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*through gritted teeth* every day i choose to be kind *barely restraining myself from violence* i choose to have compassion *tamping down the vicious bloodlust inside me* i choose to care and to be kind and to love

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every summer i rot in the heat and kill myself a thousand times over the things i used to have but will never be mine again

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terrible years really make you understand the point of a new year. i know nothing much will have changed between dec 31 and jan 1, but we need to be able to partition off everything that’s happened to us, we need a moment to say, ‘that’s done, we’re done with it, it’s over’ and have a little hope that the future will be different. we need to be able to stop and take a breath and sing, in the middle of winter, and prepare ourselves for spring.

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Coffin Texts, spell 714

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the sheer power and vulnerability of the lyrics "and if the world dont break i'll be shaking it cuz i'm a young man after all ooooh and when the seasons change will you stand by me? cuz im a young man BUILT TO FALLLLLLL" jesus christ in heaven i need to lay down for a couple of days

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Could’ve been mallsoft if no people in the background, right? (@mcgaburi)

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january is one of those months where you experience every feeling on the human spectrum and you just have to go about your day like that isn't happening

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the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.

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i spend my days waiting. waiting for the water to boil and my tea to be ready. for spring to come back. for more daylight. the oil in the pan to heat up. a “hey i miss you” or “can you help me out for a second?” or “you want to hang out?” text. for my phone to finish charging. for good news. flowers on the table. the next hug. “hey, you got the job!”. waiting for the sun. to set. to rise. to see both. for summer to be around the corner. a good song. a falling star. a text back. i spend my time waiting to be remembered. i spend my time repeating that tomorrow will be better. tomorrow will be better. i spend my days waiting and waiting and waiting. i spend my days waiting unbearably.

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Paul Rockett: Glenn Gould’s Hands (1956)

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Escape screen time, rearrange furniture, open all the windows even if it’s cold, drop the baggage, drop the stuff piled up in the closet, drop the clothes I haven’t worn since 2019, go outside every day, breathe fresh air, stay out until it gets dark, feel the sun on my face

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It's 2050 and your cousin sends you a meme he saw on his neuralfeed via your neuralchip while you're on the highway going 200mph (new speed limit) and he didn't crop it so without warning your vision is completely overtaken by a mindshot of a youtube video of 2 cyberchimps pummeling each other to death, you try to close the mindshot but you get a 15 second unskippable US Army recruitment ad, you shout "elonbot, take over!" to avoid crashing but you weren't able to afford the weekly fee to keep the autopilot functioning and you crash into a school bus

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what was something you dreamt of doing as a child when you'd be "grown up" or an adult or when you'd have your own apartment? It can be as niche and as random as you'd like.

For example -

i'd have all shapes of pasta in my apartment because I mostly had penne and macaroni (or spaghetti occasionally) and the other other shapes really fascinate me.

Have lots of cereals in my pantry because I love them

Often get fresh flowers for my home

Have only plain solid color bedsheets

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love hides in questions, you cannot ask a thing without giving yourself away. how was your day? (i hope it was good) when can i see you again? (i pray it's soon) do you feel safe with me? (i feel safe with you) what is your favorite color? (i wish to enrobe you in all that makes you smile)

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not to be naive but it still shocks me when people are so apathetic and cruel towards others like .. you’re literally rotting on the inside … , hope you feel better soon ?