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This Too Shall Pass

Listen Here August 31, 2019 Dear Dad,  It’s been a year and 22 days. Summer is ending but the weather is still beautiful. This next month is one of my favorites because the tourists will be gone. I feel really sad this week. I woke up today missing you. Feeling depressed. I have gained so much weight this past year and I really need to do something. The worst thing is that my back is…

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Father's Day

June 16th, 2019 Dear Dad, Happy Father’s Day! I know you don’t give a sh*t about any of this stuff, but the fact you’re not here this year hurts. I’ve been crying all day. I think the fact it’s on a Sunday just makes it harder. I woke up this morning and thought about how I would go to Allie’s Donuts in your honor, good excuse right? Well, it was fine until I walked out of the store and…

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Happy Mother's Day

Mother's Day

Dear Reader, Just a quick note to say Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there. To the single moms, the married moms, the moms of adult children. To those grieving the loss of their mom today. To those moms grieving the loss of their child today. I want to remind people that what can seem like a day to celebrate for many people is a day of mourning for others. Photo by George Dolgikh on…

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Happy Heavenly Birthday!

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Me and dad at the beach sea wall in the late 80s

April 28th, 2024

Dear Dad,

Yesterday would have been your 88th birthday. The last birthday I celebrated with you was my 40th, 6 years ago. That was one of the best and worst years of my life.

Sitting here reflecting, I can see how much I’ve grown.

How much I am still growing.

That was the first year I went on…

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Rewriting The Story

March 7th, 2019 Dear Dad,  I’m starting to see what you like about these books. The beautiful poetic descriptions. The common piece of the wide-open lands. The cowboys, the horses, the quiet and peace and beauty. Reading the descriptions makes me want to write. I want a small house with a deck and a backyard to sit on at night. Something with a pond of water in the backyard. Even just a small…

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Sharing Stories - Finding Connections

This week I am doing something a little different. In an effort to be consistent with posting I didn’t want to not post. I wanted to share some stories I have read by others in dealing with loss. These are stories that have not only touched me but have connected me with others going through grief. I want to share the story of Love. Love lost her son suddenly when he passed from an asthma…

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The Greatest Gift

https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/gingerfunk/episodes/The-Greatest-Gift-e2hp8ud February 26, 2019 Dear Dad,  Today I had a strange experience. It was like we had a conversation in my head, yet I saw you there, plain as day. It felt like it really happened. And I wonder if it was a dream. Or a memory. Or maybe, it was a visit from you. It felt so real. Like it actually happened. But then…

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Dreams of My Father

"That's all bullshit!" He replied.  I had just told my friend how I woke up to a bat in the living room at work that morning.  When I got home, I looked up the meaning of bat medicine in Native American symbolism. "Well, I don't care if it is or not...

Dreams, symbolism and signs of loved ones passed Photo by Andrea Piacquadio on Pexels.com Listen to the audio version here February 23, 2019 Dear Dad, I can’t decide if I feel better today or not. I’m still in bed at noon. Drinking my coffee and relaxing. I don’t know what I want to do today but for now it’s nothing.  You were in my dream again last night. Well, I don’t remember if I…

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The Weight of Grief

I recently read about work horses to find them described as docile, patient and how they can carry heavy loads. Grief can be a heavy load. It's funny because when you are in the midst of grief, so many people will tell you how strong you are, yet...

Honoring our bodies in order to lighten the load Listen to the audio version here February 20th, 2019 Dear Dad, It’s Wednesday.  This is one of those long, short weeks where you work a day less than normal, but it feels like a regular week.  I feel heavy today.  Not sad or anything but physically heavy.  My gut has grown these past few months.  Not sure if it’s from eating sweets since you…

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When You Say Nothing At All

Invigorate your senses with this journal entry on the power of silence & patience. Dad taught me when you say nothing at all.

The Power of Silence Listen to audio version here – Segment 2 Journal Entry – July 21, 2018 I woke up this morning thinking about dad and all the things I want to tell him while he’s here.  That I love him?  He knows that.  What do I really want him to know?   Thank you for teaching me to make the best bacon ever.  To cook it low and slow with patience.  So that it comes out crispy but not…

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Anticipatory Grief

The Grief Before The Grief Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com The other day I was texting with a friend. She recently found out her dad has cancer. Again. “I’m scared to go out because I think what if something bad happens while I’m gone! I know I sound nutty” she texted me. “Not at all!” I reassured her. Anticipatory Grief It made me think back to when my dad was in hospice. Every time I would…

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Dying on the Inside

The post is a heartfelt reflection on the complex emotions of grief after losing a loved one. The author candidly describes unexpected reactions, internal struggles, and the gradual process of healing.

A journey through the emotions of grief Photo by Liza Summer on Pexels.com Listen to the audio version here Dec 14th, 2018 Dear Dad, Today I’m having a lot of emotions. My heart is feeling heavy yet full of love. I have felt anxious, sad, fearful and relieved. I’m questioning so much and have so much on my mind. I’m worrying about Isaiah and his struggles. Wondering if I have ever put too…