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AND INDONESIAN TOO I LOVE YOU JILLIAN 😭😭 #me

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"I am the other half of William Burroughs"

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books i read and finished in april

the kite runner by khaled hosseini

the stranger by albert camus

letters to a young poet by rainer maria rilke

the girl with the dragon tattoo by steig larsson

currently reading:

to the lighthouse by virginia woolf

next read:

a thousand splendid suns by khaled hosseini

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Virginia Woolf, from her novel titled "The Waves," originally published in 1931

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wonders never cease even though i believe i’ve been cursed ever since i was conceived. a beast. a beast whose favorite question to ask herself is; why do i turn everything sour? i make everything dull. i piss everyone off and i am so irrelevant sometimes i can’t even believe how… invisible i am. i need to go the fuck to sleep .

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Burroughs' posthuman becoming of unlimited desire

from the cambridge companion to the body in literature, in the chapter "posthuman bodies," 2015

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tal…. i love YOU 🫵

oh my god it’s the poml (pea (love) of my life) 🥰 i love /you/……..

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my baby lumia 🤍

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wow i’m blogging… crazy

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Charles O'Rear. Bird in farmland bush, May 1972

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Bastiaan Woudt

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Ocean Vuong, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous, 2019 / Ocean Vuong, Night Sky with Exit Wounds, 2016 // Queer (2024), dir. Luca Guadagnino.

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if you ask people in bill’s life who had been his greatest love you get several contradicting answers. james grauerholz to some, ian sommerville to others, allen ginsberg, brion gysin, john digiorno, even joan vollmer (and maybe this is closest to the truth) but nobody ever mentions lewis marker. yet, he is the undeniable true answer. there is no debate about it. nobody ever mentions him because nobody liked him, nobody could understand how a man like bill could hold a candle to someone like marker for all of his life. such a complicated man to know, almost impossible to understand.

everyone had a very superficial knowledge of him as a person. easier then, kinder even, to dismiss him entirely. but that’s not how love works, and it’s hard even for very intellectual people to admit sometimes that it’s something indefinable. none of the people i listed before were in bill’s dreams to the very end. marker was. marker was the body he dreamed of touching again. he was the comfort when the fear of death gripped him tight. we can name many names, but bill only named one.

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hi queermunity! here's your official interest check + participant application for the queer zine! deadline to submit is APRIL 6TH!

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we want to talk to you ... through zine-making ... 💙

we're so excited to collaborate on this love letter to queer and all its counterparts! follow here for updates and incoming interest checks, pitch forms and more!

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Daniel Craig in Kiss and Tell, 1996, directed by David Richards Part 1 | 2 | 3 

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the comeback of skinny-as-the-new-standard for beauty isn’t the only signal that we are quickly pivoting into socio-cultural fascism. wellness, the “no makeup makeup” bullshit, the pilates obsession, the “clean girl” aesthetic, the daily 12-steps shower routine using anti-bacterial soap (lol good luck with your skin barrier) to achieve an impossible standard of cleanliness are all visible signs too. they are not just “self care” as people love to say when you call them out on it.