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some of my friends be like

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Spectrum of overwhelm, now in triangle form due to popular demand

[Image description: A triangle chart titled, ‘Spectrum of Overwhelm.’ The three points are ‘404 Error,’ showing a person with an empty thought bubble; ‘wet beast,’ showing a person sweating and sobbing; and ‘rage beast’ showing a person clenching their fists in an outline of orange fire. The peak is the ‘404 error’ vertex, and the inside of the triangle here is coloured beige and labelled, ‘shutdown.’ The lower half is labelled ‘meltdown’ and is red on the rage beast side and blue on the wet beast side. \End description]

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I'll made some stickers <3

served my duty as an autistic artist and made a bunch of autism creature reaction images

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Blink :'(

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

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My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

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Why am i like this?

I can do anything, or least i don't need to spend too much energy learning new things… But i don't really know what i like, who i wanna be or what i wanna do and this feeling of doubts is killing me inside to outside.

Reading this u can think that im a teenager in the last yesars of highscool but no. I already grow up and turn into a 24y womand that cant finish a graduation cause always have this type of crisis in the midle of the road.

Maybe i can guilt the autism or ADHD syntoms but i know thats not the big cause. I just cant look to myself in like 5y and say that she can be pround of me, cause the only thing that ive been thinking about this last years its how i hate this country that i born and having no progresse with anything in my life.

The culture, the laws, theres no justice here and i wanna cry when i think that if i finished my graduation ill be just living here, working here, biulding a life here in this place that i dont want my future kids living.

I wanna cry when i think in my situiation that i want to desperatly change, but don`t have any condidions to do that.

I wanna cry, cry, cry, cry, die…!

But i have some love that i can do anything to keep, so i`ll survive. I'll just breath deeply and maybe isolate myself for a few days and everything will be okay.

Its funny that my therapy are up to date and i'm still think 'bout this stuffs and havin' intrusive thoughts. I'm still a mess even with medications, a good therapist and a lovely wonderful husband taking care of me everyday.

Will I be better someday?

I don't know.

Can't I just fly away?…