gemini-with-cancer

[gemini-with-cancer]

[gemini-with-cancer]

Animal Crossing Stimboard

Requested by: @thatxonexticklishxlittle17

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[gemini-with-cancer]

The beginning

When I was little we would sit on the hood of the old Datsun and listen to cassette tapes. You would take me on hikes down the old railroad tracks, exploring our little world around the trailer park. You taught me how to play frisbee, how to catch the large disc between my hands in a sandwich motion. I wanted to spend all my time with you, I thought you were the coolest person that ever existed.

Then I got older, you drank more, and I liked you less. I tried to play computer games with you and like the things you liked, but it wasn't enough. You told me to go to hell one night because I knocked over your beer can. I stopped going in the basement to hang out with you.

I started having panic attacks and you said it was my fault. You told me I was doing it to torture Mom. I was 12. I was scared, and it wasn't my fault, but at the time you made me feel like it really was.

You drank more, you watched porn, you put photo's up of my teenage friends in bikini's on your bulletin board.

Your alternative students with learning disabilities loved you. You helped them learn. You screamed at me at the dinner table because I struggled with math.

It took a long time for me to figure out who I was and that I didn't need your approval.

Got my autism diagnosis at 30, I'm 33 now and I love myself more than I ever have.

Then April 20th happened.