godhex

[godhex]

i don’t know why but i’m really amused by the winner of some ‘new kanji’ contest:

compare with the real kanji

座 (seat/gathering), but the two 人 (person) radicals have been moved from next to each other within the 土 (earth) radical to diagonally from each other, making this “social distance(d seating/gathering)”

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in order to be truly pro-kink, you need to be able to look at your own sexual preferences, see them for what they are (kinks, fetishes, whatever), and also realize that while yes, you shouldn't be shamed for personal sexual choices, kink also doesn't exist in a bubble. you need to understand your own kinks - which may sound like a given to us, but to a lot of other people, is not.

because often times our kinks don't define us, but non-kinky people, or even just people who have not dissected their own relationship with sex and kinks, will look at us and say "well if you're into that, then you must also think it's Right and Moral." this is dangerous, especially to people whose kinks are based in taboo - things they know outside of the bedroom are Wrong and Bad, but within the sexual scene they are able to explore safely. sex, for a lot of us, is taught to us as a taboo growing up - so it makes sense for those wires to get crossed with other "bad" or "taboo" things.

the problems arise, though, when you get those wires crossed but don't know it. this is especially common in cishet women - whose fantasies often involve female submission and male domination, intense power dynamics, and sometimes even dub- or noncon. but when you still view sexual desire itself as “bad” you are unable to understand what desires you have are sexual and communicate them in a way that emphasizes that. refusal to call kinky books erotica, taking kink subjects and imagery into non-kink spaces (often exposing children to it), and then outright refusing to acknowledge that this is something you enjoy for sexual satisfaction - that can be harmful. it is harmful, often times.

but it’s not because the kink itself is bad or wrong. it’s because the person who is performing or enjoying the kink isn’t doing so mindfully. in order to be pro-kink, or honestly even kink-neutral, we have to start acknowledging and talking about our sexual desires.

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honestly, especially in the current state of the world, you all have GOT to kill whatever puritanical voice inside your head keeps insisting that if something is erotic it has no social, artistic, or intellectual merit.

stop acting as if someone can’t enjoy both erotica and literary fiction or classics. it’s not some dichotomy.

stop acting as if erotic art can’t be poignant and meaningful. and that includes all erotic art - not just fine art.

stop insisting that sex scenes or erotic material ruin movies and shows just because you, personally, get icked out watching it.

no, not all erotic art is high art, and not all erotic art is meant to invoke deep intellectual discussion - but insisting that makes erotic art valueless, a disservice to intellectualism, or whatever else - does nothing but add fuel to a fire built on conservative ideology.

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emergency commission time

.... and other things if you so desire. more info (tos and such) in my carrd.

if you wish to order something, please do so through my kofi here. no slot limits bc i can't afford to decline anything lmao.

current goal is 2,500$ by the 30th. we're starting at 0.

long and skinny of what's happening under the cut.

gonna be real with you guys, i'm burnt the hell out and really wanted this year to be dedicated to furthering my learning as well as recovering from said burnout. unfortunately because i wasn't born a nepo baby, i'm not allowed that kind of freedom, lol. never ending stress for this idiote!!

anyways, disability fucked us over and refuses to pay up the 2k it owes us in backpay after mom's spinal fusion surgery earlier this year. since the money we got from my grandma's inheritance is (wisely) wrapped up in a CD, we cannot access it. for the past three weeks, we've been under the assumption that the 2k pending transaction was going to drop any day now. unfortunately, they've told us to go fuck ourselves today.

so here we are. rent's due by the 1st of july. the dogs are eating cat food. we'll need groceries and gas money at some point, but the rent is far more important.

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You know what

Audio original (fragmento)

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it digs around in the snow looking for tubers :)

WHEEL YOURSELF A DRAGON!

First take this classic dragon shape

Second, take this wheel and spin it 5, 7, or 10 times to modify the dragon!

Lastly, bask in your wonderful new child I ended up with a basilisk looking creature after spinning 7 times

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chat why would anyone be mean to me

[godhex]

emergency commission time

.... and other things if you so desire. more info (tos and such) in my carrd.

if you wish to order something, please do so through my kofi here. no slot limits bc i can't afford to decline anything lmao.

current goal is 2,500$ by the 30th. we're starting at 0.

long and skinny of what's happening under the cut.

gonna be real with you guys, i'm burnt the hell out and really wanted this year to be dedicated to furthering my learning as well as recovering from said burnout. unfortunately because i wasn't born a nepo baby, i'm not allowed that kind of freedom, lol. never ending stress for this idiote!!

anyways, disability fucked us over and refuses to pay up the 2k it owes us in backpay after mom's spinal fusion surgery earlier this year. since the money we got from my grandma's inheritance is (wisely) wrapped up in a CD, we cannot access it. for the past three weeks, we've been under the assumption that the 2k pending transaction was going to drop any day now. unfortunately, they've told us to go fuck ourselves today.

so here we are. rent's due by the 1st of july. the dogs are eating cat food. we'll need groceries and gas money at some point, but the rent is far more important.

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did you seriously just let it linger

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well its yet another case of things get worse before they dare get better. commissions post later. need to figure something out.

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sorry mama ,i love you so much i dont know what i will going to do if i lost you

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i really do think that "let me in" is the most potently horrifying phrase ever conceived of. just let me in. that's all you have to do. just invite me inside. show me kindness. trust me. all you have to do is say yes. all you have to do is open the door. the rest is up to me. but you can trust me. have faith. you wouldn't leave me out here. you wouldn't turn away. not you. you aren't cruel. you're a good person. i can see that. i need your help. that's why i'm asking this of you. just let me in. let me in. let me in let me in letmeinletmeinletmein LET ME IN

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literally though if you feel like your life is slipping through your fingers and every day goes too fast… try doing hard things, not just taking the easy route, like reading and making art and exercising and cooking a meal from scratch and journaling, doing these things without distraction, without being absorbed on a screen… the time will stretch and you’ll be reminded that life is long and beautiful if you make it so.

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Eva Funderburgh

love her work