me  where  nobody  goes .

i  never  meant  to  hurt  you ,  i  fucked  up .

call  me  when  you  get  home .

say  you’ll  never  go .

i  just  want  to  put  my  weight  on  you .

you’re  just  what  i  need .  i  don’t  even  know  why ,  though .

we  can  take  it  slow .

what  do  i  do  when  there’s  too  much  of  me ,  too  little  of  you ?

i  know  you’re  not  here  to  stay .

when  it  comes  to  you ,  i  lose  all  control .

you’re  walking  poetry .

all  that  you  are  is  all  that  i  need .

i  can  make  you  feel  alright .

why  do  i  let  you  cross  the  line  every  time ?

i’m  all  yours .

don’t  keep  your  feelings  to  yourself .

i’m  searching  for  the  thrill .

let  it  go ,  it’s  behind  you .

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the way i love helen bra.nd <3333

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i miss you guys, let’s plot 💖

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@transforms​ said:   since you're one of few people who actually Knows Who Bonnie Is, can i just like. throw you a ✿ and you pick somebody you think would be fun ... if not, just pick a htgawm canon, it's been too long since we talked!

PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other

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over a year ago, i made this meme & since then, it’s blown up. so, over a year later — i thought i would make a new one. so here it is, after several requests & a pile of brains,  THE PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2 send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other 

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other 

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What’s your type? Blondes.

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Crush Starters !

Taken from the 2022 Hulu movie, Crush! Some of these have already been edited. You can change them however you see fit! Some light spoilers for the movie may be present!

“What a vague, bullshit prompt.”

“Sorry, my first instinct was to name other gay people we know.”

“I still share everything with him. Even a Spotify account.”

“Sad lesbian music is an integral part of my identity.”

“It’s too predictable to go for the most popular girl in school.”

“Well, little do they know, my raging anxiety would never let me deface school property.”

“Do you guys want to come over after school and take edibles and watch Shrek?”

“Ugh. Why would you sweat when you don’t have to?”

“Hell no. They tried to put a love spell on me at least six times. If I’m going to date a witch, they have to be a talented one.”

“Stop staring without consent, please. It’s horrifying.”

“(Name), I really like you. I do. Actually, that’s a lie. I don’t know you. I hate myself that I have to say that-“

“Like you call them daddy, and they call you their sweet little princess.”

“For (Name) there, just try to find the thing they suck at the least.”

“I regretted it the second it left my mouth.”

“No, my job as coach is to motivate through fear.”

“Today was great. I almost killed somebody with a javelin.”

“Okay. I’m going to need you to relax. You’re starting to scare me.”

“This is a sex-positive house, (Name). Shame does not live here.”

“Time to get you drunk. Like, if you don’t throw up by the end of the night, then I didn’t do my job.”

“Do I look whimsical enough for puns?”

“Disturbingly cute in a kind of kinky way?”

“Hmm. Okay. If this mentor-protege thing is going to work out, then you have to respect my caffeinated process.”

“I knew you were using a tough-love approach with me.”

“It’s okay, dude. I’m no stranger to dark dad humor.”

“But I don’t want to talk about my dad. I’m saving that for a future therapy session.”

“(Name), are you kidding me? We’re going to have a mother fucking stakeout.”

“Um, I don’t really have a type. It’s more of just a vibe.”

I care. I care. I was just trying to be nice and ask questions. So- Not that good at that, though.”

“Kinda weird that we co-parented but never kissed before, huh?”

“Wow. I guess the promiscuous gene skips a generation.”

“Did you know that squirrels remember every single person they’ve ever seen?”

“We’re playing Seven Minutes in the Hotel Bathroom. And it’s a tried tradition.”

“Oh, wow. Another random animal fact. So soon?”

“Damn. We are bad at the small talk thing.”

“The stupid vending machine won’t give me my food.”

“Why don’t you want to kiss me? Why does nobody want to kiss me?”

“This is the stuff that dreams are made of but, also, nightmares if you are not in the top three.”

“No. It’s fine. It’s just a kiss, right?”

“Every time I try to make new friends or do my own thing, people always think of you first.”

“But everything I do is always overshadowed by you, (Name). I needed something that was mine.”

“How am I supposed to help you if you don’t tell me anything?”

“Having feelings is evil.”

“When you get flustered, I get flustered ‘cause I think it’s the stupidest, cutest thing I’ve ever seen.”

“You don’t get to choose who you fall for, believe me, I get it.”

“And, um, tell your mom I say… hi.”

“No, I feel like I’m playing Pictionary with an infant.”

“You look like a serial killer. Change your eyes.”

“Great. It’s a coup.”

“It really hasn’t been the easiest thing. I haven’t slept in twenty-four hours, but you get the idea.”

“That’s the face I’ve been looking for, looking like a bunch of wenches.”

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∟ Aubin Wise & Elizabeth Mitchell flirting over Instagram live

“I could literally just like, I could just sit here and look at you. Is that weird?” “I feel the same way. Just dive right in.”

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THE    FIVE    SENSES     /      SENTENCE    STARTERS  .

some   may   be   nsfw   and   /   or   be   triggering.   

01    :     TOUCH .

❝ i love this [ FABRIC ], it feels satisfying. ❞

❝ your touch. it leaves me breathless. ❞

❝ your touch is unlike any other. ❞

​❝ have you ever felt anything more comfortable? ❞

❝ feel this. what does it feel like to you? ❞

❝ i wanted to see what it felt like. ❞

​❝ touch it. i dare you. ❞

​❝ you felt ice cold when i touched you. ❞

​❝ you feel warm to me. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of [ FABRIC ] against my skin. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of your skin against mine. ❞

​❝ i would never touch anyone else. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of your hair between each of my fingers. ❞

​❝ don’t you dare touch me. ❞

​❝ i want to feel your lips against my own. ❞

​❝ i can feel your pulse. it jumped. ❞

​❝ let me give you a massage. ❞

❝ you feel like home to me. ❞ 

02     :      TASTE .

❝ i love the taste of you. ❞

❝ i can never forget that taste. ❞

❝ fair warning, it does have a bitter taste. ❞

​❝ no offense, you just aren’t my taste. ❞

❝ can i have a taste of that? ❞

❝ i have yearned for the taste of your lips. ❞

​❝ that tasted pretty good actually. ❞

​❝ it just left a really bad taste in my mouth so no thanks. ❞

​❝ nothing taste better than chocolate. ❞

​❝ i’ve got something you might want to taste. ❞

​❝ i will forever savor that taste. ❞

​❝ blood has such a metallic taste. ❞

​❝ my taste buds are mad at me after eating that. ❞

​❝ how’s it feel to get a taste of your own medicine? ❞

​❝ you didn’t even taste it. ❞

​❝ trust me, you’ll want to taste this. ❞

​❝ i think it has a bit of bitter sweet taste. ❞

❝ so you tasted it, did you like it? ❞

03     :      SIGHT .

❝ i see you. ❞

❝ i’ve never seen things so clearer than i do now. ❞

❝ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❞

​❝ how can you see anything? it’s pitch dark. ❞

❝ i’ve looked close enough and i see you for what you are. ❞

❝ please, just look at me. ❞

​❝ stop staring at me like that. ❞

​❝ get that light out of my face. ❞

​❝ it’s so bright outside today. ❞

​❝ what’s wrong? what did you see? ❞

​❝ you’re scared, you must have saw something. ❞

​❝ what i saw, you’ll never believe me. ❞

​❝ i’ve never seen you before. ❞

​❝ have we seen one another before? ❞

​❝ you see me for what i truly am. ❞

​❝ i didn’t see anything. ❞

​❝ did you see that? ❞

❝ i can’t believe my eyes. ❞

04     :      SOUND .

❝ shhh, i just heard something. ❞

❝ did you hear that? ❞

❝ what is that sound? ❞

​❝ i missed the sound of your voice. ❞

❝ do you hear me? stay away from me. ❞

❝ i hear you, loud and clear. ❞

​❝ i’m sorry, what was that? i didn’t hear you. ❞

​❝ i’ve heard that sound before. ❞

​❝ you didn’t hear anything at all? ❞

​❝ can you hear what they’re saying? ❞

​❝ aw, i love the sound of music. ❞

​❝ i never said i could hear them. ❞

​❝ wait, hear that? something is coming. ❞

​❝ i could hear screams … ❞

​❝ i heard you all the way upstairs. ❞

​❝ you didn’t just hear that? that sound? that noise? ❞

​❝ trust me, you’re going to want to hear this. ❞

❝ please, just hear me out. ❞

05     :      SMELL .

❝ what is that smell? ❞

❝ i have missed your smell. ❞

❝ you smell nice. ❞

​❝ it’s unlike anything i’ve smelled before. ❞

❝ i smell the food cooking from here. ❞

❝ do you smell that? ❞

​❝ how are you able to smell that? ❞

​❝ no offense but it really smells. ❞

​❝ it’s starting to smell. ❞

​❝ tell me, you’ve smelled this before. ❞

​❝ i know that smell, it’s the smell of lies. ❞

​❝ i can smell you from here. ❞

​❝ are you smelling me? ❞

​❝ i missed the smell of your hair. ❞

​❝ i need to step away, get some fresh air. ❞

​❝ do you smell that? that’s the smell of freedom. ❞

​❝ i could never erase your smell. ❞

❝ i can smell the fear on you from here. ❞

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MELLIE   /   @nightsung​​:

around the pieces that shatter it’s a surety that a hard shell will form,   that she’ll be protected from the pain and shielded from whatever fallout is on its way.  typically it’s self-inflicted to some degree,  but in this case especially?  fuck,  in this case mellie’s certain her self destruction will come with a fury that’s rarely  —  if ever  —  been seen before.

and she hates it.  so,  the shell forming is met with heavy resistance as she pulls in a deep breath and takes a step closer.  

what does she have to lose in taking one more swing at fixing this?  mellie has to try to fix this,  the idea of withstanding another heartbreak is really just unfathomable right now.  she just can’t do it.

“you don’t get to decide what i’m better off with or without,”   words are firm,  matched with a scowl as she takes a step closer,   “olivia,  i swear to god,  i’m exhausted.  i’m so fucking exhausted because people just keep deciding things for me.  they decide how i feel,  they decide how i’m thinking,  they…  they decide who i love.”   mellie grows quieter as she presses forward,  emotion weaving through her words like vines of ivy growing too rapidly and too aggressively to stop.   

“you didn’t want to hurt me?  do you even hear yourself right now, liv?  do you…”   mellie paces in a circle,  eyes shutting as she comes to stand still again,   “do you have a single clue how much i…  i…”

“i love you,  liv.  i…  i can’t explain it,  but i’m certain it’s true and i don’t know what i’d do if you didn’t…  if you didn’t at least give me a chance here,”   anguish extends to her voice as one last push is made in a battle she hopes so desperately to win,  as mellie’s certain she genuinely feels her heart hanging precariously off the edge of a cliff.  the question now…  will olivia come to rescue it or will she let it fall?  

there it was,  out in the open.

what olivia had been avoiding,  not because she didn’t have feelings for the woman across from her,  they were inescapable with how long it had been.  a kiss was all that she needed to confirm that what she felt for mellie wasn’t something that would disappear,  that it went beyond lust.  

there was little that olivia feared in this world after all that she had been through,  and it’s here that there’s a reminder that she’s not immune to it.  in all the forms fear takes,  it’s the idea of someone loving her that terrifies her  --  she’s seen what it’s done to her parents,  how senseless it’s made fitz act in the past.  there’s a small part of her that wants to leave the situation and avoid this altogether and she can’t.

she can’t leave this with mellie in pieces when she’s the one that brought it up,  brought up everything that could be if she could let go of the pressures of what mellie could lose for this.  

❛  i’ve always protected you,  that’s why i’m doing this.  i want you to have what you’ve given up everything for.  you can’t be that blind,  mellie. ❜  and anything even slightly immoral would have her thrown out of the oval,  no matter how much change had been made over the years,  it wasn’t enough.  there were steps that had to be taken,  one as big as this wasn’t one that the country was ready for.

her breathing is shallow with the confession and mellie’s eyes on hers,  and she takes the step forward and then another until her face is mere inches from the president’s.  ❛  i wouldn’t do this for someone i didn’t... love, mellie.  you may not see it now,  but i don’t want to be something you’ll regret. where you’re at now comes once. ❜

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@nightsung​​​ said:   ❛ you frustrate me incredibly. ❜   mellivia again pls

olivia doubts that she’s the most frustrating thing   at this school and she has to hold back the urge to roll her eyes for that reason.  when she wanders over to the side of evil, there’s no penalties on her end and since she knows when the guards are gone,  she doubts mellie will face any potential consequences.  “for being a never,  you’re a terrible liar.”  there was no rational explanation of why she’d come to see mellie other than the fact that the evers didn’t seem to care about anything beyond the surface level and the never that sat across from her had more wits about her than anyone on the other side.  “If they’d let us trade,  i would,  i never fantasized about being a princess.  I don’t know why you would. you’re better off on that side,  focusing on what matters.”

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@nightsung​​​ said: ❛ it’s pathetic really, how much i hope it’s me and you in the end. ❜   mellivia in the aU

they’ve been pinned against each other   since the moment they were brought to the academy,  never to cross the other side and yet here they were,  years later unable to stop hoping that things could change.  olivia shakes her head, has to swallow the lump in her throat,  “it’s not  –  it’s just not fair here.  i think about it every now and then,  that they brought us both here for a reason and you’re the only part that’s ever made sense to me.”  the truth was,  olivia thought that maybe breaking the rule between the evers and the nevers would be enough to have their own story.  “you are anything but pathetic,  don’t let the side they put you on make you believe that.”  

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𝐌𝐈𝐃𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒  ( 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 )

part one of prompts pulled from taylor swift’s newest album, midnights. a few prompts might have been split up to make more sense in a rp sense, but most remain unchanged. enjoy <3

𝐋𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐀𝐙𝐄

meet me at midnight.

you don’t ever say too much.

you don’t really read into my melancholia.

i’ve been under scrutiny.

you handle it beautifully.

all this shit is new to me.

i’m damned if i do give a damn what people say.

all they keep asking me is if i’m gonna be your bride.

the only kinda girl they see is a one-night or a wife.

they’re bringing up my history, but you weren’t even listening.

you weren’t even listening.

talk your talk and go viral.

i just need this love spiral

get it off your chest

get it off my desk.

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐍

we lost track of time again

how’d we end up on the floor, anyway?

i see you every day now.

how the hell did we lose sight of us again?

ain’t that the way shit always ends?

i lost you.

that’s a real fucking legacy to leave.

𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈-𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐎

i have this thing where i get older, but just never wiser.

my depression works the graveyard shift.

i should not be left to my own devices.

i end up in crisis.

i wake up screaming from dreaming.

it’s me… hi.

i’m the problem, it’s me.

i’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror.

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero.

did you hear my covert narcissism i disguise as altruism?

one day i’ll watch as you’re leaving, and life will lose all its meaning.

i have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money.

she thinks i left them in the will.

𝐒𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇

life is emotionally abusive.

time can’t stop me quite like you did.

my flight was awful, thanks for asking.

i’m unglued, thanks to you.

it’s like snow at the beach: weird, but fuckin’ beautiful.

you wanting me tonight feels impossible.

this scene feels like what i once saw on a screen.

i’ve never seen someone lit from within.

to hide that would be so dishonest.

it’s fine to fake it till you make it.

i don’t even dare to wish it

can this be a real thing? can it?

𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐎𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐎𝐖𝐍, 𝐊𝐈𝐃

i play it cool with the best of them.

he’s gonna notice me.

it’s okay, we’re the best of friends.

i didn’t choose this town. i dream of getting out.

there’s just one who could make me stay.

i waited ages to see you there.

i picked the petals… he loves me not.

i play my songs in the parking lot.

i’ll run away.

i gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this.

the jokes weren’t funny.

i took the money

my friends from home don’t know what to say.

everything you lose is a step you take.

you’ve got no reason to be afraid.

you’re on your own, kid. you always have been.

you’re on your own.

you can face this.