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what happens when scores return?

There was all this anticipation about when scores would come in. There was a little fear, and dare I say, a little hope. Now that scores are back, I have facts and numbers. Using just my words I will influence the rest of the decision. That’s some pressure on good words there! I think too all the others applying and maybe the years they have known they wanted to do law. I know I want this and it’s the next step for me but I fear that my guidance may have not have been as well informed. Imagine having people around you connected with their community so that you could access resources. Now imagine being the first one to go through the method of collecting resources. I am the only member of my family, even distant, to pursue law. Among my friends, I am on my own in pursuing this path. While I can sit in a room full of students to take the LSAT or apply for law school, I feel quite alone on this journey and I hate to admit, it makes me more nervous than I’d like.

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I’m terrified

for December 8th. I don’t know how y’all feel but I really do NOT want to go through 4 more months of studying. I am going through a lot personally right now and it’s messing me up a bit. I became someone I didn’t recognize studying everyday and talking down to myself and cutting off connections with my social circles. I am terrified, not because the exam scares me. It’s the place I was in while I studied that does.

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i made a paper chain out of old worksheets or tests and wrote little inspirational things when i only had a month left. i kinda keep forgetting to rip a new one down but i do every few days when i need a little pick me up and it helps to know that past me loves future me and wants to keep encouraging me. just under one week left! ALMOST THERE!

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another reason I wanna do this whole law public policy thing!!

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This is the hardest part

I’m in the last minutes of the race here. I keep scoring 153 or 154 and have for the last 4 PrepTests. There is no new thing to learn, I just need to keep practicing and working but I am running out of time. I’m considering a few hours of tutoring to work on my score but I don’t know how much more I can do. I feel really stressed and my mind has been so so so focused. I want to be better prepared but I never really will be. My body hurts so bad when I wake up and i’m only walking for exercise so I don’t know whats going on. I am really ready for this to be over and at the same time I don't want it to be. 

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did a practice test, we are 15 days out, i’m 10 points away from a score i can live with, crying on the inside for now, SOS

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STUDY WITH ME

me: social person who needs to interact with other

me: wants to work in an environment where I can be social

me: a damn social bee

me: wants to find people to study with!

DM me! I test in November and would love some online study sessions to quiz each other, test together, time together, etc. I WANT STUDY BUDDIES

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discovering that time is everything is so important for the LSAT. it’s best to remember that it’s literally a waste of time to wonder or spend time thinking about things that are not important on the test right in front of you. a good life lesson for those hoping to live in the present, a pain in the ass for overthinkers and the curious.