geyfrog

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how busy are you guys that you can't spend a few days sorting beetles?

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cursed warrior sent a message: bro can i crash at your place tonight cursed warrior sent a message: idk why my name is that i'm not cursed

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At some point somebody superficially sucks enough that it’s on you (on me) for getting into a relationship with them. Like, let’s go through the list here, reverse chronological: they randomly broke up with me without explanation and started dating our mutual friend within six hours, became short-tempered and distant but never actually communicated any dissatisfaction whenever I asked them for anything, I don’t think they complimented me once throughout the course of this relationship, and finally I did literally tell them I didn’t want to be in a formal relationship and that request just got frog-boil ignored. I was looking to end it before they dumped me anyway, I was largely just mad that 1. I didn't get any agency in the choice and 2. our mutual friend also was involved. Things are much better now without the both of those assholes! Just took a little suffering to get there.

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I really can’t think of any part of my life as a low point. I mean there were low points for conceptual satisfaction and animal satisfaction but those two are generally inversely correlated so it’s mostly just been tradeoffs between different kinds of happiness. When I was in high school I was doing fuckall and wasn’t very fulfilled, but I also got to play video games and bake and go out on walks all day, I was fine. And at the points in my life where I’ve been animal-miserable having been dumped and having a high school workload I’ve also felt a deep thrill at having goals and narratives and strong emotions. So there’s no easy point to reacj for as “the lowest”.

Maybe I’ll hit it later! There’s plenty of time. Shoutout to being 20.

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2008-11-17

You’ll be fine OK We’ll make stupid mistakes the thing is to learn from them You seem like a sweet girl Take care

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The oddest recurring beat in sit coms is someone very dramatically breaking up with their partner and then acting hurt and betrayed when they fall into Some sort of rebound relationship- and, specifically, the narrative portraying this as, like, a basically reasonable and justified reaction.

You're the one who ended things!

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very off-putting how judges insist on being referred to as 'your honor.' I don't think the working people of the world consented to rping your public praise kink :/

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Everybody lives two lives at once. You have one life which is the stream of experience and sensation, and so on, the moving moment — immediate pleasure, pain, sadness, anger, comfort and convenience.

And the second life is an aesthetic object, a narrative, which is less bound to any single moment. It is experienced or observed as a whole. Even difficulties add to it, compound its structure and identity.

You can be happy with one life and not the other.

Some pains and inconveniences are sort of "pleasurable", because they're ego-syntonic, they validate the overall narrative of your life and your sense of being a developed person. On the one hand, it's inconvenient for me to be asked to pick up a relative from the airport, but it also recognizes me as an independent person of whom things can be asked, an adult possessed of adult things such as a car, and (most likely to be verbalized) it makes me feel useful. The inconvenience is a necessary component of those things.

I may groan and complain about it, but secretly I enjoy it in a way that doesn't necessarily enter my verbal stream of consciousness and which I might never acknowledge as an element in rational decision-making.

Yes, this is sort of trivial and obvious when you say it like that, but you see a lot of people confused about it in the wild, because it's not a prominent part of their self-awareness. The second life is always somewhat submerged.

I want to emphasize that this isn't just about trivial misfortunes, either, those are just the easiest to talk about.

This explains a number of things: why people pursue goals that are at once intensely personal (i.e., not dictated by the rational pursuit of superordinate political goals) and which do not entail anything conventionally associated with pleasure or happiness, like @max1461's tortured artist.

Importantly, people generally do not take notice of the second life, they think the first one is real and the second sort of notional. Pursuit of the first one is rational and clearheaded and the second sort of wooly, idealistic. When they're aware of it, they're sort of embarrassed about it. They think "this validates my ego" is a silly reason to do things, vain and narcissistic and immature, Romantic or eccentric at best. Even pointing out that someone's reasons are of the second sort rather than the first is enough to delegitimize them.

And some of our confusion over things like "getting what you want vs. being happy" is due to an insufficiently explicit understanding of this distinction.

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When I (M29) was a young boy (M7) my father (M35) took me into the city (X167) to see a marching band (M23, M21, M22, F22, M24, M25, F21, M

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you're standing on a small bridge looking at the stream below.

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Some of you are worried about ppl falling for AI videos but Yall fall for fake Reddit posts all the time

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"can you believe it?" well, no. I can't. if it's popular enough to get screenshotted and posted on another website, inevitably somebody made it up entirely and posted on the internet for attention. even if there was some kernel of truth it's been filtered through so many layers of self-justification and rationalization and stripped of anything unflattering to themselves. but probably it's a creative writing exercise that bears no similarity to the author's lived experience apart from what it reveals about their worldview.

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my buddy brings her angel girlfriend to the function, I spend the whole time refusing to look at or even acknowledge her existence, because I am a staunch atheist and dont believe in that nonsense. she starts to throw things at my head to get my attention and between volleys of marbles and kitchen utensils I grunt "swamp gas. aurora borealis. probably a weather balloon.youre seeing things"

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i remember you from when we were bugs

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I actually passed away quite a few years ago, but I'm a very private person and never told anybody.

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graduate student running cutely across campus with nmr tubes in his mouth

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broke: god created men but samuel colt made them equal

woke: men created nations but j. robert oppenheimer made them equal