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Dream journal #1

Last night I had a rather weird dream, and if anyone has anything similar, please let me know.

Anyways, so in my dream last night, it started that I was working for this tech company. There were huge computer monitors, that’s not the important part. There was this man there, and this man was tweaker esk, all jittery. He pulls me close, and I don’t feel it, but he had just put a knife through my chest. He pushes me away, I look down, and realize what had just happened with a pool of blood starting to form at my chest. “Please don’t run, please don’t be scared, I didn’t mean to,” he started saying while stuttering and twitching. Of course I didn’t listen to him, he had just stabbed me. I started to run to the other room where my fellow worker were, to get them to help me, but as a ran, the bad man, for a lack of a better name, said, “Don’t run, you’ll bleed out, let me help you!” As I got to the room, blood was pouring, and I fainted. I didn’t even feel my body hit the ground, due to the fact I felt myself leave my body. Next thing I know I’m laying in, what I thought was my room. I get up, and see myself in the window, there’s a reflection of me. I’m completely lucid as if I had just had a bad dream. I leave my room to realize I’m in this hotel type building. I see my ex, Erin, walk by. She tells me she’s going to go drinking with her friends and asked me if I wanted to come. I told her no, because I was getting ready to do something, as I wanted to call my girlfriend. I turn around and go back to the bed. Next thing I know, I wake up again, in my actual room and try and plug in my phone to call my girlfriend. Only the charger is broken. Wires are sticking out of the metal part of the iPhone charger. I think, “this is weird. It usually isn’t like this,” and I realize I’m dreaming. I force myself to wake up because I really want to call my girlfriend. I wake up in my bed once more. I reach for my phone again. Only I pick up a sleek metal tablet. The tablet has weird designs on it, it’s sleek and silver. In the middle of the tablet is an eye. Once I see this eye, I feel a warm embrace, I’m not alarmed. It’s a good feeling. However, this force giving me the embrace, said, in a female voice, said some pretty nasty things about sexual innercourse and said, “I know you remember me,” and then I get uncomfortable and exclaim, “I have the Holy Father, I have Christ,” which lead me to waking up for real. I was on edge about it being real, because the dreams had felt so real. But I finally got to call my girlfriend and she talked me back to sleep.

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I did a thing and my computer wont let the colours look less bright than how they're supposed to be.

Why did this look so much better on my computer than my phone oh my god.

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Is this aesthetic?