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[geekwithfangs]

The waves of those memories, each kiss, each glance, how easy it was to fall back into that love. Last night felt simple, Simon had his music, the words flowed out of him, Izzy was there; the girl he was head over heels for. But simon didn’t like feeling invisible, he didn’t like feeling weak, and of course he understands the clave has rules. They tried to wipe my memories once. They tried to ban me from the institution, but despite the spells, the runes Simon was able to see, he had the sight, as to how? The boy was clueless. Last night he was on a high until he witnessed the brunette walking away from him. And it stung like hell. Because he does love Izzy, and he lost her once. He allowed his loyalty to Clary to come between us; and it felt like a miracle to see her; to smile at the sight of Izzy again. 

But he was pig headed last night. He was an idiot, and as the dust settled upon the demons, the fight he needed saving on, he did listen. And he felt like a idiot, a fool, especially when I felt the brush of her fingers on the stain of blood on my forehead. Hues tracking her hand, as he felt nervous, a nerve in his stomach. His words came out in more of a whisper. “ I’m sorry. I didn’t want to listen, I know you’re way out of league and I know that doesn’t justify how I acted. I know how important family is Izzy. I know you’d do anything for those you love, and I want you to be safe. I worry about you, and Clary. I just don’t want to be left behind. There’s this whole other world in your lives, the demons, the stakes. A badass hero, And I’m just me, a musician barely making it by, I’m kinda a nerd if you haven’t noticed..” A short laugh on his lips, but he smiled truly because for the first time he was listening, and being honest almost vulnerable with her. “ I love you, and maybe now isn’t our time, but I know what’s in my heart is real. And someday we’ll figure it out.” The institution, the risks of us, of the clave, my pending tour which is why I was saying the timing was wrong, maybe by the time I return my pride won’t be wounded, I’d be comfortable in my own skin. He held her gaze, and he lifted a hand to her cheek, a tender caress of his fingers. “ Don’t forget about me okay.” 

Now if Izzy did, he’d forgive her; as we established she was way out of his league.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon had no idea how his fair share of humor was gonna go. He was trying to lighten the mood. Simon knows last night got heated. It was supposed to be the best night of his life. He performed, he played to a real audience, he was fantastic. And Izzy was there’ the girl he loved. And due to some miracle he had the ability to regain his memories. He had the ability to have the sight; regardless of how far the clave went to ban me. And yeah Izzy and I had reached an impasse, and maybe Simon overreacted. 

And Izzy saved me, reminding himself he was far from a hero. He could be seen as a whiner, he could scream, but he did try to fight which was a proud moment for himself. He didn’t think this talk with the brunette was heading in the right direction. He stood like a lost dog as he was honest with her; and he also knew Izzy she was far from filtered she was gonna tell you how it was. And he listened swallowing that small lump in his throat. As he faced her; and he nodded, knowing she meant every word. “ Iz..” He started as he stood awkwardly because he wanted to reach for her; he wanted to hold her hand but last night; she was the one who walked away; she decided how I felt wasn’t a discussion and maybe I had invalidated how she felt; unintentionally so. 

“ I can admit maybe I came too hard about the clave, I just don’t want secrets or to feel like I’m this second resort to the clave, they kicked me out of this secret once Iz, and through some miracle I see you, I remember you, I remember us, and it’s a blessing. But I don’t think either of us convented what we wanted last night. I would never intentionally put you or your family in harms way, and I am sorry if you felt I did. I care about you, And I love you, and I know I shouldn’t say it but I do. I do understand where you were coming from last night.” Simon was real and soft when he said it; because he meant it. And even if our eyes didn’t meet now and he was shifting awkwardly from one foot to the other; he cared when it counted. 

“ I’m sorry, and I know if I need you I’ll call, and I may not be a hero or can barely hold a pipe to help you but I will always go to bat for you Izzy when it counts.” A short laugh because he laughs when he was feeling lamely stupid now. But the ball was in her court.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

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[geekwithfangs]

Simon liked to believe he had grown up. He wasn’t the terrified kid anymore, a whim that tended to squirm at any insect, that tended to make him sick to his stomach was the horror movies, the news. But Simon wanted to be brave, he was no whim and when he said those words last night he meant it. He wanted to be a partner, an ally for Izzy. And given the circumstances now; the man probably looked like a fool, an idiot because he needed help. He had to seek out Clary and the shadowhunters; because how does a mundane handle a demon? Pipe? A scream? Give or take, he was swearing to himself as he silently felt the rumble shift from under him. 

The fighting, the holding of a pipe for a weapon it all gave him whiplash now, as he tried to come to terms of the scenes, the demons Clary with her sword, Jace with his, Alec which he watched whip an arrow into the head of a demon it ran right by my face meaning if Alec had missed he probably would have cared less if I had been hit in the crossfire. I wasn’t necessary liked within the group her family at the clave, as a shadowhunter, and I was the one swallowing thickly now. Feet wobbly as I attempted to get my own barings as I stood to my feet. It was all a blur, and I glanced to the closed doors to the offices the record office, was this a lie? A ploy to get me and my friends here; the band? Was the offer not real? His eyes squinted together as he eyed the door. If it was real; Simon had a meeting but for a brief second all he thought about was Izzy, he wanted to try to thank her before she caught the nerve to laugh in his face. His eyes were soulful, apologetic and he noted a thumps up from Clary, as she eyed izzy turning to face him. He stood from foot to foot awkwardly knowing this ball was in his court, and he might have to thread neatly. His eyes met her own as he coughed up the words that sounded perfectly normal. “ Yeah, I’m okay.” A short pause, the kindness in him wanted to ask her if she was fine, but let’s be honest Izzy was perfect, she was a fierce badass who knocked those demons out, ultimately saving my life. 

“ I know you don’t want to hear this, but thank you, and I’m sorry if I had hurt you. Clearly I may want to handle myself, but In this case I needed backup. Thank you for not leaving me for dead.” A low humor dryly of course. “ I mean I wouldn’t of blamed you if you did.” Last night heavily on my mind, I still had feelings about being hidden from the clave and now wasn’t that time nor place, plus assuming this meeting was real, I’d be out of town for a bit; which meant be necessary to give us clarity on what the importance of making this work was..

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Fear it rose inside of him. Simon had been pro he had changed, he was stronger he wasn’t afraid like he once was. But he swore Izzy was probably going to roll her eyes at him now. Because he was high and mighty last night; when he claimed he didn’t need her protection he could handle the means of the shadow world. But now as his back hit the pavement, he wanted to move. He eyed the demon that was about to come out for blood, the shed that was his skin. Instead his hands moved against the pavement preparing to quickly stand to his feet when he heard the shadowhunters; he heard the voices of Clary, and his eyes met hers for a second. 

Before izzy was the one to shield him, from the demon that threaten to eat him whole. And now as he was beginning to stand. He felt wobbly on his feet. He was scared. And the words I’m sorry hung on his tongue. But he watched in horror as the demons came for him and Izzy used her whip so well while her brother who probably wanted to watch him die on the floor used his arrows to eat the demons alive. And I felt like I was witnessing whiplash all in one. 

“ I’m sorry.” The words were whispers as he reached down to a stick and a pipe honestly it was all a blur in his mind. As he aimed and he hit the one demon in the stomach before it evaporates in thin air. And Simon was the one to be stunned and he stood with shaky palms. He faced Izzy as he was sure he ended up getting the last demon. “ Izzy..” Her name on his tongue now. Because what could he say, he was an idiot a fool, and now he was graveling back, because he was guilty; the clave he still had feelings but he was grateful, and wanted to ensure the brunette was okay.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Nervous; Simon could feel his insides turns. He was prepared to give a brief presentation of his band, the music we believed in, Confidence in my mind; yet the second Simon laid eyes on this appeared human; he felt like he was about to be eaten alive. And yes Simon knew he held a large bargain now; his whole take care of himself attitude but he asked Clary for help, he had limited time to explain. But he knew if this demon was someone who wanted blood, to kill he was danger. Simon felt stone cold now. Because how does he compete against this world.. He had his fist curled up now, his bandmates at the door glancing at him as if asking “ What the hell get over here” But I couldn’t move an inch, I knew I was being pulled in, to the downworlders. 

I was going to fight, but I glanced around the streets for any kind of weapon to fight, a sharp object. This man was hold a briefcase, he had glasses on similar to my own. But I felt fear, I knew Izzy would probably be rolling her eyes at me now. Clary I believed in, if i asked for help she’d work Jace, to get them those shadowhunters here. As I swallowed thickly now, I stepped forward avoiding eye contact. And I was the one to walk by; when the demon turned their head angling me now. And I said a mumble of a “ I’m just heading inside.” And I said it with ease which surprised me, before The demon had opened their mouth and wings came out? The monster inside, and I jumped and I made a line to run. I ran with both feet until I was the one to fall over the curb. Where was Clary? Of course Jace and Alec could care less both probably wanted my ass dead, which felt justified now.. As I fell my glasses fell off, and my body hit the pavement my eyes grew big in fear. I barely heard Clary and the others make an appearance, and I screamed.. 

As if my ability depended on it.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Tonight definitely didn’t not go according to plan. And Perhaps half it was my fault, but Simon wasn’t the old him, the pushover, the one who takes direct orders without asking why he was doing the action. He understood where Izzy was coming from, despite him not expressing the acceptance to her. The heat of the moment; blame it on Simon getting in his head. But Simon never wanted to put Izzy and her family in danger; he obviously loved her. But he also felt very insecure as to why Izzy would love him, bat two eyes at him given her fierce behavior, she could kill with one whip. And she could have any boy in the city; yet she loved me. And perhaps he didn’t deem himself worthy of her. 

He word vomited, and probably came across as selfish, he wanted to be included, he never wanted to feel like the dork being on the outside looking in again. And he knows Izzy cared, but our priorities felt torn, even tonight with the long hours of writing, the last message he sent was to Clary, he wouldn’t skip town without including her. She was his best friend, the constant for him. And Izzy, all we had left was the words I wrote about her; the words I expressed in song, not that I expected to hear from the brunette again. I felt like I horribly torn down that bridge. 

Once I had laid my head across the pillow for shut eye, I was out like a light. Simon was exhausted from the excitement of the day, of the brief blissful time he did have with Izzy before it went to hell, and that was describing it light. He slept for hours before he heard the alarm go off on his phone, forcing his eyelids to open now, and he reached his hand along the sheets to shut up his phone, as he pulled himself together; to stand, he knew he was limited on time. 

During the 15 minutes he did his morning route teeth brushed, changed into a plaid shirt and jeans, causal look, and he had replied to Clary, promising to let her know how the meeting goes. He took a quick portion bar and he was on his way; the van, of his magical van he pulled himself in; and when he arrived to the record office, his bandmates were standing outside, and he was quick to turn the engine off; and he found himself walking inside; to the curb that was until someone felt off, bystanders, walking by and I noticed the glow of eyes, eyes that turned purple; swallowing thickly, he sneakily dug his hand into his pocket and aimlessly texted Clary. “ Help at the records.” The one studio in town, and I swear I was made because the damon in human formed stopped froze in motion I swear looking me dead in the eye. 

Danger, was fearless Simon prepared to fight for his life?

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

A tour; a manager? It was everything Simon as a musician would have dreamed about. His words, his lyrics meant something; all formed from the heart. The rest of the night felt dull for Simon because he wasn’t in a cheery mood not after the define split from Izzy, and it would be easy to say our worlds simply couldn’t co-exist. But were we simply not a good match? Simon was a mundane, he was a dork once upon a time, still was but he did uphold a layer of confidence and was that the part of me she expected me to lack? I knew izzy could kick my ass if she wanted to; her weapons on hand. I was stubborn but I also felt I wasn’t enough even now, and maybe that was a me thing I needed to figure out on my own. Maybe my issue with the lack of being welcomed into her world wasn’t about Izzy or a lack of love to be hidden. Simon had left the bar quickly after the news; knowing he had a broken heart; a song brewing inside of him. He wanted to tell Clary but he suspected she was at the institution as we established I wasn’t welcomed there.. 

I decided I’d shoot her a message before i slept, which at this rate would barely be a wink. Simon had ended up taking the short staircase up to his floor; and he entered his shoe box apartment. He dropped his coat and instruments at the far wall before he dragged his feet to his bedroom, flickering on the lights as he plopped down to his bed. A soft hum continued against his lips as a tune formed, his instincts was to grab a pen and paper as he started to scroll down words “ In the darkest of nights; all I saw was you..” it started before he dug into the pain, it was a rough draft for now. Simon had lost track of the time until he listened to his phone beeping left right and he glanced to the band chat a load of drunken texts being sent his way and he had to roll his eyes; he admired the fun his friends, his band had as they should. Management showed interest I just hoped they hydrated for this meeting tomorrow. We have one shot and i’d be damned if I allowed them to blow it but we stick together no matter how this interest turns out. 

As I reached for my phone, I had scrolled down to the texts from Clary she had asked if I was okay two hours ago, and I didn’t want to dig into the split it made the decisions or lack of one real. And Simon didn’t want to cry feel emotional, so he kept it simple and only about the music. “ Hey, sorry if you’re sleeping, we have a meeting tomorrow for a possible tour with a major company. How exciting, Thank you for coming tonight. Love you Clary.” And then I made an attempt to put my paper of words aside. Pen still in my grasp when I had laid my head on the pillow lights still on and I let my eyes close. 

I hoped in time Izzy and I could find common ground, I just wouldn’t be the boy that goes to the beck and call anymore; I had to feel equal and right now I felt like that nerd from years ago; I wasn’t who I admired to be; and I was starting to realize i had to focus on what I needed in the now; love would find its way in time.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon Lewis wasn’t the type of guy to land the girl, he was considered more the type of fall short, or to in this case have the girl of his dreams and blow it. In this case; he personally just felt neither of them were willing to compromise for the other. On Simon’s part he wasn’t the fragile boy that needed saving. He had the sight; he was given a gift to be a part of Clary’s world along with Izzy’s and as he let that reality set in him. He assumed Izzy and himself would be happy bask  in that joy, to be together again. And for Izzy I didn’t blame her for fighting against my instance that we’d be hidden. In my eyes I wanted to be included, I didn’t want to feel like a ghost in her world. 

Believe it or not I may have changed, I wasn’t a foot post to stand still, to act like I was okay with whatever Clary and the team wanted. I couldn’t stand the idea of Izzy being in danger and I couldn’t help. Yes I was well aware of how brave, fearless she was. She saved my ass how many times. But the point was I wanted to help, and if my response wasn’t what the brunette desired or expected I felt guilty on that part. I understood she wanted to protect her family, the clave had rules and for some belief I was able to see the sight, my memories that had once been wiped now heavily on my mind.  But at what cost? I was just fine a year ago, being stuck in my basement, strumming the cords of a guitar. Writing down aimless lysis to a song i never intended to release. I was a dork, a loser but I was content. But now that I knew about Isabelle, I couldn’t shake the notion of loving her. As I stood on the padded grass under my shoes, I was defeated as I watched the female disappear from sight. Heart aching, I had no idea if we were written in the stars, if this was simply a pause for us. 

Feeling the dab of wetness on my cheers; the male used the back of his palm to wipe away the stray tears. With hollowness, he made his way from the park and back to the main street. The strip of buildings, the heard excitement as party goers, had left and entered the main building, the bar, and that’s when I heard my name being called, It was one of my bandmates as he was obviously drunk but he wore excitement on his face. His hands grabbed my shoulders as my eyes went wide. “ A tour, a manager that wanted to meet with us tomorrow morning, and I swore my heart stopped in a speed of light; I swore my thoughts paused. 

Baring heartbreak, the only person I wanted to tell I couldn’t, all I had was a excitement with myself, embarking on a new chapter one outside of the city.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon may not understand fully the exceptions the weight of the choices that Clary made, that now chose the sacrifices Izzy and her family had to endure. But Simon was human he wasn’t expected to know the ins and outs of the clave or her family. He felt defeatless, he felt like his hands were tired here. He wanted to be the man Izzy needed; the guy that said it was okay. The guy that said he was okay with her family not knowing about him, about the harbored love he had for her. But he wasn’t. Not because he didn’t see her point of view; but because he vaguely recalled the shadowed world. It felt new; to him. Lost memories now starting to resurface on their own. 

He loves Izzy, he wants to be with her. But this obstacle felt permanent, it felt like our hearts ached like it was impossible to solve on our own. “ I know you will.” What was I suppose to say? I knew Izzy, the memories I had of us, of her she’d sacrifice it all for those she loves. Its one of the qualities I loved most about her. The lengths she went for her family, and no I couldn’t stand in her way. I had to put her first and my future; and with the response the band held tonight; I knew my phone would be going off the hook tomorrow, a tour, a list of dates we’d be required to play. And as much as my chest ached; I knew space and time was what I needed, to regroup to figure out if Iz and I were worth it. If our two worlds were capable of moving forward together. Standing on the balls of my feet I held her gaze, as my lips made a slight frown before forced into a light smile. It was us; we found a way once; who’s to say a third chance wasn’t in the cards? 

“ Take care.” I uttered as I savored the touch of her lips to my cheek, as I let my eyes close briefly until she was a safe distance away; before I uttered those words. “ I’ll miss you too.” I knew I would, I’d dream of her, I’d wish our lives were different. But sometimes the powers of the shadow world held the cards. Kicking my feet to the ground, I leaned down to gather my coat; it was over for now.. Not forever.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon Lewis once had been the scaredy cat, he’d been the one to stand on the sidelines, the shadows and when he did fight back it was more so for the benefit of Clary. She was his backbone, which is probably what landed him in this predicament. Why Simon was tried of feeling like the boy of dismal. He wasn’t strong, the only ability he felt now was standing his own ground. Don’t get him wrong he did understand where Izzy was standing her own ground. He would never do anything to hurt her or her family, but he just wasn’t okay with standing to the side and pretending. Pretending he was okay with the clave not knowing about the fail of the wipe, and being a secret. After all Alec and Jace already felt like he was a joke. And yes he understood there was a difference. 

But Simon felt the need to stand his own. He wanted to protect Izzy, but also not be afraid to risk it all for her. Apparently by wanting to stand his ground it was only resulting in the male letting her slip right through his fingers. He understood her side, even if Izzy was hellbend on not understanding where he was coming from. It felt like all we were doing now was rolling back and forth in circles. Stubbornness, hard headed just you name it. 

Shoulders falling in defeat, the male stood in his spot. Eyes casted down to the grass that was high tingling the edges of his ankles. And he was torn, he wanted to scream, to keep fighting rather than losing her. But the odds, impasse either of us were willing to break. “ Never stopped anyone before. Even before I was a vampire I was around the institution, I know with all your dismays cause no one approved of it, but Clary made sure I was allowed, and yeah I know it’s ultimately how I turned got caught in the crossfire. But rules are broken, and believe it or not I don’t want you to get hurt or your family. I do understand where you’re coming from Iz..” He aired out with the defeat weighted into his tone. Simon didn’t know the answer. His heart was breaking, but so was hers. We found ourselves once. We fell in love against all the odds. And Simon knew the position, the time lost between us was his fault, and maybe a part of the brunette was holding the sacrifice he made once against him. But should it be this hard? To love, to have a relationship? 

Crossroads spinning in my head. He heard the question and for the first time, Simon wasn’t going to fight. He wasn’t going to beg her to stay; we fought back and forth for a day now, love was here. He was in love with Iz, but the obstacles were present, ones that felt unshakable. Simon didn’t move as he echoed the words that forced his chest to ache. “ If that’s what you want, Maybe too much has happened, I’m sure we’ll be going on tour soon anyways..” Defeatedness in my voice, as I pulled shoulders down, eyes to the ground; and both hearts broke; both hoping for an option but perhaps the love ran its course; it wasn’t meant to be.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

In any case Simon Lewis used to be the man that would constantly bend over backwards for anyone. He had no issues admitting when he was wrong. Admitting when he needed to apologize. But in this case he didn’t necessarily feel like he was wrong. Yeah maybe he was being stubborn but so was Izzy. Yes he wanted to be out in the open their relationship, he once sacrificed everything for Clary because she’s his best friend. And maybe Simon in the last few years of having his memories wiped, of having his own identity change maybe he wasn’t the same weak boy he was. Was he necessarily trying to prove a point to Izzy and her family? No yes he mentioned balls but it was more of a means of stating he wasn’t afraid of consequences if it meant being with her. He had no interest in being a secret from the clave. But apparently nothing he said went through her head. She wanted to be right; she wanted to put him in his palace. 

Naive boy he once was; normally this would be the place where he’d unfold his arms, where he’d be the one to apologize and beg for forgiveness. But he wasn’t wrong. Yeah she was perhaps compromising with him with being public but that wasn’t the point. Simon didn’t want to feel like he was living two worlds. One where he was allow to be with Izzy and the other where he was forced to act like he didn’t have an option. Maybe it was selfish, maybe he was wrong but in this moment he wasn’t okay with being told off. Because hell all knows if Simon even began to talk to Izzy in that conceding tone he’d be the one with a slap across his face or worse a whip considering that was her weapon of choice. 

Shaking his head strongly as he bit down on his lip as he debated his next course of action. “ No, Yes I have more guts in me now. I’m not the guy who needed you to save me, and sometimes maybe that’s all I’ll be to you. I’m a mundane, Until this morning I had no idea my mind was wiped, No idea who you were to me. And now that i do I don’t want to hide in the shadows. I want to be able to stand by your side. I want to be able to help you, is that so wrong? I’m not clueless, I’m not someone who can be pushed around to get their way. “ He nearly huffed off the words; He changed, But he was more aware of how he was spoken to, how he was seen as weak, and with Izzy he never wanted to be weak, he wanted to help her. But it was like she didn’t even care his point of view. ‘ I understand you think you need to protect me, And I understand it puts you and your family in a terrible position. But what’s the plan then for the future? If I were to be okay with this arrangement? You hide me from the shadow world for the rest of our lives? “ Not admitting Simon was caving but it was an honest question one that now swirled into the back of his mind. He loved Izzy but maybe our history, our families where our souls belonged just didn’t work, or match up with the other. Love wasn’t enough; our stubborn minds, Simon wasn’t an awful person even if Izzy wanted to paint himself out to be in this moment. 

Shaking his head he dropped palms to his sides as fingers dug into the pockets of his coat, a longing to be loved, to be seen shattered in a blink of an eye.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon wasn’t naive or stupid. He had the memories to prove all the times he was scared of the shadow world. All the times before he grew a pair of fangs to prove he could handle the world. He used to jump at every movement, the crackle of feet, the jingling of chains. He used to be a scary cat, but he had this new found confidence in himself; maybe it was the way tonights show went; the cheers of approval to his sound, to the band. But Simon wasn’t afraid. Granted he never wanted to end up on the wrong side of Izzy’s wrath, but at the same time he wasn’t the fool to bend over backwards. He once was the fool that was concerned Clary’s lapdog; who he allowed to be barked orders at. And yeah he understood the sense of consequence, he knew what the clave was capable of. Obviously he was the result of the consequence the first time. 

His mind was whipped, the vampire that he was; the strength he once had was gone. And of course he never wanted harm to come towards Izzy; he loves her. But he also wasn’t okay with being invisible, living a secret life. He wanted normal, he wanted to meet her family again, he wanted to hold her hand, he wanted the dates. But he felt like she was only okay with seeing him in secret, and yeah maybe Simon was being unreasonable, not willing to budge here. But at the same time; she was stubborn and was probably used to me caving in without a care in the world. 

But Simon wasn’t the same person he was when we first fell in love. He grew up; he went to school, he had passions with music. He didn’t want to be the lapdog; who does what he’s told, did he feel guilty for upsetting the brunette? Yes of course especially when he heard her  lift herself up onto her feet. “ Don’t be like that Iz..” He started with a huff of his own. Simon quickly stood up onto the balls of his feet. And he knew he was seconds from saying goodbye to Izzy yet again. Love that consumes us; was it enough? 

“ It sure seems like its your way or no way either here. I’m not the same scared idiot you fell for, I have a pair of balls now, I’m not scared to stand up to them, ANd maybe that’s selfish. But unlike you I’d risk it all for you.” Saying the words he meant it; he wasn’t trying to insult the stakes because he did understand, he’d never forgive himself if anything were to happen to her because of him, but he also didn’t want to live a lie, somehow he just hoped the brunette may be willing to meet him halfway, but given the gravity pace she was racing from where he stood the chances were slim. 

“ I don’t need protecting, I’m not the fragile boy you once knew.” And maybe that was the real problem I had changed I didn’t need saving, I wasn’t weak on my own anymore. He mumbled more so under his breath, he didn’t like how this ended; but maybe the more you fight for love it crumbles around you.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon Lewis wasn’t looking for a fight especially with her. But he also wasn’t okay with hiding. His memories returned due to a miracle. His memories of us; of the love we shared; the memory wipe. He had the sight and he was a mundane. Did it mean he was special? Destined to be involved in the shadow world? Maybe. He knew what Izzy was going to say before it was aired out. Our relationship wasn’t a secret. She wanted to be seen with me, she wanted to date me, but when it came to the shadow world; I was invisible. And no Simon wasn’t trying to be difficult or unreasonable here. 

He understood the risk; the clave whipped his memories once on behalf of Clary and her mistakes, and if word got around the cleve would be out for blood. If not himself; but those involved in the institution. He never wanted to cause harm to Izzy or her family. But he also didn’t feel like it was fair to be left in the dark. How was he capable of helping on a mission if he was constantly left in the dark. Maybe it was his protectiveness; but he wanted to be involved. He didn’t want to be the secret. 

Licking over bare lips, he kept his frame close enough to her own. His eyes glanced to the sky above us now. He debated his own swirling sets of thoughts. “ I understand Iz..” He started before he forced darken hues to face her own within his embrace now. “ But I’m not afraid of the clave, I don’t think it’s fair you get to be apart of my world the mundane as you put it, but I have to be invisible in yours.” There was a hint of a hurt tone in his voice. But he did try to mask it up. Alec was already breathing down his back; and yeah the clave had the power to make him disappear; to force him gone, but he only cared for Izzy. He didn’t want to be dismayed from her world; and shadow world was a piece of her. Maybe he was being unreasonable now. But the thought was erased from his mind for a second when he listened to her teasing retort about his apartment; letting her cook with him. 

Leaning his head back with a cheeky laugh he leaned back into close enough to press a small kiss to her cheek. “ I don’t know how bad you are at cooking, I want you in my apartment, and I’ll show you the perks of cooking, it’ll be fun.” Just us lingered on his lips. And the male let his eyes drawn down on her beautiful features. “ I missed you.” And he did; the way she made him feel; the love he had for her it was indescribable.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon wasn’t an idiot. He was smart; he had wit. But he also felt uneasy about the fact he had to decide was keeping us on the downlow was okay with himself. He was never good with secrets; if he wanted to show his affection towards someone he was going to. He understood the risk of the clave, what it meant not only for himself but more importantly Izzy; it would compromise her. And truth be told he would never risk her standing with the clave. But he also felt uneasy and didn’t feel okay with being a secret. We’ve lost each other; his memories were already pressed to disappear and through some miracle we found each other again. We had one fight last night that nearly derailed us; and us being together like we were tonight. But Simon wasn’t going to change how he felt. 

He loves Izzy; and he does respect her argument; that it wasn’t safe to be so open with our relationship, but it makes him feel like he isn’t enough for her to be affectionate with. He felt like she was ashamed in some way; despite her reassuring the male that wasn’t the case. It was times like these he’d talk to Clary wanting her perspective; but she was part of the shadow world; she wouldn’t understand no one would. He could’ve pulled back from her; he could’ve put his own walls up again. And be stubborn but he felt neither of us was going to budge here; out of respect and protectiveness for the other. 

Sitting here; his head leaning on his elbow resting under his head. Her touch sent shivers down his spine. Eyes glanced in her direction; masking what he truly felt; hurt. “ I understand the risk, but put yourself in my position Iz.. Would you be okay with being a dirty secret being with someone only behind closed doors? We fought to be here; by a miracle I remember you, us the love we have. I’m not signing up to be a secret think about it from my side please..” Nearly a plead edged into his voice. He wasn’t trying to strong arm the brunette it definitely wasn’t in his nature. He was only asking for her to consider his feelings here. And if she still decide his option was worthless; that was a bridge he’d deal with when the time came. 

Pushing the slight tension out of his mind; the male offered a smile; a memory of her cooking, now he wasn’t about to let her burn his stove; a low chuckle was heard as his fingers trailed lovingly against her wrist. “ My apartment has a strong fire alarm, so I think we’re good, Maybe I’ll even teach you the family favorites. “ Cooking together it felt fun; and who knows maybe we’d invite the gang over; especially if that was the only captivity that we’d be able to be together in.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

Simon Lewis was a people pleaser. He was always seen as the dork. The one that was invisible, he was the sidekick of Clary; for years in middle school and high school. He wore glasses; he was the geek. It was rare that anyone spoke two words to him besides his bandmates now, and besides Clary. She tried to loosen him; she tried to show him it was okay to step out of your comfort zone. She was my best friend; even if I felt lost some days. Simon found comfort in writing a song, he was the one who was comfortable with being a home body. But when he met Izzy she was breathtaking; she had that smile that made his breath hitch. He remembered the way he awkwardly stood there; he was out of place. Jace was sending daggers in his direction why? Because Clary wanted him to be a part of her world; of the shadow world. And Jace felt I was only a mundane, and I was. I had no special skill especially now. But through the years I was confident, my brains could help, and yes once upon a time I had fangs; that memory was heavy on my mind. 

I wasn’t the same guy Izzy fell in love with. I wasn’t the same guy. I didn’t hold speed, I didn’t hold the healing powers, I wasn’t a vampire like I was. I was a mundane, I didn’t hold the means to protect her as much as I wanted to. All swirling thoughts; a reminder if what if? What if Izzy would realize this reality tomorrow? Would we still be infinite. Simon didn’t want to hold the fears of being tossed, especially tonight. When he had her laying in the safety of his arms. Again an us; a pure feeling of love and bliss. But I did have to wonder; was I going to become a new found secret? Simon didn’t want to be hidden but when it came to the clave he understood. His ability to break the spell, to be able to break through the memory wipe; he knew it was rare; and he felt that simper land upon his own lips. 

“ Okay don’t call me crazy.” Pausing as lips pursed forward before adding. “ But we can still make memories new ones of us together without the clave knowing. I don’t want to be a secret, I want everyone to know I love you. But for the safety of me, of the future of the institution, maybe we do keep the memory intact a secret..” Just a food for thought; not that the brunette or myself would be okay or happy with the idea. But just until we put our heads together; an idea on how to break that news to the clave.. 

As for my memories now; the male had to laugh a snicker almost at the memory of that night. First time Izzy did cook for him; the memory close to home. His hold did tighten on her smaller frame now. “ You mean when the smoke alarms went off..” He had to conceal the snicker that dared to escape his lips. We had memories of us; the push and pull of our own love. I tried to remember every moment; some blurry and others very heavily on my mind. Brushing lips against her own; the male whispered the words in pure amusement. “ Does that mean I’ll get a repeat of you cooking dinner? Or I can teach you that famous dish of mine..” The meatball and spaghetti special with a secret add in my mom taught me when I was a kid. A smirk hitting the corners of his lips.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.

[geekwithfangs]

So many unanswered questions that looped through his mind. Of course Simon wanted more than anything to shut his rapid thoughts off. Tonight wasn’t about the clave or the consequences that may be thrown my way because of the memory wipe not working. Simon had vague memories; ones that landed up to the day Clary found out who she was. The day she first witnessed the demons; and I thought she was crazy. For seeing a murder that never occurred but I remembered seeing Izzy; she was goddess in her own right. I was attracted to her but at the time I wore glasses; I was a dork in my own right which meant she was way out of my league. But I had to consider what she said regarding the clave, about my vision of sight. I had always been drawn to the shadow world. 

Maybe I was almost meant to be part of it; even if I felt out of place. All that in mind as I tilted my head down to meet her eyes. “ Maybe, But I was a vampire once; I don’t quite understand the rules or how the world trusts people to partake in their shadow world. Clary was destined for it because of her mother; it was in her blood. But me? Why? I have to ask myself why I was made to be part of it.” Confusion laced in his comment. Don’t get Simon wrong he loved the thrill the love he had for the saving the world concept. Along fighting along side Izzy; his doubts wasn’t about Izzy or how he felt about her. It was about him alone; he didn’t feel worthy. But he wanted to set his swirling thoughts at bay for now. It was a gorgeous night; the stars allied above us; the last thing I wanted to think about was the clave and me spiraling out. 

Instead eyes met the brunette’s and I felt like home. The warmth that filled me; the tingling in my hand that was safely wrapped around her. She was the only girl I had eyes for; the only one that made my heart race. I felt the pull; the need to be honest moving forward. I never wanted to be the reason why the female was sad. I made a vow to myself to make her happy; the year apart was torture; I was happy with her. The smile that laid against my lips said as much. “ Are you saying to plan to keep me secret?” Arched brows that pushed together; he loved her but he wasn’t so keen on being a secret she wanted to see behind closed doors even if it was for his own safety. 

Her confession of love took him for a loop; it made the warmth intensify in his chest; he brought a hand to her cheek caressing her skin gently as he lowered his head to hers; brushing his lips against hers as he whispered his reply. “ You do realize guys like me never land a girl like you? You’re way out of my league but I love you, I’ve loved you since the moment you fixed my glasses on  mission.” The bone city; came into view the memory that left me filled with joy.

@geekwithfangs

Well, I don’t recall a time that you’ve managed to get yourself on my bad side yet, so it seems the odds of that happening are unlikely, and therefore, in your favor. {I aired out in a teasing tone; all the while a soft, playful grin laced across my lips. It felt refreshing to be with Simon again. Even more so upon learning that his memories of me and our relationship had returned too. My only disappointment in all of this was a year had gone by since Simon and I were last together like this. We lost a whole year… I’m just relieved that we are back together with one another now. In fact, now that we found our way back to one another, I had no intentions of losing Simon again; even if that means literally whipping Clary into shape, if she opts to break another rule that could take Simon from me. No, it was time for Clary to begin answering for her own mistakes, because so far, the only people who felt the affects and costs from her mistakes were the rest of us. I silently considered as Simon and I made our way toward the destination he had in mind} It’s okay. I assure you, you’re forgiven. I mean, in spite of how perfect and sweet you are, I don’t expect you to remember every outfit I ever wore when you and I were together. {I added with a lingering grin} All that matters is that you remember us. {I genuinely pointed out as we continued the familiar walk toward the park; assuming that’s where Simon was guiding us} You’re not a geek, Simon. A bit of a dork, yes, but an incredibly cute and charming dork… One that I am head over heels in love with. {I said with a doting grin as I leaned in closer to Simon while we walked} All that matters is that fate brought us back together once more. Just so you know, I have no intentions of losing you again though; no matter what, you’re stuck with me, Simon Lewis. {Although a hint of playfulness was in my voice, I did mean every word of that. I was in love with Simon, so naturally I would do everything in my power to avoid the feeling of losing him all over again} You have nothing to worry about, Simon, I won’t let anything happen to either one of us. {I assured Simon as he joined me here on the ground; prompting me to nestle in closer to him while we watched the bright, starlit sky together} Tonight really has been perfect… Here’s to the first of many perfect and unforgettable nights for the two of us.